Bonez899

Already plowed through 3 seasons of the office, been slacking off though because I just hit season 8 and I'm scared the quality is going to drop immensely.

Alright, what do you fine adults on here do to keep yourselves busy? On Christmas break from school and while I've survived 2 weeks now I'm running into the same problem I always do, without school/work I've just got too luch time. Maybe I just need more hobbies, but literally my current routine is to wake up between 9 and 10, stay in bed until close to 12 just playing on my phone. Finally crawl out of bed and shower/eat. Video games, read, or watch Netflix until 6-7 then grab supper. After that back to the previous activities, go to bed around 1 or 2, rinse and repeat. I'm going slowly insane for want of stuff to do and always find myself in this predicament when I've got too much free time. This post is literally because it can kill a few minutes to type and hopefully start a conversation.

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Canada stat doesn't surprise me, lots of rural areas with *very* little policing or any at all. Honestly PEI and NB are pretty easy to drive through without seeing a single police officer outside of major towns/cities.

did they? didn't hear about that, unless you're referring to breathalyzing without probable cause, which was part of the legalization of marijuanaI know where I am the province technically lowered the limit to .05 by enacting fines and license suspensions to anyone between that and .08.

Is this Christmas Goon, the helpful and not so joking cat?

That's why I only go to fancy restraunts with my most intimate partner, me. Bonus is I always know who's paying and nobody ever dicks me over by buying something too expensive.

Damn, go Saq. Here I am getting excited about some snapchat conversations.

Kinda feel like they added ports instead of the skill. Much easier to make a minigame/activity with boats than an actual skill that would require it.

Not overly religious but I'll toss some thoughts your way regardless.

Thanks Well, its been working okay so far, but I completely agree with what you're saying. Oh yeah, definitely need to do something. Mostly just regretting not doing something sooner. This is me, if I do something and screw it up or have a bad outcome? Whatever, at least I know that something was done and can pack myself up with some new knowledge. If I don't do something and just stay the course, sure I might be a little more comfortable but its going to nag at me, at least for a little bit, and be regretted far more.

Not sure if it's just hints of little regrets from a relatively short life stirred up by reading a sobering blog post, or something outside of that. Regardless, I'm having what I guess is an existential crisis thinking about the choices I have made to this point and the overall fragile mortality of life. I'm sure in the morning I'm going to wake up back to my relatively bullet proof and carefree existence where pain and suffering seem far away and something that hardly ever affects me, but for now my mind is travelling the path of retrospect and trying to follow the path into the future where I'm uncertain what choices to make. Add to this a really, completely bleeped dream I had last night. Actually, not a dream but an almost realistic nightmare that I legitimately woke from surprised that it wasn't reality. Something I've been pondering for meaning all day but sadly fits into this existential crisis. Too top all of this off I've also created another, very real, situation for myself due to lack of action that I'm not sure I'll ever resolve but will have to sit on for at least the next month. Again, young and relatively inexperienced and I'm sure that it's a passing fancy, that most of you TIF readers out there would tell me not to worry about or that I'll get over it regardless of thoughts now. However, I think for the first time I've truly kind of fallen in love with a person. Maybe its just an infatuation, but it feels different from previous times when legitimately I could tell I was attracted to the person, and they were cool/nice to hang out with but it just feels different. Moreso, because of a lack of action I have no idea if these feelings are reciprocated or even a thought in the mind of this individual. I have my hunch, and I hope a good one, that this person might also share some feelings, but I've allowed things to pass and fear them slipping away. As absolutely ridiculous and "Disney" as it is to think about, especially because I know realistically it's not true, this is almost one of those situations where if "the one" exists I may have found them. That all being said, I know that realistically I'm placing this person on a pedestal of perfection they could probably never live up to and creating a fantasy in my mind that could never be true. I know that given my age and experience it's super unlikely that any of what I write is true or lasts for longer than a couple of months. I'm almost definitely just feeling an infatuation that will go away, a case of "oneitis" that probably isn't going to be reciprocated and definitely never will if I stay an afraid chump and make no moves. However, the chemical signals in my brain, the complicated wiring of my neurons is telling me all of these feelings despite the objective knowledge I have and have stated here right now. I know that really, a lot of this is just being almost childish to say and believe, but I still believe it and have that feeling in my gut when thinking about it. Something I'll dwell on over the next month and try to "overcome" although that's not quite the word I really want to use. I guess the big thing is that for a person who rarely feels truely strong emotions and, whether healthy or not, has built up walls of "protection" around my inner self with a ton of deflective mechanisms and clever traps in my mind to collect feelings. I truly feel like ripping it all down and laying myself bare with my emotions and feelings to this person. Not to tear down a section of the wall or let loose a sliver as I've done with many friends and even strangers to help connect. But to truly open the gates and let them in to see everything, but find myself reacting out of habit with what I have built already. I think that's what scares me, a weird phrase to use but one that most adequately describes my emotions about it. And now for the part where I say sorry for the long post, more of a mind dump really that I don't expect anyone to have to read and may go back and delete later. I just needed a cathartic release in a relatively anonymous setting to express these emotions, fears, and realizations along with writing them down to help myself understand them better.

Veiva, that's something that I struggle with myself. Its slowly started to get better, but honestly still has a fair way to go. The first thing is to change your inner monologue. In my case I can see the contrast because, as an example, someone gets a challenging question wrong or throws an answer out there? Good job, think that might be right, etc... I do the same thing? Internal monologue now but its not as nice things, just going to not post them because someone somewhere would find it offensive, but its very negative. Just changing this monologue that's going on all the time, is really hard. You've taught your brain to think this way and it doesn't really want to change easily so you need to be mindful. Then you need to congratulate yourself. Big thing with me is someone does something above and beyond? Or even just unexpected? I'll thank them profusely and be super grateful for it or at least praiseful. Same thing by me? No big deal. Its expected. Probably could have done it better. Oh that one mistake you made, major deal. Finally, and this is a short and in no way comprehensive list that might not even ring true for you, you need to realise that you are only seeing slivers of peoples lives. Most people are very selective in what they share in public and some even have full on public faces. All those people that were partying around you and being happy? They're drunk, maybe to cover up or get away from how they really feel. To add on to what RPG said and kind of tie in with what I said, its a total mind thing. Following an inspirational instagram can be cool, lots of good quotes and stories, but you may still need that mindshit or mindfulness to actually take it in and appreciate it instead of scoffing at it or just reading without gaining a message.

I'm so sorry. That really sucks, but from what you've been saying recently at least she can finally be at rest.

Forget who made it now, but we have a subreddit that currently only gets used when the site goes down to sound the alarms. https://www.reddit.com/r/TIF_OFFTOPIC/

Not entirely convinced this isn't one of you guys posting and not a spam bot. I can't decide if the signature makes it more or less likely to be a spam bot tbh. So right after I made that comment they went to an old clan recruitment post by Arceus and just posted a couple of emoji's... Also, didn't see the signature at first because I was on mobile.

Not entirely convinced this isn't one of you guys posting and not a spam bot.

Crampy and bad unhappy or just simply different stool unhappy? The first is probably not fun and might need to be avoided. The second is a risk/side effect associated with chili and you should be fine to continue eating it. Possibly work some more dietary fibre into your other eating for the day.

Most people are. Comes with practice.Idk, haven't had a lot of first dates mostly because I'm not putting myself out there and creating the opportunities. However, the few I've had I just remember the advice from these forums and they tend to go okay. At least, until I start pulling their elbows and licking their hair.

Pretty sure it isn't. I read somewhere that we still have our best sales of the year on boxing day.

Should be company policy, and some may prorate it for time worked, but you should be entitled to compensation for any vacation time/pay you lost/were unable to use.

Might get your purchases in time to order stuff during boxing day sales.

Basically software illiterate and get nervous using anything that doesn't say windows, don't make me defend my unfounded view.

I feel for you man, that stuff is tough especially when it all falls on you. Having to watch a family member slowly go like that is hard enough, but when you're the carer its harder still. I don't know your situation or resources but if possible I'd suggest looking for some sort of home care resource for 1 or 2 days a week if possible just to give yourself a bit of a break.

Uhh, lets just say I was having internet issues.