I don't know what's gone into me, why and how the [bleep] a girl has caused me this much anxiety. Has not happened in years. I just saw her for 5 minutes, for the first time in a month. Didn't even touch her. And [bleep]. I just babbled. And messed up. Completely. Hot bloody dang.
IME it'll probably take at least 6 months before that anxiety starts to become more manageable. But I've always told women like that how I felt about them, and that I can no longer see them because of it. Helps with closure and makes it easier to essentially cut them out of my life until I'm back to being level-headed