Well, about ~15 minutes ago I died while bursting rock lobs in an attempt to speed up 79 summoning; I had basically all the charms that I needed (and then some) but decided I would stay for some much needed magic exp, hitpoints exp (as I'm now 900-950k till 99) and some extra charms; at least until I ran out of prayer potions. I don't have a picture as I barely even saw it coming, I had 40 hp (was going to heal w/ blood burst after I had collected them all) and rounded the corner to trap the dags. Randomly and very suddenly, I died. I was previously worth around 85m depending on my Bandos price rises/drops. I am now at (just checked) 64M. I am also screwed out of 4 hours worth of collecting the charms necessary for my summoning expenditure. I was just barely making it by with my 85m with my runescape routine, and now being shot in the chest for a hefty 21M, I am awe stricken and am also thinking of quitting once and for all. Quitting right now would be the semi-right choice, but I still (even after my sudden death up until now) feel as I should keep going, but I know that my runescape life will be altered unmistakably. Instead of 79 summoning and maximizing my melee skills, I may resort to skilling once again and pour my measly 64M into that skilling trust fund. I lack the sufficient funds to be able to achieve 79 summoning AND use it to fulfill my one true motive behind the goal, titans for Saradomin god wars dungeon. This makes my 83 slayer venture that I had all but recently achieved, meaningless. Coming upon this realization, my heart instantly sank down to my stomach, and bounced up to my throat. If I possessed the ability to cry over a runescape tragedy, this would be the moment. However, I did not lose enough to bring myself to tears. It takes 22m >_> *achem* Now for the advice part that I need.. I'm combat 131, possess 64m, total 1886. My 99's are: Attack, Strength, Fletch, and hitpoints is one off, and defence is three off. Cooking is 9 off if you count that (I don't). (For my detailed stats, my runescape hiscore page is only a few clicks away as my display name is Clapton 1988 I need some advice on what to do from here. What skill to work on, maybe some motivation to get back on the gwd saddle, maybe a slap on the head and another motivational speech on how I should quit. I don't know, that part is up to you. Just looking for some answers (in all the right places I hope). Thanks for any and all advice/help in advance. It's much appreciated. NOTE!: I never said feel sorry or take pity on me. I guess this question was more directed at the runescape members with a wealth status equivalent or higher of mine. I was asking for advice, not a rant.