Spencer, I honestly don't know what I'd do without you. You really make me think of my life and how it should go. I'm laying in bed right now and all i can think about is you(sounds wrong but she didnt mean it that way lol). I want to be with you so much, it hurts. This may sound wierd, but when I think of my future, I see two things, me and brice(boyfriend) settling down right away. You and me going somewhere for college and actually living a little. After i got off the phone with you, I told my mom not to expect brice for easter and I told her what happened and about brice maybe dumping me and she said it sounds like its for the best. Spencer, I've never met/known anyone who has cared this much for me and sincerely mean everything. I love you so much for that. I feel horrible for pouring everything out to you, but you're the only person i feel like i can trust. I have like this giant pit feeling in my stomach. I feel like barfing or crying or something like that... 1:06 am, still got that feeling lol. I hate to admit, but i think you're right. Brice and I aren't working out, but more then likely he'll dump me this weekend. Ugh! I have no idea what's wrong with me, but I have a major headache and bodyaches. See what tiredness does to a person? lol, but i cannot stress enough that I love how you make me feel like I matter. I don't know what happened with brice, but it kinda wore off. Ugh! I need to stop alk about him, sorry.For the Language ISATs, a 226 was the lowest you could get for passing(i got 238(proficient), got pissed cause i didnt get advance(and we all know im not good at language)). You passed, not failed. You never fail, atleast not in my book. :) Oh, one more thing about brice, he still hasnt said anything about the luke thing(my friend sent him a message and called him a gay [bleep] and what not and they [bleep]ed each other out). I even knida hinted about it and nothing. Another thing about brice, sorry lol, but when we talk, all of a sudden it becomes awkward and we don't really have anything to talk about. But with you, we can talk about anything, literally, lol. Oh! and with my parents, they wouldn't really care care if you went to church or not, they just want me to keep going. -Lacey P.S. I love you most. P.P.S You still have to tell me your dream. :) P.P.P.S. Promise me you'll never forget I love you. the dream was wierd, it involved her, taking a test at a school i never went to, going on a longboat on a river next to the school, and then her and her friend asking me questions when i was playing games.