Maleficus1055

Crust/Grindcore: I like Darkthrone's newer Crust influenced albums. I like Fall of Efrafa as well but you already mentioned that. For Grindcore: Napalm Death, Anaal Nathrakh (not really sure what theyre considered but can be under Grindcore), Cattle Decapitation, and Carcass are good. Keepy in mind I define genres pretty loosely.

Sverddans - Burzum

Oh boy. Myself, I listen to a range of metal, favorites being Black Metal and Prog. Here's whats currently on my iPod [hide] Adagio American Head Charge Amesouers Anaal Nathrakh Andi Deris Angra Arkha Sva Ayreon The Berzerker Between the Buried and Me Blind Guardian Boris Burzum Carcass Cattle Decapitation Circus Maximus Cobalt Cynic Dark Moor Darkthrone Demons & Wizards Dimmu Borgir Dream Theater Edguy Electric Wizard Emperor Ensiferum Equilibrium Fall of Efrafa Finntroll Gamma Ray The Gates of Slumber Gojira Gorod HORSE The Band Ihsahn Into Eternity Lykathea Aflame Mastodon Maximum the Hormone Mayhem Megadeth Nailbomb Napalm Death Necrophagist Opeth Pain of Salvation Pantera Primordial Queensryche Satyricon Slayer Sunn O))) Symphony X System of a Down Venom Vital Remains Windir [/hide] I also this past year got a few friends who before didn't like metal into metal :D

Virus Bomb - Anaal Nathrakh

Waiting for the Barbarians - Anaal Nathrakh

I'm so manly my chest hair grows chest hair. Also my muscles have muscles on them.

Lama Sabacthani - Anaal Nathrakh

Cross my Heart - Carcass

It probably wasn't any sort of "personal attack"...but if you've been on the otehr end of it, it sure as hell feels like it. And no amount of teary expanations can truly justify her actions. Sure, she may had waning feelings. But she made no attempt to stop that fact. Never brought it to his attention. Never gave him any sort of warning. And if she really gave a crap as to how he felt, she wouldn't go around sleeping with his 'friends' right after breaking his heart. THAT's what's wrong with this picture. [probably where the "selfishly lost her virginity" was derived from, from the other post] You can't stop your affections from waning. You can't force yourself to love someone (i.e. she couldn't force her affections to stop waning and continue to love Maleficus). Yes she should have spoken to him if she knew what was going on at the time.. but maybe she didn't. I don't know her and I don't have a thorough understanding of what was happening, but you don't always know what your feelings are and how they're changing. Sometimes you won't have that thorough understanding until later when you can reflect on everything that happened. Perhaps she just wasn't really in a position to tell him how she was feeling. I don't know.. just kind of playing devil's advocate here. And I still don't see anything terribly wrong with the situation. I do think she was an idiot for having sex with his friend, but for reasons other than the fact that she had just broken up with Maleficus. My reasons would be that she was an idiot because she clearly had strong opinions on sex before which lead me to believe that she was heavily encouraged into having sex (which is backed up by the fact that she cut the sex short), and also because they had only been "dating" for a week or whatever it was. But those all boil down to MY personal opinions and views on sex rather than her doing something wrong to Maleficus. Maybe that makes me an insensitive person, idk.. My ex certainly thought I was insensitive for starting another relationship right after I broke up with him.. but I see no point in remaining single or w/e just for the sake of it. If you have feelings for someone and no more feelings for your ex, I think you should be with the new person rather than sit around and wait for x amount of time to pass "just because." She did have opinions against it, but this "friend" is a manipulative bastard and likely heavily forced it on her and she just accepted it. Also, ladies and gentlemen, karmas a beautiful, beautiful [bleep]. A friend texted me a few things, she just said this over twitter to someone: "I've been having the worst tummy aches ever for the past couple days and i've been bleeding a lot." "isnt my period because that just ended like 2 weeks ago and ive been bled so much ive actually passed out a few times. im scared " Question: If she goes to the doctors office, since i guess shes planning to, will they be able to tell what happened to her? She'll pretty much become solitary when her parents find out. I hate when that happens. [bleep] finially gets whats coming to her, and then you feel bad for her, and cave and feel worried about her, etc. I do the same bull crap. I really wish I didn't. it would make getting her out of my life so much easier... [why the hell are all of my recent posts about myself?] Don't worry about her. Obviously she's mature enough to have sex, she's responsible enoguh to make her own decisions and handle any subsequent consequences. And yes, the doctors will be able to clearly tell that she has had sex, and assuming that is the problem, they will probably tell her parents. I'm not actually worrying, I want her parents to find out and for her to be locked up until she's 18. Then she'll hopefully start seeing sense and get away from this [bleep]er.

