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  1. i'm back from sasquatch music festival

     

    it was [bleep]in insane, easily one of the best weekends of my life.

     

    far too many crazy stories and memories to share everything, but seeing kendrick lamar essentially close the festival last night was incredible. i saw so many great bands and had such an amazing time.

     

    but drinking and smoking multiple times every single day while simultaneously walking miles in intense heat and drinking far too little water while also surviving on barely any sleep has taken a significant toll on my body. but i am alive, and my return to normalcy of school life begins now

  2. 3 hours of sleep, a hangover from hennessy, two brutal hickeys, a shitload of homework piling up, and a 4 day music festival coming up on friday. yeeeeesh

  3. got v drunk with my lady friend and went to the free spring concert on campus. it was rowdy as [bleep], tons of drunk frat bros pushing the shit out of everyone. [bleep]ing rae sremmurd was sick live tho lmao. I AINT GOT NO TYPE!

     

    then i saw some guy who's famous on instagram for his photography in person and i talked with him lol that was really bizarre and kind of surreal. now i have a ton of [bleep]ing homework and all my friends want to hang out this weekend, why not during the week when i was bored and didnt have any work to do ahhh???// i think im hungover already and i have to post a thing on an online discussion board for class that i've had all week to do and its due in 27 minutes [bleep]kkk

     

    edit: i submitted the class discussion board post at 11:59pm. it was str8 garbage

  4. Current bane of my existence = scheduling and timing. Coordinating my social life with my current schedule, trying to coordinate 3 peoples' schedules with our ride's schedule for Sasquatch festival, scheduling moving out of my dorm, and trying to build a working schedule for autumn quarter with a bunch of in-demand classes that may very well fill up as I try to register at 6am Thursday = a pain in the ass. 

     

    Also I have to start doing research assistance autumn quarter but I don't even know what area of psych to focus on ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I thought I was more interested in human/child development but now I feel like I'm more interested in clinical type stuff... ehhhh

  5. [bleep] yeah move to seattle it's chill here

     

    rent can be pretty pricey and the gloomy weather most of the year can get to your mood, but it's a beautiful city with lots to do. especially now, around the spring and summer time. definitely a good place to live while you're young. can't wait to turn 21 in october so i can start going to the bars. but yeah if anyone ever has any questions about moving to or visiting here, hmu, i'll enlighten you.

  6. @Bonez I'd say the best thing you could really do for yourself at this point is to explore your own hobbies and interests and give yourself varied life experiences. Don't even worry about girls too much, but also know that you're at a great stage to practice getting rejected so it'll sting less down the road. 

     

    I know it might sound hard to believe now since you're experiencing it in the present moment, but high school really does not matter much at all in terms of relationships. Make yourself a priority, put yourself out there a bit as girls come into your life in one way or another, experience some rejection and build your own character and self confidence.

  7. I always eat a lot more when I'm stressed. Like last week I was crazy stressed and I was just buying and eating food I wasn't hungry for but ate anyways. 

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    Lol i was just hanging out in capitol hill earlier and apparently there were a bunch of mayday protests planned that i didnt know about so i show up there and theres [bleep]in dozens of cops in riot gear and helicopters flyin around then they started throwing flashbangs and pepper spraying people. it was lit af fam. i made it out alive tho dont worry

    I was there too, maybe we unknowingly saw each other

     

    I was the guy with the camera

     

    but haha yeah that's pretty funny, i forget about the seattle area tif-ers

  9. Lol i was just hanging out in capitol hill earlier and apparently there were a bunch of mayday protests planned that i didnt know about so i show up there and theres [bleep]in dozens of cops in riot gear and helicopters flyin around then they started throwing flashbangs and pepper spraying people. it was lit af fam. i made it out alive tho dont worry

  10. sounds like she's just sort of generally insecure and confused about what to make of you, also likely that she likes you and is just nervous, especially since you said it seemed like hanging out went well. just keep hanging out and see what happens.

     

     

     

    brief update on my situation: clarified things more with this girl i'm seeing about "what we are" or whatever. the best way i can seem to define it is as a casual open relationship, but with her appreciating the idea of consistency with one person (read: me). with her recently getting out of a long term relationship and moving to a new place, she's at a time in her life where she wants to be able to just have fun and explore, which i totally can respect. but she's not, like, trying to purposefully go out with multiple guys and play the field. i'm going with the previous advice here of still trying to see other girls while I'm with her though, since i don't wanna get too attached before we part ways later in june.

