I think my friend is really talented, but I always tell her she's not bad...even though I think she's great I constantly tell myself the world would be better off without me, but I can never commit suicide. I was quite cloe friends with this girl I only know online, to the point where I became really depressed everytime she got pissed off at me. I always blame myself. I have tried to talk to people about my wanting to commit suicide, but they just say I'm looking for attention. Overall, i often feel mysel becoming closer and closer to self harming myself badly or death Morbid, I know Oh and I also dread th summer because I'll have time to myself. School helps me keep my mind off most of the bad stuff