Dang, that rough. I wish I could say I knew what you were going through, but I don't, at least not at that intensity. The only thing I can say is nothing is ever as bad as it seems. Cliche I know, but I find remembering this makes life a little more tolerable. And those friends who act liek jerks, well thats highschool for ya. Peer pressure makes people act differently, even if it is for stupid reasons. More likely than not, someone would like to help you but society frowns on helping outcast, which in this case you happen to be. Being an outcast is a painful thing, just don't let it get to you.