     

     

    i've got friday night plans to see a movie and hang out with this one girl who seems pretty cool and has a lot of shared interests with me. then on saturday it's the birthday of the main girl i'm seeing, so who knows what'll happen then. and on either sunday or monday i'm tentatively planning on hanging out and just like smoking weed or something with this other girl who wanted to hang out with me. she seems kinda uhh grungy/grimy but in kind of a good way? idk. no reason not to hang out with her really.

     

    i'm sure i'll update things here as they happen.

  11. my friend and i did this thing at buffalo wild wings called the Blazin Challenge where you have to eat 12 of the hottest wings they serve in 6 minutes and you get a free t-shirt if you complete it. we did it, although it was physically painful in a variety of ways

     

     

     

    oh and on an unrelated note, i got my first tattoo yesterday. it's hella sickk

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  12. I feel like with how cigs are so expensive here I could just never get myself addicted to them. I just do not have the disposable income at this time to throw down like 9 or 10 dollars a pack, which i suppose is a good thing. if cigarettes were like 3 or 4 bucks a pack i'd probably be addicted by now.

     

    my lifestyle alternates very heavily between being healthy and unhealthy. i go to the gym 4 or 5 times a week and do weights/cardio for at least an hour and a half, and most days i eat well. then usually on the weekends i drink and smoke and eat piles of garbage. oh and i'm sleeping less than i ever have in my life.

     

    livin life 2 the max

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    What the bloody actual [bleep]?

    Have you not been on 4chan and seen the Rave Girls/Festival Girls threads? I don't personally like the look.

     

    Considering the vocalization of women (those that cry out are probably against such fashion choices), and then they go and essentially dress like that and pop ecstasy like it's going out of fashion. There is probably a reason why Festival-Associated rape is so high, and this is dress sense (or lack there-of) is a contributing factor...

     

    Hey, try not blaming rape victims for being raped. Women should be able to wear whatever the [bleep] they want in a public setting like a festival without feeling like they're going to be sexually assaulted. 

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  14. sup everyone. haven't posted on tif for a few weeks. here's where i was about a month and a half ago:

     

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    So, here I am again. With a situation that's pretty significantly different from my last one (the whole thing with the girl who had a boyfriend. It was a quick casual thing and we never contacted each other again and I don't care lol. She was kind of crazy). This post will hopefully help me clear my mind and put the situation in perspective. Also welcoming any input/advice/whatever.

     

     

     

    About a month ago I started chatting with this girl on Tinder. We exchanged numbers, casually texted back and forth for a week or so before hanging out for the first time, which was like 3 weeks ago (seems longer). It wasn't established as being a "date" or anything, we both just seemed like cool people to each other and wanted to meet each other. I was the only person she's ever met off Tinder, it was really a big coincidence that it even happened in the first place. We both just had a couple beers and walked around downtown at night talking, goofing around, skateboarding, etc. We ended up learning that we have an insane amount of stuff in common. We're both psych majors, both have the exact same Myers-Briggs personality type, both enjoy weird goofy humor (like the Eric Andre Show), among a ton of other weird little coincidences. She's incredibly easy to talk to, like I don't think I've ever talked to a girl where we could just talk for hours without it getting awkward in the slightest. She's lived an incredibly interesting life and has all sorts of awesome stories. Oh, I also find her very physically attractive.

     

    Needless to say, I'm completely infatuated. We've hung out two other times, the latest being a couple days ago. It was pretty similar to the first time we hung out, we got drunk and walked around and talked for hours. We ended up going back to her place and smoking cigarettes by the beach, talking more. It got really late and I didn't have any good way to get back home, so I stayed the night at her place, which she was fine with offering. It's worth noting that all the while leading up to this we still both just seemed to consider each other friends. That whole night hanging out we both seemed to be pretty flirty, and the majority of it was on her part. Nothing super obvious, just brief-ish arm and leg touches and stuff. We fell asleep in the same bed together, again with a lot of physical closeness but nothing expressing explicit romance (also to be fair it was a really big bed so it's not like we were exactly cuddling). 

