Reveal Confessions, Secrets & Regrets...

[Omar]

I secretly hate One Direction.

[muggiwhplar]

I openly hate One Direction.

[obfuscator]

I think it's stupid to hate a band.

[Ginger_Warrior]

If only you saw what I could see / You'll understand why I want you so desperately

... I love that line. That's a great line. Grammatically incorrect, I might add, but still great.

[muggiwhplar]

DAMMIT OBFUSCATOR RUINED IT

[RpgGamer]

I feel partially responsible for my friend killing herself.

[Low Levelled]

I feel partially responsible for my friend killing herself.

 

If you think itd be good for yourself to talk about, would you elaborate? If you think it'd be bad, just keep on scrolling and remember, you're a good dude

[RpgGamer]

I feel partially responsible for my friend killing herself.

 

If you think itd be good for yourself to talk about, would you elaborate? If you think it'd be bad, just keep on scrolling and remember, you're a good dude

 

There's not a phrase I could type that'll bring her back. I realize it's not my fault, but it doesn't make me feel any better.

[purpieman2]

That happens. Nothing that you can type, say, or anything that can turn back time. Even if only for a minute. Good for you to realize its not your fault for things like that. My secret would be that i enjoy some feminine media, but humans do have a little bit of hormones of the opposite sex.

[Solemn]

.....

[Sprint]

That happens. Nothing that you can type, say, or anything that can turn back time. Even if only for a minute. Good for you to realize its not your fault for things like that. My secret would be that i enjoy some feminine media, but humans do have a little bit of hormones of the opposite sex.

There is nothing wrong with that. Society tries to tell us what should be for boys, and what should be for girls. You enjoy what you enjoy.

[Assume Nothing]

I secretly have a weakness for chick flicks/romantic comedies. Specifically, FWB.

 

... is that bad?

[Estonian dude]

Last two weeks have taught me more about life than at least last year.

I learned that I could offend people a lot more than I thought.

I learned that there are some people who genuinely enjoy my company.

I learned that there are some people who genuinely think I am funny.

I learned that I am A LOT more muscular than average people.

I learned that I have some kind of mental block for almost everything that gets somewhat removed when I am drunk.

I learned that my knee can tolerate A BIT easy basketball without the pain killing me. I also got a new sports orthosis.

I learned that I keep my stuff tidied up better than some other people, specially in the kitchen.

I learned that I have way too much stuff and clothes.

I learned that I keep a better personal hygiene than some other people who I've always looked up to.

I learned to be a lot more confident. Even though this might be only temporary.

I heard for the first time someone say that I am pretty/handsome.

I learned that there are some really weird dudes around. Like my flatmate. Seen him twice in 2 weeks. Actively avoids absolutely any contact and feeds only on instant ramen, grilled cheese sandwches.

I learned that I actually can sing and sing well and I have a good voice and 4 different people called me asking to perform in this concert today.

I learned that I can never buy any alcohol with the thought of sparing it for later and then not bothering to take it home before heading out. Ended with me drinking 5 beers, 2 litres of vodka with 2,5 litres of sprite. Can't remember half the night and morning was a hell.

I learned that I can make great sarcastic/ironic comments about almost anything.

I learned that I have more and better connections than some other people who I have always looked up to in that area.

I learned that I could actually cook.

I learned how [bleep]ing expensive it is to start living alone.

I learned that not having an oven and having a really really weak stove (think 25 minutes for fried eggs) makes living a hell.

I learned that I shouldn't be so naive and trusting, yet again.

I learned that according to the state my father is someone who I have never seen and who hasn't paid a cent for my alimonies (I dunno how it is spelt), yet when he grows old I will have to start taking care of him. Which is utter bullshit.

I learned that I have a half-sister.

I learned that people genuinely read my twitter time to time. (Specially now that I started a microdiary about that weird flatmate)

[Kaida23]

I learned how [bleep]ing expensive it is to start living alone.

 

This was easily the most shocking thing I learned when I first moved out on my own. Especially since I was doing it with a pregnant fiancee and only my second full-time job.

 

It's not the kind of stuff they teach you about in school.

[Estonian dude]

I kind of regret my decision to stay sober until New Years'. I've gotten a LOT of flak for it. Most of the people that I know and go out with have told me that I am boring when I am sober. In the last three evenings people have tried to give me or even force upon me alcohol, for me to get fun and drink again. I have turned down a whole bottle of Beefeater gin and lots of beers and shots.

 

I feel like people don't care about me when I am sober... Today, did a very cruel test on it and it failed. Because apparently noone cares.

I feel depressed every evening and sometimes during the day. I don't let it be seen outside but it is eating me inside. I am a grown man, but I get tears in my eyes almost every evening before I fall asleep.