It probably wasn't any sort of "personal attack"...but if you've been on the otehr end of it, it sure as hell feels like it. And no amount of teary expanations can truly justify her actions. Sure, she may had waning feelings. But she made no attempt to stop that fact. Never brought it to his attention. Never gave him any sort of warning. And if she really gave a crap as to how he felt, she wouldn't go around sleeping with his 'friends' right after breaking his heart. THAT's what's wrong with this picture. [probably where the "selfishly lost her virginity" was derived from, from the other post] You can't stop your affections from waning. You can't force yourself to love someone (i.e. she couldn't force her affections to stop waning and continue to love Maleficus). Yes she should have spoken to him if she knew what was going on at the time.. but maybe she didn't. I don't know her and I don't have a thorough understanding of what was happening, but you don't always know what your feelings are and how they're changing. Sometimes you won't have that thorough understanding until later when you can reflect on everything that happened. Perhaps she just wasn't really in a position to tell him how she was feeling. I don't know.. just kind of playing devil's advocate here. And I still don't see anything terribly wrong with the situation. I do think she was an idiot for having sex with his friend, but for reasons other than the fact that she had just broken up with Maleficus. My reasons would be that she was an idiot because she clearly had strong opinions on sex before which lead me to believe that she was heavily encouraged into having sex (which is backed up by the fact that she cut the sex short), and also because they had only been "dating" for a week or whatever it was. But those all boil down to MY personal opinions and views on sex rather than her doing something wrong to Maleficus. Maybe that makes me an insensitive person, idk.. My ex certainly thought I was insensitive for starting another relationship right after I broke up with him.. but I see no point in remaining single or w/e just for the sake of it. If you have feelings for someone and no more feelings for your ex, I think you should be with the new person rather than sit around and wait for x amount of time to pass "just because." She did have opinions against it, but this "friend" is a manipulative bastard and likely heavily forced it on her and she just accepted it. Also, ladies and gentlemen, karmas a beautiful, beautiful [bleep]. A friend texted me a few things, she just said this over twitter to someone: "I've been having the worst tummy aches ever for the past couple days and i've been bleeding a lot." "isnt my period because that just ended like 2 weeks ago and ive been bled so much ive actually passed out a few times. im scared :(" Question: If she goes to the doctors office, since i guess shes planning to, will they be able to tell what happened to her? She'll pretty much become solitary when her parents find out.

Getting High on the Bad Times - Orange Goblin

Meds saved me most likely. Or at least saved me a lot of pain. Having tonsilitis and the flu at the same time at a young age was not fun >.>

I've owned both systems now, and I have to say I prefer the Xbox 360 more. They both play great different games, but I'm more of a fan of the 360 exclusives. And Xbox LIVE is just such a greater community than PSN, everyone has a headset so it's much more vocal. I know of all the little kids causing problems, but thats why you get some RL friends in a party and just have fun. I have to say i'll be buying the new 360 when I get money since I currently don't have either system due to having to sell to repair my sax.

Today's genre for me is definitely cheesy power metal.

