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  1. Genuinely humbled by how many people came to my birthday meal.

    I have had depression for so many years and thought that few people even really liked me.

     

    For fourteen people to take time out of their day to have dinner with me is way more than I ever imagined....

     

    This has been the best birthday I've had in over a decade. I am about to start drinking in about 30 minutes but it could not have gone any smoother.

    I am so grateful to have the best housemates who bought me a wonderfully delicious cake.

     

    Very chilled day!

    Glad at least one of us is having a good time :)

     

    As for today... Well, I went to the park after a fit of rage last night and meditated, tried the whole ego killing thing.

     

    My ego (the id in particular) is a stubborn bastard who won't quit though, so I gave up on that.

     

    Now I just make D&D characters. One day I'll DM. One day...

  2. Today I got kicked out of my father's house after I refused to help him outside because not an hour earlier he called me a [bleep]ing [wagon]. So I did what any paranoid schizophrenic would and freaked out. Started punching walls. Threw my computer to the floor. Packed a few clothes. Went to the cousin's house. The one who punched me. Wailed at the front phone box that I was suicidal.

     

    He clicked.

     

    I'm currently on the way to another cousin's house. Mother is driving me.

     

    There is only one voice in my head currently. She screams in agony unable to trust anyone anymore. This is my life. I cannot be personable. And people abuse me for it. My own father has disowned me.

     

    I have never felt more alone.

     

    Help...

  3. Lmao just because you have scars doesn't mean you're depressed. Are you competently lit? Scars are a remembrance of wounds once had. They're a lesson, so to speak. Lesson of what happened in the past, how you handled it, how you can avoid it in the future, and how to move on with your life. Telling someone they're "depressed" because they have emotional scars is ignorant and completely stupid. You might as well tell a woman her beauty is tainted because she has stretch marks after giving birth. Like seriously, do you even think about the shit you spew sometimes? 

    You would love Illaoi. League of Legends champ.

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    Or there was a time that I made a thread about a very simple "shortcut" technique to feeling very strong, profound happiness... A technique which is endorsed by the president of the APA, which I learned from my old positive psychology professor in college. I've literally witnessed about a dozen people cry tears of joy for the first time in their lives after using the technique... Yet nobody on these forums wanted to try it :P

     repost pls
    http://forum.tip.it/topic/324332-gratitude/

    I like to call this recalibrations for your head. Any emotion can work for this.

  5. REAL TALK BELOW THIS LINE ________________________

     

    I came back home 4 days ago. It has been an agonizing 3 months spent in San Francisco not being able to find a job and being ostracized for my recently diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia and what I consider to be intense Aseperger's. I got hurt in San Francisco and decided I should go back home.

     

    Back in Florida I was about to go to a job interview, called up my cousin who I asked to watch the dogs while I went to a job interview... He flipped out and thought I was trying to hurt the dogs (he believes everyone's things to be his) and rushed over.

     

    A slam on the door. "OPEN THIS [bleep]ING DOOR!" I unlock the door, and it gets flung open. There he is, dressed all in green like a fat kid at the fair, green shades, you'd never guess this manchild was 30. I'm 25 and taller and much better shape for reference.

     

    He grabs all three dogs in his hands and bolts for his car.

     

    Naturally my id fires off full force and howls "BRING BACK MY PUPS!" I chase after him, the dogs whimpering and Bindi very likely pissing herself. Nikki poor dimentia/cancer ridden addled dog was scared shitless and biting my cousin, and Bubba was shaking badly.

     

    I threw myself on his front door and lodged my hand inside his car, screaming for him to give back the dogs. I grabbed his shirt.

     

    He unleashed all hell on my head.

     

    First impact. I completely start seeing red, id is furious.

     

    Second impact. I see stars.

     

    Third impact. "[bleep]ING LET GO OF ME YOU PSYCHOPATH" "GIVE ME BACK MY BABIES"

     

    Fourth impact. "CALL THE POLICE HE'S STEALING MY DOGS!"

     

    Fifth impact. "DON'T LISTEN TO HIM HE'S A CRAZY SCHIZOPHRENIC PSYCHOPATH"

     

    Sixth impact. A woman runs over and screams at the cousin to stop.

