My_Eggs

Just been playing video games all day. I listened to Burn by Usher for the first time in a long while today and my God that man is describing how I'm feeling right now. "I'm twisted cause one side of me is telling me that I need to move on. On the other side I wanna break down and cry". Why the hell do I have to miss my ex so [bleep]ing bad. Honestly, I know I should just move on, but I can't get her out of my freaking head. I talked to her four or five days ago (don't say that I could get her out of my head if I stopped talking to her, I went a month without seeing or hearing from her and she still managed to work her way back into my thoughts) and she told me she misses me, still loves me, isn't dating anyone else and hasn't been feeling like dating since we broke up. She told me I'm the only guy she wants to be with, but she's moved back to her home town which is like 4-6 hours from me (not doable when I have no car and will be starting college in a few months most likely). FFFFFFFUUUUUUUU-. Ugh, I'm really stressing over this whole thing. I want to be with her, but I don't see how I could make it work. If I can't be with her, I want to get her out of my head, but again I don't see how I can make it work... No matter what I do my mind creeps back to thinking about her, whether I'm playing video games, watching television, fishing, trying to go to sleep, etc. All day I'm thinking about her and it sucks because I know that nothing will probably come of us anymore. [bleep], I'm gettin all up in my feelings right now, water works are on their way. :cry: I'm gonna go take a shower...

Went to the dentist today for the first time in about a year. Had to get one filling which sucked because I HATE needles, so when it's going into my mouth it's even worse. Some good came out of the visit though, the assistant was a cute blond girl who is 23 (I'm 18). While waiting for the numbing shot to kick in the dentist went off to do something else and left the two of us alone. We got to talking and I ended up with another phone number. :thumbsup: I've never been with someone this much older than me, but I can only imagine it will be a great experience. :wink:

It's in Joplin I believe. I wish it was in Cape though... :mad:

38k farming exp at 84 farming.

Getting my life going in the direction it should be. Yay. I applied for OTC today, I'll get my letter in 10-12 business days telling me if I got in or not. If I did then I'll be attending OTC for two years to get my A.A. then I'll be transferring to Missouri Southern State University to do two more years to get my Bachelor Degree in Chemical Engineering. I've already been approved for a $1400 grant and a $5500 student loan for OTC and tomorrow I'll be applying for a scholarship which will get me another $1000 every semester. Hopefully I get accepted. :thumbsup: Tomorrow I'll be picking up an application for the gas station a few miles from my house and hopefully I'll get hired there.

I didn't catch the fight but I thought Pacman would win for sure. I'm disappointed. :mad:

I've got an appointment at OTC on Monday to get everything set up and schedule my classes. OTC doesn't offer engineering degrees though so I'll be doing two years there to get all of my gen. ed. classes out of the way, then I'll move onto a larger college and do another two years there to take care of my engineering degree. I'm actually pretty excited to get back into school, it's been nearly two years now since I did my G.E.D. tests, which I passed with ease (380 total points required to pass, I scored a total of 3760 and was usually the first person done with each test). I'm not sure exactly when I'll be starting school but until then I guess I'll be looking for a job. There's a gas station not to far from where I live that is accepting applications so I'll probably be stopping in there tomorrow.

Why is that? In other news, put together my new office chair, since my old one killed my back. Also started learning how to play League of Legends with some friends. Should be fun. :thumbup: Because I miss her like crazy and want her back more than anything. :???:

Oh, I forgot to mention something I did today when I posted earlier. When I went to get my allergy shots today I decided to stop at Braum's to get a burger. I got in line behind this really cute girl who works there and had just finished her shift. She ordered her food to go and went to sit down at a near by table to wait for it. I ordered my food and while I was waiting I could see her looking at me out of the corner of my eye. Suddenly she comes up to the counter and changes her order from to go to for there and smiles at me. I get my food a bit after her and go join her at her table. I had ordered my food to go because I had other places to be, but I figured I could spare a few minutes to hit on her. I can't believe what I did worked, I'm actually a little impressed with myself. All I did was sit down at her table, say hi and introduce myself, then told her I had somewhere to be but if she was interested in me then she could feel free to call or text me. At that point I gave her my number, said good bye, and walked out of the restaurant without looking back. Not even ten minutes later I got a text saying "Hey, this is the girl from the restaurant, I figured you might want my number too? Maybe we could get together sometime. ;)". I'm starting to get better at picking up women, though I still feel stupid for missing my ex's call today. :wall:

I MUST come visit you. I'll take care of your snake problem. :smile:

Steamers are terrific. I hate the word terrific. Every time I see it I have to take a better look to see if the person said terrific or terrible. Why do two words that mean the opposite have to start the same way?

Never said it was, I actually pretty much said the opposite. I was just saying that it was an interesting read.

Went to get my allergy shots today and forgot my phone at home. While I was gone my ex called and I wasn't around to answer it, when I tried calling back her phone was off. :-? Last night I read a 95 page e-book on a very illegal, dangerous, and profitable process. It was quite interesting and full of a lot of information. I didn't understand some parts of it, but after a college chemistry class I'm sure it would all make sense. I fail horribly at chemistry though, so it doesn't seem like a process I should ever attempt in this lifetime haha. Not only because of how dangerous it is, but also the legality of it. Still an informative read though, and I'm always up for expanding my knowledge of things.

