Cow

We got eight inches of snow dumped on us and I don't think I left the house yesterday at all. Probably slept 16 hours and I was in bed for even more, probably around ~20. It was glorious.

Blogscape doesn't count for post count I'd have 7k total posts if this thread counted Yeah I know its just funny that a single thread is more than all my other posts total. Aghhh I gotta go to work tomorrow. I always get so nervous before the first day of a job. Cramming the menu lol. Some of this stuff doesn't sound half bad.

I don't know how I ended up with 500 posts in here but only 400 something total. I guess I don't really respond to any other posts though.

Snow.

Heyyy no fair. Its called longboards. That isn't a sober business name lol. Actually just now I see that another CL application emailed me back. Someone running a cupcake kiosk out of the mall, advertising 9/hour. When did cupcakes start being a thing and can they not? still +3 everyone ovl and pop some molly before enter ;) do not take any of my advice

I got a job! It was a walk in from CL but the way she said 'probably' call you back made me think I was definitely getting a job. I couldn't even get home before the manager phoned me lol. Five minutes into the interview one of them just says to the other 'I like her' haha. I start on Friday. http://www.longboardslounge.com/ Lets go clubbing. Clubbing furnished club large +4.

I need to reel back my life. Questioned by two police officers earlier tonight that came into our house. My roommate got a noise complaint while he had over some friends downstairs and the cops said they smelled weed.. came in. I didn't realise at first because I had earbuds on. I just went to my bedroom door and opened it, didn't realise what was going on.One of them said my eyes were bloodshot and so he started to go through my hamper (the only real piece of furniture I have at the moment).. of course nothing was there, he just kept asking me why I didn't want him to search my stuff, trying to get me to say that there's something I don't want searched, trying to trip me up. I was crying. They didn't find anything in the common rooms of the house. They only looked into my bedroom personally, they didn't even open the doors to either of my roommates. It's kind of fitting that I really was sober, nothing wrong with me all weekend. I need to sort my life out. I'm so scared. I'm sorry.

Well yeah tinder is fun but dangerous. I've been scared twice for my safety with people from tinder, with guys from CL or backpage I felt in control and secure. Which makes a lot of sense, I don't take a pic of ID from random guys I found through tinder. But tinder can be good if you use a lot of caution. Its not even all about getting some (idk what 'some' is). I haven't had anything serious since the summer either. I have a guy that sells me drugs and sleeps with me, we use emotional BS to keep each other around and he's got more than one girlfriend. Love is basically competitive, not cooperative :p. You want to be dominated by girls?

Pretty okay. I found a small bedroom with two older guys (in the rest of the house, not the bedroom lol) and I can probably pay them rent next week, still trying to find work. My roommates are pretty weird. One works 12 hours a day at the shipyard, the other at a call center. I quit drinking again, trying to do better about everything. I'm seeing my friends from Newport News occasionally, theres a pretty big disconnect now though. I still sell them my adderall though haha. Basically staying clear of bad decisions. I closed my backpage and fetlife pages. Still trying to mess around, for fun though, on tinder. Haven't met anyone worthwhile. Don't really want to. I'm able to say no to guys. I'm kinda happy and surprised I did. I have a lot more self confidence; I don't think I need to sleep with everyone to feel ok about myself as much. Since I'm not driving everywhere around or going to work anymore, its been really boring here. I've just been going to the gym and watching Malcolm in the Middle and getting high while taking a bath mostly for the past few. It's been ok :) My sister visits me a lot. Her dad is being whack and pushing her to me but I like being able to see her. We both want her to come live with me, and maybe if I find another job or work, we can rent something together. She has a pretty good job. We won't be compatible forever though. She doesn't want to move away and I want to move to the west coast. She's planning surgery abroad for around this time next year and I've all but agreed to come along to take care of her, get to sight see, sneak drinks into the hospital for her, troll the bars for men, etc. This'll be really great for her. Someone from my family is getting their life sorted :P. I guess I'm nervous spending time with her too. She was unquestionably on my side throughout everything, but I don't want to be a bad influence. Shes only a year younger than me but together so much more innocent and so much more worn down by life. It kinda feels like my life is contracting, but not in a bad way. Sorry that this got so long.

Omg. I'm glad you're ok. That's awful :/.

I'm down for it if I'm not busy, the 300+ mile round trip would suck but maybe could work something out. Still not sure if I want to stay in NoVA. My aunt in Dallas offered me to stay at her place (she's really nice) but I don't know if I can commit to anything. But, if I'm close by, that sounds fun. I don't have any gear or anything. It was a lot of fun. The first round I got shot basically on the areola (the right one, in case you were wondering) through a sports bra and flannel shirt but after that match they let me rent body armour for free. THAT hurt like a [bleep]

I had a guy call me over to his apartment over the summer who spent a half hour after I had gotten there continuing to play call of duty. It was kind of frustrating and welcome at the same time. I mean its basically getting paid and smoked out for free but still kinda rude. On topic, I played CoD a few times five or six years ago. It wasn't that fun. Lots of shouting and cursing and being killed instantly. That gif makes me shudder. edit: I went to play paintball last weekend for the first time. I kicked ass but this bruise didn't show up until almost a week later, its where I got hit through a jacket. The 5+ times I got hit in the neck didn't swell or bruise at all. ok [hide][/hide]

I have in the past. [hide]also fetlife and okc. I only actually use Tinder for personal life. It's way better.[/hide] It's really handy for getting cheap furniture or electronics(not phones, those are always stolen) and selling specific, expensive items. We've bought a car through CL years ago and had a good experience.

