Honestly no one wants to hear your story in a forum game about posting a number. Let go of it by actually not posting so much off topic stuff in a forum game. If you wanna dump the feels or whatever do it in a blog or somewhere more appropriate than forum games. You can't change the past. Move on past it and stop bringing it up every time you make a post.
I'm still reading the posts I made back in 2007 and they do make me feel ashamed of myself.
I still can't believe how much of an a'hole I was back then. Is it any wonder people made fun of me by constantly banning me for being a Pokémon fan? No, it's not, the fact that I was easily annoyed and took things too seriously really made everyone else in the forum games feel uneasy.
I really wish I could change the past, if I did that maybe I would be a better person.
It's forum games, not your personal soapbox.