     

    Seventh impact. "IT'S OK HE WAS TRYING TO KILL THESE DOGS I'M SAVING THEM THEY'RE MY DOGS"

     

    Eighth impact. "HE'S A LIAR HE'S SSSSSSSSSSTEALING MY DOGS THEY'RE THEY'RE THEY... Parent's.... dogs....

     

    Ninth impact. My glasses fall off.

     

    Tenth impact. "Are you done yet [bleep]. Give them back."

     

    By this time I manage to get his arms out of the car and pin them against the frame to get him to stop attacking. I'm completely in another world right now and really want to break his arms in so many places but my id is in pieces. Superego takes over and tells me not to, he is mistaken and will see sense after this is over. Martyr comes out. "Let him destroy you if it means he will realise the error of his ways"

     

    I reach back in snatching for my dogs.

     

    First punch to the jaw. GIVE. THEM. BACK.

     

    Second impact to the jaw. GET THE [bleep] OFF OF ME YOU PSYCHOTIC [roosters]UCKING MOTHER[bleep]ER PSYCHOPATHIC PEDOPHILE DOG[bleep]ING PIECE OF SHIT [bleep].

     

    Third impact. Shove his shoulder, dragging his arm back into the car and leaving a nasty bruise. [bleep] him. I'm concussed badly. But I don't care he's stealing my babies.

     

    He bites my upper arm through my nice blue polo.

     

    I feel no pain. ONLY ANNOYANCE.

     

    He starts backing out. Dragging me along. Me desperately telling the woman to call the police.

     

    HE'S A PSYCHOPATHIC ATHEIST DON'T LISTEN TO HIM.

     

    I start crying at the betrayal.

     

    I lose my grip and he drives off.

     

    I dial 911.

     

    MY DOGS HAVE BEEN STOLEN

     

    address?

     

    THEY'VE BEEN STOLEN

     

    sir we need your address.

     

    2120 ALAMANDA DRIVE NORTH MIAMI FLORIDA 33181 MY NAME IS BRANDON KELLY THE THIEF IS ***************** AND LIVES AT ***********************.

     

    what happened

     

    HE HURT ME AND STOLE MY DOGS

     

    do you need medical attention

     

    (Should... SHOULD... we seek.... h-h-h-hh-elp, L-lllll--little l--amb?)

     

    (HE HAS OUR FAMILY WOLF)

     

    I NEED MY DOGS SAVED.

     

    police are en route

     

    fire rescue as well to check you out.

     

    Long story short. Restraining order. Dogs are safe. I may be permanently brain damaged, I plan on going back to the ER tomorrow after I put in my job app. No insurance currently.

     

    I will drop the charges after the trial.

     

    He needs to learn that you can't brutalize someone and get off scott free.

     

    YOU DO NOT [bleep] WITH US.

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    Video related.

     

     

     

    I wish I were as strong as you, but I cannot forget as I would also give up the cheerful memories of crowded skype calls, joyous hours of board games, scape, pokemon battles, and far to much I could list. I've lived an interesting 23 years and have yet to find another soul that I could relate to as much as him. I'm not into HIM like that, but the bond between us was as stronger than brothers. We had people come into the picture that splintered us many times, but still we remained good friends, both of us mustering apologies after so many stupid arguements of silly banter and interpersonal skype calls. We were together for 6+ hours a day, everyday. WE knew when the other was feeling down, and how to bring them up, yet how to bring each other down to other. WE laughed at our own faults, as well as each others. The last time we spoke was in february when I was on hard times and in a rather trollish mood. Something I said was smited to oblivion even if it was my typical playful passive taunts, and I regret that day more than any in my life. I was swore off, thrown away, exiled to the hellish land of loneliness. As I said it is my greatest regret, but something I refuse to forget.

     

    Alright buddy, I hate to break it to you, but you're an adult. This isn't how adults are supposed to act. I get you're a kid at heart enjoying pokemon and mmos, but there's a difference between that and not knowing when to move on.

     

    It wasn't working. You guys couldn't go two days without being at each other's throats for the last three months you were talking, probably. It was nothing bad jabs at each other that were rarely in the same playful vein that's usually used. You say passive, playful taunts, but in the end there was nothing but venom behind every single one. It was as passive aggressive as... these constant posts here and elsewhere.

