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    It's Super Effective!

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    I hate to go ranting about my life, since recent posts point out that Cow and Nekyia have it objectively worse, and I'm sure quite a few others here as well. But it's 3 am and I can't sleep, which is normal and my reaction varies from "I know I should be in bed but I have a poor sleep schedule and don't need to be up before noon tomorrow later today anyways" and "it's 3 am and I should really be in bed several hours ago since I need to be out of bed at 8 tomorrow." Guess which one this falls in. Yup. Gotta be outta bed at 8 tomorrow, yay.

     

    Anyways I feel very worked up since there's a bunch of stuff on my mind right now. So I typed up a short little rant, and I'm gonna post it here since I want to get feedback on it but I'm, quite frankly, a little too scared to show it to the people in my life that it's about. And also you'll probably learn a bit about my life (more then I should tell people online, but whatever if I was a smart person I'dve gone to bed like 4 hours ago) and maybe a few questions.

     

    Well here goes (warning wall of text):

     

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    I’m annoyed because every decision I made about post secondary was ultimately made to please someone else. As a result, each and every time (including this last stint online) has ended poorly because deep down I didn’t care that much. And I feel more pressure from my dad to continue down this path, along with hollow promises of great wealth (that I’ve been hearing for years and haven’t seem come to fruition) and wealth that, quite frankly, I don’t want. I don’t mind money up to a point, but I cannot see myself happy with servants.

     

    I feel like I’m starting to finally figure out what I actually want from life and all I feel is pressure pushing against it. My oldest friend dislikes Mormons and my conversion to it, because of (probably) some deeply-rooted irrational dislike that he justifies by making the bible a book to holy to be added to. He dislikes me going to DnD because of something that probably boils down to a basic jock vs nerd struggle that still exists; he justifies it that I won’t meet girls that way. True, but I’m also not gonna meet girls playing call of duty or playing poker at someone's place where, if I’m lucky, there will be one single attractive girl and at least four single guys. Or hanging out at a guy’s garage, full of people drinking, smoking, at best two girls who have boyfriends, WWE (which I dislike and think is trash, although I know I shouldn’t have anything against people watching it.) DnD I have a decent amount of fun for like five hours straight. In this guy's garage, I'll be there for an hour constantly feeling like this is time I'll never get back.

     

    I feel like I’m finally starting to figure out what I want from life and all I feel is pressure pulling me back towards the same “go to college get a real job” crap. Which quite frankly, if that was gonna work, I’d have a damn degree by now and some introductory job that I dislike and at best I’d be five years away from going “the money’s ok and I’m scared of leaving that but I really feel unfulfilled with my career.”

     

    On a completely unrelated note, I’m also rather pissed that my health care plan only covers $600 worth of diabetes supplies because most type 2 diabetics should only need to test their blood sugar twice a day. With test strips at about 80 cents a piece, this works out nicely. It doesn’t work out nice for the type 1 diabetic who should test AT LEAST a minimum of FOUR times a day, and IDEALLY he or she would be testing SIX times a day.

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    It's Super Effective!

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    This is kind of my point. A person "growing up" and becoming professional has, in my opinion, very little to do with age.

     

    I dunno. I guess it's just... maybe it's just my life, but I feel like society expects people to have a birthday at a certain age and magically turn into an adult. Boom you're 18 now figure out how to pay taxes and your medical insurance and what you want to do in life and start doing it.

     

    K, no, this is definitely just a rant about my own life.

    I take public transit enough to see that there's a fair bit of difference between high-school-age kids and community college students: there's maybe a two year gap between them at most, but you don't see the older ones swearing at the bus driver/older(/female) passengers and bragging about all the drugs they're going to do. Same kind of thing?

     

    Agreeing that aging isn't some magic process, seems like the main thing is the experience.

     

     

    Graduating high school can be a huge kick in the ass for people not already mature. Suddenly you're faced with "what am I gonna do with my life" which is ignorable in high school. I know I just brushed that aside and didn't think about it. And any high schooler whose main focus in life is partying, sex and drugs probably hasn't seriously thought about it, regardless of whether or not they claim to have thought about it.

     

    Beyond high school, growing up is something is something you need to go out and do. Something you need to push for and seek. In high school, people push you forward and try and keep you from falling. There's not a whole lot of that going on post-high school.

     

     

    I had a date Thursday with a statistician. He was 23, fresh out of W&M, and already had a professional real job. It made me feel really immature in comparison and I usually feel beyond my years. I don't know if I want to pursue anything with someone so much more mature than me. That and he does a lot of coke.

     

    On the other hand I've been carded last month to see a movie. The ticket lady said I had to be 16 because it was at like 11:40pm. Not even sure how many 16 year olds would have ID.

    She also called me sir. That was kinda a thrill lol

     

    I'm sorry what? I generally consider someone who does hard drugs someone who doesn't have their shit together.

    It's Super Effective!

    in BlogScape (Ongoing Progress Reports and Goals)

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    Age is pretty important still and there's definitely a difference between 23, 25, and 28 year old guys.

     

    The kind of guys I try to find are ones that are growing up and getting professional through their twenties though. There's a shitton of 25-35 year olds still doing childish stuff, so I guess age doesn't change maturity for some people.

     

    /just turned 20, don't like to date under 23.

     

    This is kind of my point. A person "growing up" and becoming professional has, in my opinion, very little to do with age.

     

    I dunno. I guess it's just... maybe it's just my life, but I feel like society expects people to have a birthday at a certain age and magically turn into an adult. Boom you're 18 now figure out how to pay taxes and your medical insurance and what you want to do in life and start doing it.

     

    K, no, this is definitely just a rant about my own life.

    It's Super Effective!

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    So, I'm playing Pathfinder (basically D&D) and I'm playing a summoner, so I have this creature I can summon and evolve and stuff.

     

    And by evolve I mean extra arms and stuff.

     

    So at some point he(she? it?) will be basically a winged centaur with four arms each holding a sword and two tentacles for natural attacks.

     

    His battle plan is flying charge into the foe, followed by attacking the foe with his four swords and two wings and two tentacles.

    How are summoners, anyway? They look interesting but I keep hearing that they have the potential to be utterly game-breaking.

     

     

    Pretty sure they have that potential. That being said, pretty sure a wizard is more game breaking if you build him right. The thing about the summoner is, at least so far, it's basically giving me two characters to play. Each of them (so far - I'm only lvl 2) seem slightly below average characters. I've got a puny mage (from my experience, at lvl 1 mages are pretty terrible) and a decent fighter, essentially. (By fighter I mean melee user not the class)

    It's Super Effective!

    in BlogScape (Ongoing Progress Reports and Goals)

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    I kinda want to go clubbing

     

    Oh wow I just got that.

     

    UNRELATED:

    So, I'm playing Pathfinder (basically D&D) and I'm playing a summoner, so I have this creature I can summon and evolve and stuff.

     

    And by evolve I mean extra arms and stuff.

     

    So at some point he(she? it?) will be basically a winged centaur with four arms each holding a sword and two tentacles for natural attacks.

     

    His battle plan is flying charge into the foe, followed by attacking the foe with his four swords and two wings and two tentacles.

     

    Because reasons.

     

    Someone draw that plz

     

    UNRELATED:

    Oh and it's snowing here too but here is Canada so I'm like sweet, home expansion on the igloo. It'll be tough work, lemme get my shorts and t shirt.

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