The First

[Cafebcs]

The First

 

By Cafebcs

 

 

 

I will not come I be a poet of verses but one that writes its experiences and its actions. I am a patient with this world: I am ingenuous but abandonment for nothing my innocence.

 

 

 

I discovered in the world that always there will be an opposite one to me. I discovered Al another: the First one that always does better things than I, that intend to reach and to compete, that never to will stop fighting and that will cause note me that always there will be a place for me: the second place.

 

 

 

I do not intend to occupy the first places ÃÆââ¬Å¡Ãâÿwhy? The recognition is something that impedes you to progress. Always there it will be something more by doing: why to fight. There is not any pretension or false modesty in me but I am happy since my position.

 

 

 

I have taken into account the existence of the universe as someone opposed me. In each word there is a dialogue: there is not solitude in the writing. I do (and I write) good things because I know that they benefit me me but a lot more because they benefit that First one that see every day reflected in my family, in my schoolmates, in my teachers: in all.

 

 

 

Any composition is in vain if is written since the heart. The heart is something I live: is the heart of the First one that reflects itself in me and tells me: "It walks sings, compÃÆÃâÃâón something that me happy the heart and shows that your writing is better than mine".

 

 

 

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Difficult thing is, First, to do something that will not be able to do better than you. But I do it for you. And they are the poems that are born, the stories that grow, the trials that reproduce itself and the novels that die.

 

 

 

In fact, never I have been able to do novels. But the same thing said of the trials and heme here doing one as the First one gives him me to understand: sowing in me the doubt like only he knows him to do and causing feeling again behind him.

 

 

 

Many years ago I began writing for me. But you, First, you appeared before me, invoked by my writing and read me: and commented me: and after me went. Since then stopped writing for me and each day taught you my progress as if of it to depend my life.

 

 

 

Never it would occupy your place in me. If Al to begin to write I caused was it because not yet presented me before you. Never you left me to be excessively happy or sad: erased the word 'too much' of my vocabulary: disrespectfully I used it again but only for this example. You excuse present.

 

 

 

Each year you call me again since the the end of October to the the end of November. In fact, we are in that time marked in your calendar, in which you require me each year that write: you are a witness that you I have not failed and that, if has had somewhat good in my texts, has been writing among those dates. But who values are you not I.

 

 

 

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It amazes me that each year I look at the dawn in a different way. Always the window he exists, the light that reflects himself in the walls, but always there is somewhat different. Useless he would be to do a list, since he would occupy your place and that do not I want: only I want to contemplate.

 

 

 

Each moment that passes the halo of light is more intense until returns during the day. It notifies me two things: that I have me alert or that I have awoke very early. MYSELF love that, when I am entertained reading for the nights (or writing in this case) the dawn be reflected in the walls of the window as a hourglass until the day been present in all its splendor.

 

 

 

Today my world is completely different Al of a year ago. I feel the difference because I have dedicated me to contemplate you and not to occupy your place. It is a lot more simple to receive all the attentions but all that passes very fast: I see it in the eyes of those that were happy a day but that by wanted to occupy your place they saw their dreams to die.

 

 

 

I look at you since the barrier, as in a bullfight, when you show your power against those that want to occupy your place. You be bull or bullfighter they lose and you win. You are the victory: if the bull is conquered then are the bullfighter, and if the bullfighter is conquered then are the bull. You are the First one: your victory is insured.

 

 

 

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Nevertheless there is not sure place to exercise my work to contemplate you. At times you put me to test and do you small, it sufficient small to cause to note larger than you and I do not permit it. If you return a small stone I will be the shadow of that stone. If you cause me to say grossnesses (knowing you that I do not say them) I respond you that does not have case that put to test to someone as insignificant as I. And you move away, pleased, not by my polite but by knowing that I have not lost me, that I have managed to progress.

 

 

 

Once you slapped me, and did not receive my answer. Some times there has been cases in which I respond, but always consents of the consequences to face me to you. A day will be impossible to be smaller than you but while that day arrives my kingdom and my control will be in the second place.

 

 

 

Nevertheless, after my trench, you cannot deny that I put you to test: at times the shadow is larger than the stone and I cause I tell me you the secrets that I do not know. You explain me a lot about you and I only take note. I cause I study you so that the following day ask you new things. I put to test your supremacy and if the thrust (returning Al example of the bulls) comes toward me I remember you that are you who value and that I am I who learns of you.

 

 

 

I am the unique one that has the eyes in you. I, the second, would not change its position with respect to you. You travel by an uncertain road, and I continue your stepped.

 

 

 

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I used my text on the translator (this time is a text mine on spanish translated to english)

 

I didn't touch any sentence. Please comment. I used my text on this page: Free Translation

 

 

 

My 'trial' had a lot of stuff and words that I didn't know on english.

 

Try at least comment on the parts that are readable, thought. :-w