Nvidiation

Just remember Dexter... The army has rigorous psychological tests especially for the more demanding jobs which would pretty much require you to not 'potentially snap' at any time. Killing should only be done if it serves a purpose and as a final resort... Not because of passion or emotional whims. After x amount of years pretending to be somebody I'm not, don't you think that I'd pass these tests? I know people who have been in the SAS, I know whats required of me; Theoretically I've been doing it my whole life.

Everybody I know knows absolutely nothing about me. I have a phobia of telling people the truth. You could say i'm a compulsive lier. My parents don't know anything about me. I'm scared to go to school because i'm afraid people might learn something about me. I've never hurt anyone intentionally, but I dream about it every night because everyone treats me like dirt. What they don't know is that I could potentially kill them at any second, and not have another thought about it. I have no fear of death, but I find it intriguing. I have thought about suicide many times, but couldn't do it because it'd hurt my 'close' friends. My father gets angry at me when I sleep in on weekdays, but I do it so that when he leaves, I ring the school to tell them that i'm sick and stay at home; 3 weeks this has been going on, I just cant bring myself to go. It scares me that I could potentially 'snap' one day and hurt someone, but my ambition in life is to become an elite sniper for the SAS. Thats all for now, can't give away too much.