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I'm male, 18, a senior in high school (United States), don't have any friends, don't get along with my family (This will not change. Please don't mention it.), and am having some trouble. My parents said they would kick me out when I finish high school. If that happens, I will be completely on my own and have nobody to turn to. I've thought about this for a while and I have a few plans on what to do with my future. I can (from most to least likely): become some sort of homeless person (wanderer/hermit/big city/squatter(I don't know which is the easiest)) kill myself start a life of crime work my ass off at a minimum wage job for the rest of my life and live in a [cabbage]ty apartment or something work my ass off for a few years at a minimum wage job, go to school, and be about 20 years behind my peers financially I don't want to do any of those things. Unless my parents change their mind about kicking me out, I don't have a choice. I have absolutely zero social skills. I've been that way for 18 years. It will not change. Please don't suggest it. I'm asking for advice on what to do to prepare myself for the future. More importantly, does anybody know of a place that I can ask for reliable general life advice anonymously?

I'm 18. I used to enjoy playing video games. Whenever I start to play something now, I just think 'What's the point?' and give up shortly thereafter. For the past several months, I haven't enjoyed anything other than sleeping when I'm tired, etc. My parents are very conservative. They are mad at me for not playing football in high school and not having any friends. They constantly yell at and make fun of me for these and other things, as well as tell their friends and my teachers. I have seen emails confirming this. I have tried finding hobbies, but I either lose interest very quickly or have the same problem I have with video games. When I try to self-improve, I give up shortly after starting because I realize that there is no reason to do what I'm doing because I don't think I'll go anywhere in life. I can't communicate at all vocally. I get incredibly nervous and uncomfortable. I can't communicate with anybody I know over the internet. I am terrified by the thought of being confronted by somebody in real life to discuss something I said online. I do not have trouble communicating anonymously over the internet. Whenever I have to say something in school, I get very nervous and am hard to understand. I am often asked to repeat myself several times. I do not have a driver license and I only leave where I live to go to school. I don't want to be "happy", I want to learn how to cope I dislike them as people. I live in an upper-middle-class family. I appreciate the things they provide. I hate their personality. I would love to live away from them, but that is financially impossible for me. I understand that some people have trouble grasping the concept that not all people own everything their parents do. I am sorry for being so blunt. My only stipulation is that you don't assume I enjoy "normal" things. I have only been to a restaurant a few times. I get very uncomfortable when I have to tell somebody what I want. I have never asked a stranger on the streets for directions. I did not intend for this post to come across as 'rude'. I am sorry if parts appeared that way. I would like information on how to cope with my situation, preferably (but by no means required) by somebody who has been in a similar situation and gotten through it.

I usually post under another name. There is no need to welcome me. I am very depressed. I have had a very bad relationship with everyone in my family for the last few years. I do not want them in my life and they do not want me in theirs. I do not have any friends. I have great difficulty communicating with people. This has caused me to be unable to do certain things that I should be able to do. I do not want to go to any kind of therapist. Even if I did (I do not. Please do not suggest this.) I would not be able to. You can assume I live in the middle of nowhere. I absolutely hate leaving the place where I live. I live with my parents. They have agreed to let me live here until I finish high school. I do not have any plans after high school due to my lack of communication skills. I CAN NOT talk to other people. This may be difficult for some of you to understand. Please take my word for it and do not suggest it. I have thought about killing myself in the past. For the time being, I do not need to worry about food, shelter, internet access, etc. Again, this may be hard for some of you to understand, but there are more things in life than financial well-being. I do not need to hear stories about how my life could be worse if I grew up in the ghetto. Right now there is no reason for me to keep living. There is also no reason for me to kill myself. When I become homeless, I know that I will probably starve to death. I believe that is when I am going to kill myself. I am asking for ways to cope with the situation by myself. Please do not suggest that I just "grow a pair" and get over it. If you were thinking of saying that, please do not respond to this post. I would like a reason to keep living once I am homeless. I am not in debt to anybody. I can not think of a reason not to kill myself. From what I have read in various places, most people suddenly get happy once they reach their mid-20s. I do not know if this is true, but I would like to try to wait it out and see if the spontaneous non-depression happens to me. I do not have anybody to "fall back on". Please do not suggest that either. Please do not suggest a hobby. I have tried that in the past and that only made it worse.