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Sadness, with self loathing as a garnish


Naive

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I broke my truck's back window yesterday on accident. Was trying to get my brother's attention, he was driving like an idiot while I was in the bed since we were hauling stuff and the back seat was full and my mom was in the passenger's seat, and I hit the window too hard. Now it'll cost $275 to replace it. I don't have a job. Mom and Dad don't want to pay for it. Guess I'll just have to drive with a broken window. Feh.

 

I missed my best friend's 99 Agility party. I promised her I'd go, and then after I'd help her with MEP 2, but I didn't. She even held off the party for one day, because I wasn't online. And I still missed it. Because I was too busy playing PS3. Now she doesn't even want to talk to me. I told her I was sorry, she said what amounted to "Whatever" then either logged or took me off her friends list. Haven't seen her back online...

 

My brother's friend Marlon came to our house, I wandered into his room and asked where they were going, Marlon says they're going to his house and asked if I'd want to go. He went to his car, and my brother walked up to me and said "Please don't." Way to make me feel good bro.

 

I am in a long distance relationship. I haven't talked to her since November. I didn't mail her the Christmas present I'd gotten for her. It's still on my bed stand. I haven't even written in the card. I'd met her over the summer a few years back. She's the only girl who had ever loved me. And I can't even mail her a present. I don't even think she cares about me anymore. Hell, I wouldn't care about me if I wasn't me.

 

My social life outside of Runescape does not exist. I am morbidly obese. I smell like trash. My teeth are disgusting. My eyes are bloodshot.

 

I am going to die alone.

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The car window was an accident, your brother being an [wagon] is totally understandable (you're brothers), and the long distance relationship thing sounds iffy.

 

So, here's my advice:

 

1) You mentioned that you're morbidly obese, you smell, and that your teeth are pretty bad. Start working out. All you need is a fifty-pound sandbag to get you started. You might not be comfortable running, so just walk for an hour or two everyday. Change your diet. If you drink soda - stop.

 

2) Slimming down will help with your body odor, but the obvious fix is to take two showers a day.

 

3) Make reminders for yourself to brush your teeth at least three times a day, preferably when you wake up, somewhere around the middle of the day, and especially before you go to sleep.

 

How old are you? If you're under fifty, you have plenty of time to turn yourself around. If you're fifty or older, you might want to do it anyway just so you don't get a heart attack.

 

About the best friend's agility party thing, you could've made that one. Just wait till she's feeling a little more forgiving, then apologize.

 

EDIT: Bloodshot eyes are easily fixed with eyedrops that you can get from pretty much anywhere. And start looking for a job. Be diligent about it. Applying at one place and never going back does not count as trying to find a job.

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listen to morningrise, very sound advice.

 

and even if your bit comfortable running, do it anyways. It's actually healthier for a male to sprint for about 30 seconds to a minute, then to jog, getting your breath and sprint again, switching off. Eventually once you're more comfortable with it sprint for as long as you possibly can, then jog back home :P

 

Also, the smell could be because of your diet, eat more fruits and veggies, and less red meats, I deal with the same thing, especially the bad breath, and it helps a lot.

 

When your brushing your teeth make sure to get the back of your tongue, thats where the worst of the smell comes from. Seriously I choke myself almost every morning haha

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