Haha I hope she is safe. I went to a bar for the first time tonight. The person at the front door supposed to check ID just smiled at me and guys kept buying me drinks. That was kinda weird/fun. And the other night I got clocked going 81 in a 55 (its mostly a 65 and it was completely empty at 4am) and got a verbal warning. People are being nice to me, lol.

Ughhh I'm a Virginia gal. Florida is too warm.

You can't understand how strange it feels to be called cow. Moo. Lol. Glad to put a smile on your face though. Looking for rooms on CL; thinking about moving to DC or Norfolk. No money :(

Thanks. I was worried too. Now I'm going to try and stay on the right paths. Lots of change coming. Its funny that you called me cow; that hasn't been the norm in a while. Neither has my actual name, though. I've thought and talked with my sister and mom about it a bit, some days things just feel different. It's hard to explain. Right after that last post, I saw this awful news, two of my friends from Newport News died last week. I didn't know them incredibly well, but knew that they were best of friends. My first time meeting Jake was at a party and he gave me his coat and let me bum a cigarette. Lol. So sad. Everyone keeps dying or going to prison. I hang out with the wrong crowd. I still owe him a cigarette. http://www.wavy.com/news/local/hampton/hampton-homicide-victims-brother-speaks-out You [bleep]es stay safe. and a tldr on the past few months? besides omg hi mr greens. remember dungeonswooping hahah

hey all so, i didn't kill myself. which is nice. and things calmed down a bit. i left my college for the immediate future, but i'll go back to nvcc next fall. sorry for freaking out a few months ago. it's been strange. i'm 20 now. I had the worst birthday ever. i didn't realise i turned 20 until a week later. so that was kind of disappointing. not much to say. i made a video basically saying this this morning but didn't like it. toodles y'all gwyn: <3 thanks for the messages we messaged a while ago. i was in a dark place. the morning came.

Fun times ;> I was terrible. I still remember that one tf we had back in dgs like literally 2 and a half years ago where boss was finished and nintenderp2024 called me somewhere random for a 104 construction. Hahaha yeah. I dominated my friends but not in a good way and they all hated me for it and caused a rift. I was terrible at dg. Literally the worst DGSer of the past three years. I don't remember who it was but one of my first dgs floors, like the day after the clan formed, and someone was yelling at me through skype about everything. Fun times lol. I'm still trying to figure out who sparked my interest in that band, or at least where I heard them first from. I like the clumsiness on one of their other albums. Magnified. It kinda became my music for when I was hurting myself though, I don't listen to it much any more. I liked the Perfect Circle version too, in its own way. Failure is a lot more raw and emotional (for me) but it fits the album really well for apc. Dumping info about my life here: I made stupid choices in Chicago, I went to see cousins (mostly all a bunch of really catholic do gooders) and had a really bad time. Called my mom, she didn't know where I was. I just got back to Virginia, back in Hampton Roads, a few hours ago and realised I left my fathers briefcase in Chicago with my aunt. I hate myself for leaving it behind. Its his birthday soon, too. I'm an awful daughter. :/ I'm having my aunt mail it to my destination. Still need to figure out customs, if I am allowed to leave the country or something then buying a ticket to Shannon later this week, before I run out of cash. After that I don't know. Its been fun. I have to go, bye.

Yeah. ok. I already told some of you in private. its not as scary as i imagined. Over the past yearish I've been addicted to painkillers, oxycodone basically. And since a little less than a year ago, around the start of 2013, I had problems with my then boyfriend, he said he didn't have feelings, wanted an open relationship, etc. I started doing sex work, on occasion. At first it was empowering but it became miserable. Well a few weeks ago, a few days after I moved to school, I had a bad overdose. I had taken oxy before I met him and we drank together about a bottle of wine each, I had some (illegal party drugs) when we were at the party too. Well I had a bad reaction and overdose. He said I had vomited in my mouth, in my sleep. The hospital called my mom. She found out everything. She phoned the police on me. Last night I found and joined a party. Nothing happened afterward :/;

I drove up to Chicago. Lots of caffeine was involved. Things are a little better now. Thinking about flying out to see my fathers family. Travelling around like this has been kinda fun.

Hey everyone. A lot of real life happened in the past few weeks. I shouldn't get into it but I went back home, out of school, boyfriendless and in some legal issues. And I don't see any other way out of this. So that happened... In the mean time, to be more cheery: I don't know if you've looked at a calendar or realised what today's date was at all. But G'bless you all :). http://youtube.com/watch?v=kWBhP0EQ1lA This is probably one of my last posts here again. I have a bunch of real life stuff I need to settle in the next few. After that I'm not sure. Theres no other way this could end..

Something bad happened at school. I think this is my last time posting here. I'm not sure what's going to happen now. Bye.

There were a shitton of ants at work today. Once I noticed them and focused in on it the ground was shaking from them. Nope'd out of there pretty quickly. [bleep] ants :( We went through a few cigars keeping the gnats away, which was fun and all. The guy that brought them would only share it with me, no one else. I don't know why. HOw is JMU?

Ohgod nate I hope your roommate/(s) aren't as bad as mine. I've never seen anyone more petty and shallow except maybe in a mirror. They're all talking about me and eachother behind my back, texting me individually what the others are saying to try and get on my side. One of them, hereafter K, short for Kathleen, is overplanning and telling me its like I don't even care about 'her room' when I don't respond. When they do address me directly they're giving [bleep]y backhanded compliments. Teenage girls are toxic.