     

    I know that at this point in the story, it might seem like the obvious response is "dude you were in the same bed, she was being kind of flirty, and you like her, why didn't you make a move?" Believe me, I've asked myself the same thing. But I think it goes back to the infatuation thing. I'm at this point where I'm so infatuated with her as a person that I didn't have the balls to just be like "[bleep] it, I don't care if I get rejected, I could get over it pretty quick." If she'd rejected me, I probably would've been pretty [bleep]in' crushed. It'd be nice to have that closure, but our friendship that we both value would've been significantly more awkward, if it didn't just end right then and there. It's kind of a double edged sword though even if she did want to pursue something with me. I'm only here in Seattle until June for school until I go back home for the summer, and next fall she's entering college somewhere in California, so if we were to have a "thing," whatever that might be, it'd just be for like 3 months. She recently broke up with a long-term boyfriend of hers due to distance, so it's not like realistically we'd be able to last.

     

    She's going back to California for like a week or something to get her wisdom teeth removed, but I can only assume we'll hang out again not long after she gets back. After rambling up to this point, the only conclusion I'm coming to is that next time we meet up I should just explain to her my feelings (in a more articulate, less needy-sounding way than this post haha). Weighing the costs and benefits here, I think there'd be a lot more long term self-loathing if I never told her how I felt and there was this weird sexual tension between us before drifting apart than I would if I just got flat-out denied. And of course there's always the chance that she reciprocates my feelings, which would be great (up until we'd stop seeing each other after a few months but OH WELL). 

     

     

     

    As you can tell by now, I overanalyze shit way too much. It's weird with girls, I'm either fine with hooking up, have pretty high self-confidence and I don't get attached at all or I fall desperately into the snares of 'oneitis' and doubt everything I do, which I'm experiencing now. There never seems to be an in-between. But this post helped confirm that I just gotta grow a pair and let her know how I feel rather than deal with this anxiety and lack of closure forever. Anyways, thanks to anyone who read this and wants to give any input, it was cathartic for me at least.

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    and then there's where i am now, in case anyone's curious. it's kind of weird looking back on that post and seeing how much i cared, but it's not like i regret it really cuz my feelings were genuine.

     

     

    so yeah, things with that girl progressed. wish i'd made a move sooner rather than later, but alas that's another good lesson from this whole thing. we kissed for the first time last week and we had sex a couple days ago. lots of mixed emotions about it, i'm simultaneously stoked about it because she's gorgeous and a really interesting awesome person, but i'm also just sorta ... bummed i guess? because of the fact that i know this thing has an expiration date of less than 2 months on it, since i move back home at the end of the quarter. i kind of wish we could do the whole relationship thing even just for now, but i think we both know that just wouldn't really work. i also just seem to have more feelings for her than she does for me, but i think i'm good in terms of not showing neediness, however much i may feel it.

     

     

    i'm planning on just continuing what we have and seeing where it goes. i already know i'm gonna get pretty bummed when it's over, so i guess i'm just trying to deal with those feelings now so they sting less later. but i also am just trying to enjoy the present moment as much as i can, because what i have is pretty objectively great from any outsider's perspective. i'd like to have a more serious conversation with her about where things stand though, because i hate all the grey area of this whole situation.

     

     

    overall i'm just trying to look at this as a really good learning experience/confidence booster, as much as it'll suck when it's done. but if anyone has any related experience, advice, input, whatever, feel free to throw it at me!

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    Just signed the lease for my first apartment. Starts next year, gonna be living with 3 of my friends. It's pretty cramped, but the location is amazing (very close to campus and right next to a grocery store), and given Seattle's rent prices it's a very fair monthly cost. It's gonna be great.

     

     

    And tomorrow I have one of the biggest tests of my life, my calculus final. It'll be my last non-stats math test of my life, ideally. "Ideally" meaning I'm very ill-prepared for it and I could very well fail the class if I do badly enough. I've barely studied at all because this is like the busiest I've ever been in my life. 

     

     

    PRAYING TO THE PARTIAL CREDIT GODS

    i probably failed the class

     

    Oh yeah, so an update on this. I got my grade back a few days ago.

     

    I just needed a 2.0 in the class and I'd be good, done forever with non statistics-based math. Likely for the rest of my life.

     

    I ended up with a final grade of exactly 2.0. Thank [bleep]. I cut that shit way too close. But I did it, and that's all that matters. Too bad my GPA just got a kick in the balls. On the other hand, I 4.0'd my other graded class for the quarter, so that at least balances it out a bit. 

     

    [bleep] you math, i have defeated you

  16. I smoke like a couple cigs per week, socially, usually while drinking. I don't really even enjoy it, I think I basically only do it because it feels cool. I get absolutely no cravings for cigarettes though, so that's good. If I ever do, I think that's when I'll just be like okay nooooo more. 

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