     

    You're a fine enough guy but I'm sick and tired of seeing the same whining of this still months later. If you were younger, I would understand, but you're an adult and yet you sound like you're a 13 year old who broke up with their first girlfriend or boyfriend with all the dramatic and flair.

     

    I am not commenting on the dynamics of anyone else involved because pure and simple you two are done being friendly and you need to stop treating it like a wound still bleeding four months later. When it scabs over, stop picking out it, or you'll end up with a scar when it could have healed healthily when left alone.

     

    If you had cared, if it had really mattered, you would have done something when it mattered rather than (what is this, the fourth of fifth time?) vague-posting your teenage angst and looking for redemption not from yourself, but from others. So that the next time, if we get another next time, you wont have learned anything and we'll get the same problems and you'll end up on the curb again vague-posting and reposting stupid facebook memes about how your tortured soul gave all to the world and received nothing in return. There is only one single thing in this world that you control, and it's your actions. Think about how next time you should try changing them, instead of others.

     

    I'm not looking for a dialogue here or a reply. I'm telling you to move on so that next time you get a similar friendship you will have actually learned something to help it grow, not fester and become foul with toxicity. And if I hear "in my defense" one more time I'm going to punch a wall.

     

    A relationship, no matter what kind, should never be the kind of strife you two had 24/7. I am speaking from personal experience here.

    The scars are what makes you unique. Being plain and unable to stand out is a terrible existence.
    What? No way dude. That's the kind of thing that depressed people say to rationalize their depression rather than seeking to improve their lives and become happier. Scars don't make you unique-- depression is one of the most common illnesses in the world; it's easy to be depressed because you don't have to do anything. If anything, happiness is what makes you unique in these days. Finding a genuinely happy person is extremely rare.

     

    And what if I find happiness in my scars and broken mind?

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    Video related.

     

     

     

    I wish I were as strong as you, but I cannot forget as I would also give up the cheerful memories of crowded skype calls, joyous hours of board games, scape, pokemon battles, and far to much I could list. I've lived an interesting 23 years and have yet to find another soul that I could relate to as much as him. I'm not into HIM like that, but the bond between us was as stronger than brothers. We had people come into the picture that splintered us many times, but still we remained good friends, both of us mustering apologies after so many stupid arguements of silly banter and interpersonal skype calls. We were together for 6+ hours a day, everyday. WE knew when the other was feeling down, and how to bring them up, yet how to bring each other down to other. WE laughed at our own faults, as well as each others. The last time we spoke was in february when I was on hard times and in a rather trollish mood. Something I said was smited to oblivion even if it was my typical playful passive taunts,  and I regret that day more than any in my life. I was swore off, thrown away, exiled to the hellish land of loneliness. As I said it is my greatest regret, but something I refuse to forget.

     

     

     

    Alright buddy, I hate to break it to you, but you're an adult. This isn't how adults are supposed to act. I get you're a kid at heart enjoying pokemon and mmos, but there's a difference between that and not knowing when to move on. 

     

    It wasn't working. You guys couldn't go two days without being at each other's throats for the last three months you were talking, probably. It was nothing bad jabs at each other that were rarely in the same playful vein that's usually used. You say passive, playful taunts, but in the end there was nothing but venom behind every single one. It was as passive aggressive as... these constant posts here and elsewhere.

     

    You're a fine enough guy but I'm sick and tired of seeing the same whining of this still months later. If you were younger, I would understand, but you're an adult and yet you sound like you're a 13 year old who broke up with their first girlfriend or boyfriend with all the dramatic and flair.

     

    I am not commenting on the dynamics of anyone else involved because pure and simple you two are done being friendly and you need to stop treating it like a wound still bleeding four months later. When it scabs over, stop picking out it, or you'll end up with a scar when it could have healed healthily when left alone. 

     

    If you had cared, if it had really mattered, you would have done something when it mattered rather than (what is this, the fourth of fifth time?) vague-posting your teenage angst and looking for redemption not from yourself, but from others. So that the next time, if we get another next time, you wont have learned anything and we'll get the same problems and you'll end up on the curb again vague-posting and reposting stupid facebook memes about how your tortured soul gave all to the world and received nothing in return. There is only one single thing in this world that you control, and it's your actions. Think about how next time you should try changing them, instead of others.

     

    I'm not looking for a dialogue here or a reply. I'm telling you to move on so that next time you get a similar friendship you will have actually learned something to help it grow, not fester and become foul with toxicity. And if I hear "in my defense" one more time I'm going to punch a wall.

     

    A relationship, no matter what kind, should never be the kind of strife you two had 24/7. I am speaking from personal experience here.

     

    The scars are what makes you unique. Being plain and unable to stand out is a terrible existence.

  8. All I see here is that people are basically giving up by saying there's no way for us to compete with the other help/fan sites.

     

    If more Tip.It members helped updating our database and used their time polishing old out-dated guides we would gain more popularity. It's simply a matter of trying. With or without J mods.

     

    Each site has their advantages and disadvantages, we aren't done for, and we wont be thanks to those who are still keeping the site running and constantly updating the website.

     

    If you see something that's missing, old or otherwise should be mentioned; Don't hesitate to report it out in the forums.

     

    If I may; I'm currently working in reincarnating TMHT and at the same time spending time in updating the database. Anyone interested in joining the TMHT project please contact me as soon as you can. Happy holidays.

    If it's not too much trouble could you see about asking Crew leader if I could come back? I'm under the impression y'all need some crewbies.

  9. I've never taken the time to understand Reddit because it just looks ugly, as far as I could tell it's just lists of questions with no sub categories.

     

    I will always prefer this style of forum, it's a shame they are a dying breed.

    They don't have to die, a community is as strong as its members.

  10. I decided to log again to let you guys know that I uploaded the video fully explaining why I'm done with the game. I know I'm being a bit hypocritical as I said in last post I'm logging out forever, but just know I have a good reason to log back in now. I must tell you that like with all of my videos it does have swearing, just be aware of that. Anyway click here to see said video. I'm not just logging back in to show the video, I'm also logging back in to thank the community properly.

     

    I might have said some stuff that was very untrue last summer. And I am very sorry about that, the fact is I wasn't being myself then, I had some mental issues, which is why I shouldn't have gone online then. I should have went back to the Internet when I was feeling better. I really hope you guys will forgive me.

     

    But anyway as promised I am now gonna thank you guys properly. First off, if there is one thing I can be proud of it's that steel dragons killing guide I made in 2007. It is outdated now, but I am proud of the fact I at least made one good thread during my career on this message board, I won't link it here because like I said it's outdated, so thanks for the support. I also am thankful for the support of the you're fired game as well as the time machine game, even though the later has been inactive for a very long time. But that's enough of good threads I made. The next thing I'm gonna thank you for is all the help you guys gave me over the years. In the help and advice forum, people have done so much help that I had a lot of fun with the game, and understand now a lot of aspects more. And of course I'm also thankful for everyone who called out on my bad suggestions, bad rants, and bad posts in general. I should have realized that anybody who was being blunt with these weren't trying to harm me but point it the major flaws, I realize that now and am thankful.

    Take all the time you need. Develop that thick skin. Become a better person overall. I'll always welcome you into the HYT clan if you ever come back, know you have a home here. Good luck Blaze.

  11. Hi there! My name is Brandon, and I have been a tiffer for a very long time. Back when Lightning ran the friend chat, and Forsakenmage after her, and Shyla after her, and Serpent Eye after her, and now sc, the current owner.

     

    Sc has seen fit to allow me to administrate the clan citadel, and we have just revived the place this morning!

     

    It's a dilapidated T1 citadel currently, but my vision for it is to provide a place for all Tipitters to hang out and have fun.

     

    I've been gone from my community for far too long and I miss the glory days. Maybe it's greedy of me. Whatever. I miss you all, and I hope you all come to visit the citadel. There's not much at the moment, but it'll be returning to its splendor soon enough. Which is why I'm here.

     

    I do not wish to scalp anyone from any current clans. But all are welcome to guest, and if you so choose I would be more than happy to induct anyone to the clan.

     

    Hope to see you all soon!

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  12. I realize today that I still have a hell of a lot of growing up to do but I just don't get any of the support I need from my brother. Just criticism and no acknowledgement of my accomplishments.

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