[Randox]

It sounds like you are perhaps arriving at a rather groundbreaking conclusion Prets, and it's not a happy place to be, even if it ultimately does go to nice places. So I am thinking perhaps I should remind you of something you said a little while ago:

Last two weeks have taught me more about life than at least last year.
I learned that there are some people who genuinely enjoy my company.
I learned that there are some people who genuinely think I am funny.

 

It sounds like there are people in your life who do like you for you, so don't forget that.

[Estonian dude]

Those two weeks I was drunk practically every night. And multiple people have told me they like me better when I am drunk...

 

And my [bleep]ed up mind still can't understand why would those few people even bother with me.

 

Sometimes I think I might need some medications or something for my massive mood swings.

[Randox]

If I recall correctly, you are a university student now. One of the resources that is probably available to you as a student would be psychologists, who are much more available (and cheaper, if not free) than they are in the outside world. Speaking as someone who has seen a psychologist before, this is something I think would be worth your while. They can do a lot more than prescribe drugs.

[Riku3220]

I feel like I'm way too apathetic about everything in life. I'm never excited or angry or sad about anything whereas everyone else can be extremely giddy or distraught over what seems to be the tiniest stuff. It makes me feel like I'm broken when everyone has a strong opinion over issues like internet privacy or rising college tuition and I'm just over here thinking that it's not really a big deal. When something good happens to someone it's just "cool". When something bad, "that sucks". I can't even properly hate the things that I do dislike. I've been told that this makes me hard to approach and talk to, but I have no idea how to fix it.

 

I believe this is also affecting my future. I have no goals or aspirations while everyone seems really excited about going to grad school or traveling abroad or has at least some kind of solid plan for what they want to do in the future when I can't really imagine life more than a couple of months into the future.

[FirenLazah]

I feel like I'm way too apathetic about everything in life. I'm never excited or angry or sad about anything whereas everyone else can be extremely giddy or distraught over what seems to be the tiniest stuff. It makes me feel like I'm broken when everyone has a strong opinion over issues like internet privacy or rising college tuition and I'm just over here thinking that it's not really a big deal. When something good happens to someone it's just "cool". When something bad, "that sucks". I can't even properly hate the things that I do dislike. I've been told that this makes me hard to approach and talk to, but I have no idea how to fix it.

 

I believe this is also affecting my future. I have no goals or aspirations while everyone seems really excited about going to grad school or traveling abroad or has at least some kind of solid plan for what they want to do in the future when I can't really imagine life more than a couple of months into the future.

 

I'm with you on that last part.

[V O R K]

If I recall correctly, you are a university student now. One of the resources that is probably available to you as a student would be psychologists, who are much more available (and cheaper, if not free) than they are in the outside world. Speaking as someone who has seen a psychologist before, this is something I think would be worth your while. They can do a lot more than prescribe drugs.

 

Psychiatrists prescribe drugs.

 

A psychologist is someone you pay to talk to whom feigns empathy towards your situation.

 

Riku life has it's ups and downs, don't let your experience become belittled to a pathology. Nobody is happy and jumpy all the time.

[The Observer]

I believe this is also affecting my future. I have no goals or aspirations while everyone seems really excited about going to grad school or traveling abroad or has at least some kind of solid plan for what they want to do in the future when I can't really imagine life more than a couple of months into the future.

There's a lot more people like that than you think. What do you enjoy? What are you studying?

[Flodder450]

I wrecked a former friend her relationship.

[Alg]

I believe this is also affecting my future. I have no goals or aspirations while everyone seems really excited about going to grad school or traveling abroad or has at least some kind of solid plan for what they want to do in the future when I can't really imagine life more than a couple of months into the future.

This as well, to an extent.

 

I have goals, I have ideas for what I want to do with my life, but I don't have a plan and most are mutually exclusive. I've avoided committing to one for this long because I'm afraid to make the wrong choice, especially after finding out that my original plans would probably have been the wrong choice, and later learning about others that are a much better fit.

 

During this time I've also become a massive hypocrite: I frequently insist that people get help whenever they need it, yet have too much pride to do that myself. I've been trying to present myself as confident and certain when I'm anything but.

 

But at least I managed to figure out this whole sexuality and gender identity thing without much angst! That's something, right?

 

...More of a confession than I expected to make. Here's hoping that I don't regret posting this

[Ginger_Warrior]

Isn't that thinking a bit faulty?

 

If you make no decision whatsoever, you miss out completely on everything. Make an alright decision on one thing, and you'll get an alright return from it, with the option of changing your first decision into a better decision later on.

 

Also, how realistic are you being about it all? Chances are, whatever choices you make in life, there will always be bad sides to them. All you can ask for, is for the pros to equal them.