Sent that message to my ex a few minutes ago on Facebook. Now I just have to wait for her response. Tomorrow I'll be scheduling an appointment with OTC (Ozark Technical College) to go in and meet with someone to discuss what classes I'll be taking and helping me figure out what I'll be going for. I know I want to get into engineering, I just don't know what type would be best for me (civil, chemical, mechanical, etc.).

I've always wanted an Elsyian Sprit Shield and after staking for a little bit I was able to afford one. I'm just curious what the best places to use it at are. I'm maxed combat, 99 summon, 99 prayer, 99 range, and 99 mage. I have a Chaotic Rapier, Fury, Zerker (i), full armadyl, and the money to buy bcp and tassets if I sell the armadyl gear.

Yesterday my bank was a quite impressive 9M. Then I decided to do some staking as I tend to do. My new outfit: Bank: There's another 2-3M in random stuff in the bank I didn't pull out.

It's been quite a few years since I did any pixel art but I feel I need a signature so I'm making one. I've started on this and just want some opinions on what I have so far, mostly just want to know whether you guys think I should go with having a black outline, or no black outline. With outline: Without: This is really just the very start of the signature, it's only the outline of the character and the base color for each area, there is much work with shading and the background to be done yet.

You sir, are a genius and deserve a medal. I was just on here letting you guys know how I was feeling, when I should really be telling her how I feel. I seriously can't believe I didn't think of that. #-o

I went to Branson today and went to the landing to pass some time and have fun with my friend who is visiting from Iowa. We ate at Charley's Grilled Subs, it was delicious. While we were eating I saw a really pretty girl walk into the candy store across the street, so after I finished my food I went into the candy store and started talking to her. I told her I was planning on heading up the strip some in Branson and was gonna go to one of the go kart tracks. I asked if she wanted to come with and she did. :thumbsup: From there she ended up coming home with me. We started watching a movie in my room and well, one thing lead to another and I don't know how the movie ended if you catch my drift. About an hour after that she left and I don't have her number, nor do I know anything other than her first name.... Success. While that was great and all, I still find myself yearning for my ex. I know she wronged me in the past, but damn near every night I dream about her and then when I wake up I just lay there wishing I was still with her. I still have all of the letters she wrote to me from while we were dating (we'd write each other love letters every month, sometimes she'd write me a few more during the month, so I have 14 letters from the 8 months we were together) and when I read them it makes me want her back that much more. I read all of the wonderful things she wrote to me about how much she loves me, how great I make her feel when we're together, how I'm the first guy she's truly trusted and told everything to. I know I should get rid of the letters, but she was the first girl I've ever really fallen in love with. It wasn't just about sex with us, I really loved her. I would wake up and rather be with her than anywhere else in the world, and now that's gone... I find myself thinking about her A LOT every single day and it's been a month now since we broke up. When we first broke up I was angry with her for what she had done, but that wore off within a few hours and turned to sadness. I found myself crying every single day for probably a week, most nights crying myself to sleep. Then I finally got to the point of being able to get through the day without crying, just missing her and trying to get over it. Now I thought I was over it and the thoughts of her are flooding back and for about two weeks now she's all that's been on my mind... Break ups [bleep]ing suck. :cry: [bleep]in crying again, great...

Today I got approved for a $1500 grant and a $4900 student loan. College here I come! :thumbsup:

I haven't read all the posts in this thread, so I don't know if this has been brought up yet (it probably has), but just because they may be able to reverse the aging process one day, it doesn't mean there will be no more having to worry about dieing too soon. There's plenty of ways to die that aren't old age, in fact, there are a lot of other ways to die that reversing the aging process wouldn't solve. I'm not saying it wouldn't be cool to live long enough to see this happen, but after they figure this out they need to figure out a way to bring people back to life after they die from one of the numerous other ways out there. Once they do that, then the issue of "what if I die before they come out with something amazing that I would really like to see" will be solved. Though if they were to figure out a way to solve death entirely, I imagine we would have some serious overcrowding issues relatively shortly afterwards. :thumbdown:

Thank you, I like it too. Now I need to get some stuff to hang on the walls and what not.

It's actually a freezer filled with hot pockets, ice cream, popsicles, and other goodies. It can be used to get my beer cold faster though.

We're all moved into the new house now. Got internet hooked up after five days without, which wasn't too bad because I spent most of that time fishing at the lake. [hide=My new room] [/hide] I sit in the massage chair while I play xbox. :thumbsup: The free space I have in this room to walk around is probably more than my whole room at my old house lol. It also has a walk in closet and a bathroom attached so I don't have to walk down the hall or anything to get to the bathroom. I'm loving this new house.

I started playing again 11 days ago with no money at all. A lot of my time has been spent at Runespan and training skills that costs money (after I got money), and staking (usually resulting in a loss of money). Here's my bank after 11 days: