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>at a party >posting to ise not having a good time :/ I used to be a catholic because irish

Interestingly I was the opposite. I lost my faith when my father died (I was 8. Probably not the only reason). Just different people I guess :/. https://www.youtube....h?v=esiIFLI3ryI (I don't know how to embed videos)

She lives in DC. I went to see her yesterday night. We threw it out together because she didn't want it around and she thanked me for caring for her. I still feel kind of shitty for trying to stop her but I'd make the same decision every time. I should have handled it better. Idk. And she has a malignant brain tumour that returned. One way or the other I'm going to be at her [bleep]ing funeral soon. [bleep]. I can't do this :/

I know I need to give it all back (the vicodin I'm not worried about. I've messed with it before and that won't kill her) but I am fearful she will turn around and kill herself the moment I give it back. Its not like she legally owns it anyways :/ (at least I think. I don't think 19 year olds can legally own handguns) Sorry. I'm at a loss. Her parents are out of the picture completely and I don't know how to reach any of her siblings or relatives. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Like I should just hand it back and watch her kill herself? If I involve law enforcement it could get hairy for both of us. She's a dealer of some of the illegal stuffs ( :-k I hang out with the wrong crowd haha) and I took charge of protecting her from herself. Yeah around there lol, I bought both of the piety equivalents and a bunch of other stuff. Actually just about the 2 year anniversary of 99 dg. neat. Brb working.

no such thing as too much sexual tension and kink ;) you knowwww it I'd be up for dungeoneering if this were ~2 years ago. I was better then, and I haven't actually given the combat update a try, nor the key share update, nor the other various dungeoneering updates of the past forever ago. If I could give you my tokens I would :mad:. I believe with refunds for prayers I have ~600k tokens now. In other news I had to talk down my friend from suicide last night. I thought I should get over to her apartment sooner than as soon as possible. Basically just locked her painkillers and handgun in my car and kept her company because [bleep] I'm not letting my friends kill themselves if they're telling me about their plans. And we had a good chat and stuff, and I stayed the night. Well then later today, she got her ex against me and she won't talk to me and is very angry at me. She told me last night when I stayed with her that her brain tumour had returned a few months ago (she had cancer during high school and stuff, it was sad) and she's kept it quiet. Was what I did selfish? Or the wrong thing to do? Its hard to know. Ugh. I'm [bleep]ing sick of my siblings and friends passing away, I'm only 19. :/ /sorry to interrupt squabs week :/ ps. I know I can't just go and steal or dispose of her gun and vicodin but I don't think I can just give it back to her knowing what could happen. On the other hand, what I did was technically theft with permission of a firearm which is probably some serious felonies that her ex might report or something. Ugh. I'm at a dilemma and for the meantime I have a [bleep]ing handgun in my glove compartment.

that was physically uncomfortable to watch (the coke one).

If I would have to waste hundreds of dollars I'd rather it be on strippers

Congrats. Thats pretty cool.

Can I go to pohick just to get a massage and I'll give you 30k mithril arrows ok ty Seriously though that would be wonderful my neck and back are being sucky just because I haven't been sleeping with a pillow

Most of my problems are only tangentially related towards alcohol, and in any case I did get laid twice this week (and lesbian sex counts double <3:), I don't want to quote solve everything unquote if it means giving that up :s In any case it has been a very long week and I was sent home early because dizzy and he thought I was going to faint, and its also kind of flooding here. Yayyy. I got my sister to drive me back and strangely my car worked alright. So I'm thinking something is wrong where the engine being hot already is causing issues. Its so many kinds of wonky. I spent most of the day at my sister's home, my old home, and the yard space in the back flooded like 20cm deep. It was crazy. I need a drink, a massage, or preferably both...

least inactive? :P And, well, yeah. Its been a rough summer. Her mom unfriended me from that social networking place :s. So catty. I don't understand that. Also I lost an earring. So many struggles.

I guess you are. There's a lot you won't ever know though. Thinking about logging on to RS, bored until 4:30. Don't want to read.

That's something I want eventually. I can smoke only socially but as soon as I have even a few drinks I really want to go out and smoke. Its such a nicer atmosphere and just to relax for a few minutes. I don't want to inherit the alcoholism or pack a day smoking my father used to struggle with. I wanted to save it but there's a fifteen line limit on signatures That was awful, almost as soon as I started going home the rain started and wouldn't let up i looked like such a fool walking down the road with no footpath carrying my heels. Life sucks. People suck. Then I made pancakes because [bleep] my diet.

