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You guys constantly post those videos and I never watch them. One day this week I woke up to my alarm thinking "is it time to get up?" and immediately my mind went "NOPE CHUCK TESTA". It was odd.

Hmmm. It's weird not having homework or social plans at all. Well, I somewhat have social plans, just hanging out with Joshy Poshy and probably Steven Bevin later and probably going for another drive tonight. This weekend just feels weird.

But. Bedtime. Or stew time. Whatever. Night.

I don't think I'm in a good place right now. Also, after I'm home this weekend and next, I feel like I'll want to come home every weekend. If the kid is coming home next weekend, I don't even know what I'll say. Probably just "oh." because I don't know what else to say without sounding like I'm upset. She already knows I'm upset that she has to work all weekend. She'll know. Gah, she only has a few close people too but ranks him separately and above all the others. She's cut so many people out of her life. It doesn't make sense, she used to be the type to not be close with anyone and have a million friends and somehow she became the one to only have a few people she can talk to, but she doesn't carry the personality for that. I don't know. I'm not happy. I'll have Jessie and Seth to hang out with, but I see them all the time. At least my mom won't be working like she is this weekend so I'll be able to see her.

Sometimes I wish I could show people how they make me feel without having to act like a douche.

I can only hang out with Jessie and Seth together. Cyndi and Jerad have a retarded relationship, I've complained about their history so much. Why would the guy who thought I was ruining his relationship with his girlfriend want to let her hang out with both of us at once? For that matter, why would he hang out with any of her friends when he has control of her? He doesn't like any of her friends really, whether he actually doesn't like them or he doesn't like that Cyndi actually cares about anyone other than him. But ehh, I guess she'll probably tell me Sunday if he's actually coming home or not, or Monday. Whenever she talks to me next. I hung out with the neighbor guys tonight. Went for a random drive, subwoofer back massage, plans to go for a drive tomorrow night too. I haven't really been talking to them or seeing them when I've come home other times, but really, I grew up with them around. They moved in when I was 6 I believe. It's funny how they're still getting along so well (brothers); this past summer they started growing closer as soon as their cousin moved in because they both hated him so much. Also, back to Cyndi and Jerad, we talked about them (me and the neighbor guys and their dad) and how it's really disappointing that Cyndi, being a strong-willed person, will go under someone else's control and let someone else screw relationships up for her. Girl speaks her mind, but when it comes to him, he's some kind of god and it's both annoying and sad. I was gonna go to bed at midnight, but now 45 minutes later I'm still up on the laptop since I just finally caught up on TIF and Facebook for the day

[hide=complaining and whining, typical]Well, I think I just saw on facebook that Cyndi's boyfriend is going to be home next weekend. So there, guess I won't be seeing her at all because she works at his family's restaurant Saturday night, so might as well just stay there with her boyfriend, I'm assuming boatloads right now but anyway I'm not going to be pleased. She said she was going up there this weekend because he wasn't coming home last weekend. I'm coming home next weekend, she works a butt ton, and now he'll probably be around so her free time will become his time on Sunday and Saturday night. Obviously I'm doing something wrong in life to only have two good friends and both those friends have uber important boyfriends. I don't have any social skills at all or something, I'm not worth anyone's time, I don't know what it is. [/hide]

NERD

Nope

I did go back to sleep and now I feel like I forgot how to be awake but I gots to pack because mom got off at 1 and it's almost 2 and the drive is about an hour

My physics teacher last year was a nice guy but shouldn't have been teaching AP.

After this semester I'll have math and whatnot out of the way so my gen eds will all be crazy random things

I know, I'm screwed up.

They don't do honors classes here. I'm glad. Well there we go, now I've told both my closest friends to have good weekends and that I'll talk to them Sunday or Monday.

Really, I'm just a pathetic 18 year old girl going home from college homecoming weekend because I have few friends and my two closest friends will be 4+ hours away with their boyfriends and their boyfriends' families and my mom has to work all weekend so I don't know what I'm going to do

Gah, you got me abc

Must not have been gunshots, didn't hear anything about it. That'd be a great way to kick off homecoming weekend too. Ohwell. I don't even feel like going back to sleep, it's stupid. The prof didn't take attendance even though like half the class was gone, but I timed speeches so that can get me extra credit. Hmm

So this girl from my HS who also goes to this same college/university (for those who care about the difference) is like, gone. She used to constantly be on facebook but now she's hardly ever on and sometimes I forget she exists but I just caught up on her life on twitter and it seems that she's been home a ton just smoking weed and hanging out with her friends there Anyway I'm going to bed so I have 5ish hours of sleep before I go to sit in speech class for 50 minutes. I'll get up at 8:15, get back to my room by 10, and probably sleep till noon at least again LOL night

I just heard a sound that seemed to be very similar to gunshots. All the people who were talking outside got quieter.

wits, y u so anonymous

lol wits and her xbox information from working da phones

Mah school

They were here tonight.

1 am already? Guess I best be off to bed to get up at 8 and shower. Night