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Tesset - The lyrics fit with the theme well. They follow the story and keep with smash events.
Muggi - I want to feel pumped up by the music, not lulled. Song itself isn't bad, but it doesn't make me feel like I'm preparing to smash my opponents.
Hell, I've considered it for my face simply because shaving is a pain.
Permanent? Maybe I need to get some of that on particular parts of my nether regions...
In othernews I think I need to start a blog or something. Maybe just a journal. Not sure if its due to reading heavier topics recently or I've just hit my edgy teen phase a few years too late but I've been having a lot of "deep" thoughts recently I feel should be saved for later. How deep or original, I have no idea.
Not necessarily new year new me, but definitely going to plan out a couple of goals for the new year. Arbitrary time to do it other than the cultural norm of setting resolutions.
Odds I stick with most of the goals? We'll see, although the main one for the New Year is going to be hitting the gym regularly. There's no real reason that I can't, and I've been feeling the urge. Otherwise think I'm going to look at getting some hiking/camping stuff in the and try to delve into that hobby in the Spring.
Had a rather poor Christmas. Of my friends, didn't get anything from all but two which was a bit of a letdown considering I made everyone lots of food (brownies, fudge, cookies, etc). Won't be making that mistake again. Even my brother didn't get me anything...
Doesn't help I'm under a bit of a depressive spell and feeling incredibly lonely. I don't particularly like Christmas anyway.
Hey man, you're not alone. In a bit of a depressive/lonely spell myself right now and its a bit of a struggle.
Just need to find myself a mission or something to launch into in order to drag myself out. Hopefully with presents and family tomorrow that'll help.
Maybe I just need more hobbies, but literally my current routine is to wake up between 9 and 10, stay in bed until close to 12 just playing on my phone. Finally crawl out of bed and shower/eat. Video games, read, or watch Netflix until 6-7 then grab supper. After that back to the previous activities, go to bed around 1 or 2, rinse and repeat.
I'm going slowly insane for want of stuff to do and always find myself in this predicament when I've got too much free time. This post is literally because it can kill a few minutes to type and hopefully start a conversation.
I know where I am the province technically lowered the limit to .05 by enacting fines and license suspensions to anyone between that and .08.did they? didn't hear about that, unless you're referring to breathalyzing without probable cause, which was part of the legalization of marijuana
They just upped the drinking and driving laws here. Not too much though.
go for it. experience like that is crucial. the connections you'll make cpoild be life changing. companies dont give a rats ass about grades or what unrelated job you worked in school, its all about who you know and paid relevant experience. tightening the belt for a few months will pay off 100x in the lng run
Is this Christmas Goon, the helpful and not so joking cat?
life is crazy sometimes. GL with whatever you decide to do
Certainly won't get any judgement from me about venting on TIF haha
I can only encourage you to open up and act more freely as yourself, otherwise you're only living in a self created prison. And who wants to live like that?
Well, its been working okay so far, but I completely agree with what you're saying.
I think we all use this place to vent. And I quite like the long reads.
However, you gotta give this thing a shot, otherwise you'll regret it. You only regret lost chances.
Oh yeah, definitely need to do something. Mostly just regretting not doing something sooner.
I find that I regret not taking shots more than I regret taking them.
This is me, if I do something and screw it up or have a bad outcome? Whatever, at least I know that something was done and can pack myself up with some new knowledge. If I don't do something and just stay the course, sure I might be a little more comfortable but its going to nag at me, at least for a little bit, and be regretted far more.
I'm sure in the morning I'm going to wake up back to my relatively bullet proof and carefree existence where pain and suffering seem far away and something that hardly ever affects me, but for now my mind is travelling the path of retrospect and trying to follow the path into the future where I'm uncertain what choices to make.
Add to this a really, completely bleeped dream I had last night. Actually, not a dream but an almost realistic nightmare that I legitimately woke from surprised that it wasn't reality. Something I've been pondering for meaning all day but sadly fits into this existential crisis.
