First of all, I want to say I'm proud. You're doing exactly what I've been trying to do for years. I'll tell you a little bit about myself. Our lives are similar. I became distant from everyone in my life very quickly. Because of my size, I became the school pet; one of those kids who people would laugh at or knock their books off of their desks. By about grade two I thought everyone was an idiot and I pretty much loved when the school day would end. I remember I used to stick a thermometer on one of the lights in my house that got really hot so that I could try and stay home. Surprisingly it worked quite a bit. I had to take Buckleys though, but the bitter taste felt less bad than what happened at school. I never really told anyone, because I know it would just add problems. Anyways, to make me more isolated, my best friend, my dog, died bleeding out in my hands. People in my family used to say that I would be the kid who never stopped smiling; I haven't smiled much since that day. Around grade five or so, I was introduced to Runescape by a somewhat friend. (I could tell he was irritated to be around me, but I guess he felt sympathetic for me or something, I don't know) I began to play and slowly got addicted to it. Soon after I got members. Soon after I got 85 mining. Being stupid as I was back then, I botted a lot of it. This resulted in me getting banned. I wrote a very thoughtful letter to Jagex and got my account back, with 10.5 Black Marks (I guess they really liked the letter, considering you can only have 10 Black Marks back then) and as soon as I got it back I became addicted to it again. I never really had a girlfriend back then; I was always rejected whenever I'd make attempts. I blame them for the way I live today, considering some of the stuff they said to me. Anyways. High school came. First year, I did what any other highschooler would do, enjoy the freedom. Skipping became a drug to me, especially for Gym, considering my size hasn't changed much, I'm still made fun of. Somehow I managed to pass. Grade ten came and I skipped a little less, as I could see my marks declining. I was still addicted to Runescape mind you, so that wasn't helping either. By then, I had let a friend (or so I thought a friend) go on my account. He wanted to buy it, and I thought this would've been the perfect time to try and quit. So he bought it for $40, (Which I still to this day have never received) and then he went on, spammed some disrespectful words and got me banned. My letter didn't work so well this time and I was permanently banned. So I was angry for awhile, but then was sucked right back into Jagex's grasp and began to play again. This is now my main account, and I know I'm still addicted because of the 99's I have. My account right now is almost reaching on 100 days of gameplay. I'll never know how much my old account had, but it probably had more. So I finished grade 10. Around grade 11, I became tired of school and stopped going so that I could work on game programming. I had explained my plan to my parents and they agreed with me. I was honest and told them about how school wasn't working out, and I'd rather start learning to program (self teaching, which I've done in the past. I knew HTML (web-coding) by 13) to make games to sell on the Xbox360 community. This seemed like a good job for me since I have a passion for Programming. So I taught myself the basics of it, and made some trial games. Well, that's about as far as it got. I began to dive back into Runescape slowly, playing an hour a day, then two, then four, then just swiped aside the programming and played all day. This is how I got 99 Runecrafting. It didn't really work out, so I tried going back to school again the next year. It lasted a few months until I had a huge argument with my parents one night, one thing leading to another and I was dropping out. Once I dropped out I began going to church, praying that God would still accept me. I don't go much anymore, I think my problem is I'm too lazy. So I got back into Runescape, hitting a job fair every now and then, being on Monster.com and some other sites. Nothing has come up yet, but I'm still trying. I used to have some friends in preschool, but three of them moved away, and one of them I cheated on with my current girlfriend and vowed to never have any connections with her again so that I could stay with my current girlfriend. Once however I left high school, Ive stopped talking to all my friends, so my only friend is my girlfriend. Recently though, I've enrolled myself into a work at home course institute, so that I can still receive my Equivalent to grade twelve. My girlfriend has been with me for about three years now, and she's been massive support with whatever I do. I thought she was going to leave me when I cheated on her, twice, but she hasnt. Shes stuck with me since, and for that Im going to marry her. Unfortunately though, Runescape still has its grasp on me. I still do play, and recently I achieved 99 Agility. My girlfriend doesnt really have a problem with it. Recently I attempted to quit again for the bajillionth time, this lasted 10 days. I also dropped everything in my bank, around 26 Million worth. Two days before my birthday I began playing again, becoming addicted again. When I wasnt playing, I was doing quite a bit of my schooling; along with I began to write a book. Now the book idea is pretty much trash, and the schooling is done once in a while. Im not eighteen and I know I need to grow up and stop playing this game, or at least play it way less than I do. Thats my story though. I hope it helps to know that youre not the only one where Jagex has ruined things. I must admit though, your current attempt is making me reconsider attempting again.