I was suicidal a year ago, huge arguments with my family, break up with my girlfriend who I had been with for a long time, fight at school, suspension. My life was kinda [cabbage]. But whenever I was thinking about doing it, I thought how easy I had it compared to other people.. Suicide is still in my head now though to be honest. Call me cowardly / selfish I dont care, because I doubt many people would give a crap whether I was dead or not. Now your probably thinking "He's making us feel sorry for him awww" well no I just had to get this off my chest. There's always one thing holding me back from doing it. Now I'm thinking about posting this or not................................. ahh [bleep] it.