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I like my contacts, they're just getting dry now because I've had them in all day I guess. They were pretty easy to get used to. I've never been fully used to glasses, I didn't wear them all the time before because I'd get dizzy walking around with them on because I could see the frames and I don't have good balance.

I haven't gotten a hug in too long. So I'm kind of afraid to ask my best friend to come visit me labor day weekend. I'm not gonna do it over text though, so I'll have to wait till Sunday at the earliest since she's going to her boyfriend's for the weekend and ceases to communicate with the outside world when she's with him.

I feel like I missed half the posts out of all I read there. I need to take my contacts out soon, they're getting dry. I think I'll sleep in bed tonight too, for a change. Only one class tomorrow :)

Oh one of my friends brought up that I played runescape, they already know. I already try not to hang out with them too much, especially if my friend isn't with.

Monk. What made you almost say it?

You guys need to go out and be social. And I'm not nerdy like the nerd herd. I did have a moment today though, they were discussing fencing and I knew what épée was because of a runescape friend. THEY DON'T HAVE TO KNOW THAT THOUGH

The nerd herd guys all play that ALLL THE TIME. My mom, brother, and sister are going to the Outer Banks at the end of September, we'll see what shape that area is in after Irene. Sucks.

However, I'll regret saying that in January.

Not fair. I want it to be cool here.

Pro: shows you spew personality. Con: can get you in trouble or make you seem annoying. Doing laundry

Loud noises alarm me in the dorms ha

Hopefully. Just don't let it keep you up. If you can't fall asleep because you're dwelling on it, distract yourself and take your mind off it. Night

No problem, I enjoy it. And I wish you the best of luck.

Good plan.

Good, just be mentally prepared for anything. The first thing you have to be ready for is change though, whether it'll end up being good or bad.

>doing homework at midnight >put pencil down to type >need pencil again >swipe hand all across futon >cannot find >get annoyed with pencil in mouth >... >found it And. You think you'll be ready for change by Christmas break?

Ah. Well. Do you predict you'll see her over Christmas break?

She could just be putting it in the back of her mind because it's easier to keep it simple and only focus on her current relationship. If she doesn't know, it seems like there should be some way to make her aware more subtly than just dropping it on her before a time where you won't see her much, but maybe just telling her plainly all at once would have more impact and force her to think about it, whether she already knows or not.

Yeah. You're sure she doesn't know how you feel about her at all?

Yeah, that's perfectly understandable. Has the relationship affected your friendship with her at all?

lonely

I know, sorry. All I can say is it's okay if you don't accept it.

Where can I get on that bus. And even though you say you accept it, it still bothers you. Your "acceptance" is more along the lines of "understanding". You understand the situation, but you're not fond of it and don't fully accept it. Somewhere in your mind you still have hope that IT will happen, that things will go your way. It's perfectly normal.

That can be rough, especially when the reason you're not with her yourself is because she's with someone else. You feel bad when you say anything bad about her relationship, even when what you're saying is true. You don't know whose team you're on because you'll always be fighting for what you want, but you want to agree with her to be on her good side. Rough.

Actually it wasn't awkward, that's just how we act sometimes. I misssss her. At least I have my next closest friend here at school with me.