Too top all of this off I've also created another, very real, situation for myself due to lack of action that I'm not sure I'll ever resolve but will have to sit on for at least the next month. Again, young and relatively inexperienced and I'm sure that it's a passing fancy, that most of you TIF readers out there would tell me not to worry about or that I'll get over it regardless of thoughts now. However, I think for the first time I've truly kind of fallen in love with a person. Maybe its just an infatuation, but it feels different from previous times when legitimately I could tell I was attracted to the person, and they were cool/nice to hang out with but it just feels different.
Moreso, because of a lack of action I have no idea if these feelings are reciprocated or even a thought in the mind of this individual. I have my hunch, and I hope a good one, that this person might also share some feelings, but I've allowed things to pass and fear them slipping away.
As absolutely ridiculous and "Disney" as it is to think about, especially because I know realistically it's not true, this is almost one of those situations where if "the one" exists I may have found them.
That all being said, I know that realistically I'm placing this person on a pedestal of perfection they could probably never live up to and creating a fantasy in my mind that could never be true. I know that given my age and experience it's super unlikely that any of what I write is true or lasts for longer than a couple of months. I'm almost definitely just feeling an infatuation that will go away, a case of "oneitis" that probably isn't going to be reciprocated and definitely never will if I stay an afraid chump and make no moves.
However, the chemical signals in my brain, the complicated wiring of my neurons is telling me all of these feelings despite the objective knowledge I have and have stated here right now. I know that really, a lot of this is just being almost childish to say and believe, but I still believe it and have that feeling in my gut when thinking about it. Something I'll dwell on over the next month and try to "overcome" although that's not quite the word I really want to use.
I guess the big thing is that for a person who rarely feels truely strong emotions and, whether healthy or not, has built up walls of "protection" around my inner self with a ton of deflective mechanisms and clever traps in my mind to collect feelings. I truly feel like ripping it all down and laying myself bare with my emotions and feelings to this person. Not to tear down a section of the wall or let loose a sliver as I've done with many friends and even strangers to help connect. But to truly open the gates and let them in to see everything, but find myself reacting out of habit with what I have built already. I think that's what scares me, a weird phrase to use but one that most adequately describes my emotions about it.
And now for the part where I say sorry for the long post, more of a mind dump really that I don't expect anyone to have to read and may go back and delete later. I just needed a cathartic release in a relatively anonymous setting to express these emotions, fears, and realizations along with writing them down to help myself understand them better.
Veiva, that's something that I struggle with myself. Its slowly started to get better, but honestly still has a fair way to go.
The first thing is to change your inner monologue. In my case I can see the contrast because, as an example, someone gets a challenging question wrong or throws an answer out there? Good job, think that might be right, etc... I do the same thing? Internal monologue now but its not as nice things, just going to not post them because someone somewhere would find it offensive, but its very negative. Just changing this monologue that's going on all the time, is really hard. You've taught your brain to think this way and it doesn't really want to change easily so you need to be mindful.
Then you need to congratulate yourself. Big thing with me is someone does something above and beyond? Or even just unexpected? I'll thank them profusely and be super grateful for it or at least praiseful. Same thing by me? No big deal. Its expected. Probably could have done it better. Oh that one mistake you made, major deal.
Finally, and this is a short and in no way comprehensive list that might not even ring true for you, you need to realise that you are only seeing slivers of peoples lives. Most people are very selective in what they share in public and some even have full on public faces. All those people that were partying around you and being happy? They're drunk, maybe to cover up or get away from how they really feel.
To add on to what RPG said and kind of tie in with what I said, its a total mind thing. Following an inspirational instagram can be cool, lots of good quotes and stories, but you may still need that mindshit or mindfulness to actually take it in and appreciate it instead of scoffing at it or just reading without gaining a message.
I can't decide if the signature makes it more or less likely to be a spam bot tbh.
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Not entirely convinced this isn't one of you guys posting and not a spam bot.
So right after I made that comment they went to an old clan recruitment post by Arceus and just posted a couple of emoji's...
Also, didn't see the signature at first because I was on mobile.
It tastes great, my tummy is just unhappy
Crampy and bad unhappy or just simply different stool unhappy?
The first is probably not fun and might need to be avoided. The second is a risk/side effect associated with chili and you should be fine to continue eating it. Possibly work some more dietary fibre into your other eating for the day.