GreyGoo

I didn't play for wealth originally, it was just towards the end of the last time playing. It's just the idea of getting gp is the only thing making me want to come back for some reason, I think after 99 fishing I kind of burned out on skills and everything. I have lots of hobbies and things, like I said I haven't played in a year so I've got other things to do and other fun games, but the temptation of Runescape just keeps coming back. I think its because doing stuff on Runescape is more of an accomplished feeling rather than fun most of the time, so other games can't really replace it. I know :unsure: I guess my main conflict is that I can't figure out why I want to play at all. Like I said, its not exactly "fun" like other games, there's just an urge to play it and once I play it feels like mediocre work that I want to do for some reason.

So I've been playing Runescape since I was about 10 maybe? I'm not sure, but I was in elementary school (I'm almost 17 now). I've quit for a few months every now and then, but I always have to come back. After I got 99 fishing and some other things I quit again and its been about a year since I played, but I feel like I still can't get over it. Before I quit I started making millions every day from the Grand Exchange by spending like 5 minutes a day there (I don't remember what I traded) and now whenever anything reminds me of Runescape I get the urge to get members and start making more and more gold. I don't really have the urge to level up anymore or do quests and everything I used to, I've just had this urge to get on a few minutes every day to make gp and buy rares for a few months and its killing me. Somehow, today I got linked to the lure video where the guy gets like billions in partyhat PKs and stuff and it made the whole thing wayyy worse. I know this is gonna sound weird, but I think I would be more excited if I found a partyhat on the ground in Runescape than if I found $5000. Obviously if I had a choice between the two I would choose the real money, but that's why I can't figure out why I still crave Runescape wealth. Maybe its because when I was a kid I told myself I would get every rare in the game sometime in my life and/or maybe I'm still addicted since I played for so long. I keep telling myself that I have to just stay off Runescape and have nothing to do with it, but now I'm thinking if I REALLY want to get members and get on a few minutes every day to make some gold that it wouldn't hurt that much (Actually it probably would). I know Runescape wealth is worthless, but I have this irrational need to get on and make some money. After reading through that it sounds like I'm really addicted and I guess I still am in a way even though I haven't played in a year. I just want to get over Runescape and every few days for the past few months the thoughts of partyhats and whatnot keep popping into my head and I can't figure out why I can't get over it. I posted here to get some input from other people, I had a different account here and loved this forum, but I forgot it so I just made this new one.