Its alright. :/ I'm going to walk home now. It looks like the rain's stopped for a while

How is that a hidden depth? I had thought it was established that I'm a (bleep) with no self control. We had so many jello shots and gummy bears it all crept up on me too fast. Post sex depression/regret sucks :/ I've never seen one of those cookies you mention, they sound alright but I prefer to think of myself as an onion. Unpleasant by itself, has a lot of layers, etc. Oh and, the main issue right now: I stopped by the side of the road by my highschool to finish chain smoking (stress, trying to quit, I hate that about myself) (too hard to do with manual transmission) and finish the song and she texted me back a bit, well now there's something wrong with my car. I have no idea anything about cars or anything. The battery health was bad according to my mom a few weeks ago. But that can't be it. (Bleep). I have to walk home barefoot. Life sucks. Sorry for poor mood.

Ok concerned. And I realise it was just having fun and all but I'm going to be living with her all of next year I shouldn't have freaking done that lol. Well regardless her mom and grandma were downstairs when it all happened. lol. I feel bad about that when they're so close. I wonder if they know. I hope not :/. And they almost definitely won't give me my keys for a short while (as they shouldn't, but still) so its going to be an awkward breakfast fromh her entirely too sweet mother

Ok signing in to tif on my phone so I can post was ostensibly a poor decision. I make so many poor decisions :). I'm better now. Sorry to bother you. [Hide]oh god why did that happen[/hide]

Again relevant thank you DC metro area ladies you're wonderful :D Afterwarss she she sent me to sleep in another room to sleep. Sucks Fantastic bday party try :) (has it, ever, in humqn history, ever gone well to fornicate with a close friend/next years roomamte? was this all a huge mistake? sorry to botjer you all

Saw my link was broken :s. I got my tuberculosis test result back. I don't have it. Whoo!

Umm.. No? I'm not?

Ok I didn't take any selfies or anything, saying that was my excuse, a shitton of people wanted pictures with us though (holy carp its like all those ladies had never seen them before, derp) and a bunch of creepers asked if I was ok with being groped. I'll look if I'm on twitter or such later. Idk how to really use twitter

https://www.youtube.com/watch?=lQlIhraqL7o&feature=youtu.be Too subtle? I just drove everyone home from capital pride. It was FANTASTIC. Instead of going to some club we were all super tired this amazing lady invited us back to her apartment.. that was alright haha. She was so beautiful, she dealed the illegal stuffs, and she was so goddamn gorgeous. And I got her number after! I'd post a pic of us but it was legal to be topless in DC so... :unsure: (Didn't stop a few dick cops from harassing us though) edit: and if they're asking you to not partake in dg they probably think you're bad. still kinda rude since you cant really slow them down ever since that keyshare update.

Yes but she's been out and at it for ~2 years, she looks almost unambiguously female. It's kind of neat really. I don't remember applying specifically for the honours programme, it was really late at night and a few nights before the deadline when I applied and I think I did both accidentally. I'm an honours student lol. I think I only got in because of my early decision, friends who've applied later with way better applications didn't make it. Sucks to suck. My GPA is pretty low for honours though. I've a 3.55. Its not that interesting beyond some moolah (do you see what I did there), some honours classes and thirty minutes headstart on registration.

She's further along transitioning than my sister, she legally changed her name about a year ago and showed me her license with female sex listed a few months ago (she also looks older and has her older sister's ID...lol) I really don't know much about legal aspects but she probably got them to do it because of that. I was super shocked but happy for her when she told me they let her. Now we're just keeping it quiet in case some sucky hall administer guy finds out. Idk. She passes well. Might not have problems. I've already been in trouble with the res hall coordinators lol

That part threw me off Um no, I call her my sister because she is my sister (well half sister. She lives with her father) and I'm pretty much the only enthusiastically supportive family member she's got. Her father is still in denial about it a year after she came out to him, my mom and brothers think she's doing it for attention and I don't really know her cousins or extended family that well. For reference, I lived with her from 12ish to 18 and she's a year younger than me. Yes she has xy chromosomes/etc. Sorry for being pretty social justice-y about it. People can be super frustrating about it, both my sister and my other trans friend whom I'm dorming with (I'm not sure how but somehow a super sucky conservative school administration let her dorm with me with little hassle). I'm trying to help both of them as best I can, they're both wonderful people and deserve it a thousand times over <3 Lol. Summer has strangely fixed my sleep schedule. I'm starting to feel tired by midnight and almost always asleep by one, and getting up at 8. Its awful, I feel so old.