EDIT: Sorry for my sporadic taking over of this thread with all my posts >.< Just expect me to be back detailing any progress I get with the new girl :) Interesting. I was gonna go to my friend who I like's house today to vent but couldn't so we texted. My ex was one of her best friends and shes really pissed at her too now, says shes gonna stop talking to her. She went on to say im an amazing guy and deserve so much better, which brightened my day ^.^ Now another close friend of mine, HER BEST friend who she listens to whatever she says is going to try and set up a double date for me. Her friend is the one that says i'm a genuine and great guy, which is rare these days, and most girls would love to have me. Not too sure about that with some girls, but with the girl I like its true. I really hope this works, its making a [cabbage]ty day into a happy one :) Also after all this I walked in here to type this and my iTunes just happened to be playing Andi Deris' Come in From the Rain. I sat down to these lyrics: [hide=perfect timing on lyrics, made me smile.]Take my money, take my pride Take my little piece of mind It's alright Lead me to a better life Where I'm loved and where I'm wise It's alright Now I can see your signs of change[/hide]

Meh, if you want to look at it that way. But look at it from the standpoint of a human with emotions and empathy (right word?), and its wrong.

She left me after 9 months, got with a guy who manipulated her the same day she dumped me on a whim and proceeded to lose her virginity to this guy in like 3-4 days of being with him.

I don't go by the whole "dating" thing. I see if you're going on dates with a guy/girl, you only go on dates with them and have sex with them, etc. If you want to see different people stop seeing them.

Do my small breasts offend you? Yes, please grow them or I wont sex you any more.

Exactly, after her, my ideal girl would now be: SANE parents that dont mind her having a boyfriend Strong-willed, not easily swayed Sexually open, but not whorey. [hide]boobs that arent an a-cup xD[/hide] This friend I like fits all of that ^_^

Surprisingly, this virtual TIF support is amazing at times.

Yeah, we basically had a small-knit group of me, him, and 3 other friends. I've told the other 3 what happened, everyone is dropping him in the cold. Everyone else already hates him for what he did to his ex. The someone else i like is whos house i may be going to tomorrow to try and talk, we're close friends. Her best friend is going to try to hook us up, and hopefully this all works out. i've now dropped communication with my ex and "friend" entirely. Good riddance.

My feelings actually completely faded until tonight when I learned that. Now it isn't really sadness, it's just anger because she was so stupid to be manipulated like that. I actually found a girl i've started to like and one of my other close friends is going to try and hook us up and get the hint in that i like her. There is good coming out of this, im getting such a [cabbage]storm of pity that everyones being nice to me and stuff. Every girl is telling me I was basically the best boyfriend they had ever seen, she didn't deserve me, and i'll get a better girl. Also, everyone is going to/already hates the two of them.

I found out some bad things, TIF. Its 5am, I haven't slept. I was talking to a friend and she told me what she found out, my ex left me for one of my best friends, Cody. They got together the day she dumped me. Cody had been texting her and manipulating her in our last few weeks together and basically made her like him. I texted my ex and here's our conversation. Backstory: I was her first boyfriend. We dated nearly 9 months. I gave her her first kiss and took her to prom. We never had sex, she was always too nervous. Her parents are also insane and don't allow her to talk to boys, we had a very hard relationship but during it we thought it was worth it. Here's our conversation. I'm A:, she's B. [hide] A: I need to talk to you, and I want you to be 100% honest with me please. B: Ok A: What made you leave me for Cody? B: I just felt like my feelings for you were fading and my feelings for cody were growing. A: And meanwhile all the times I asked you about Cody, worrying if he was trying to get you, you lied and he wasn't just talking to you as a friend. B: He was back then, a good majority of our talking was me helping him get over Keely (his ex). A: Do you realise how bad he treated keely. I told you what he did to her, he told everyone what they had done and spread nude pictures of her after they broke up. He's terrible to girls. B: well he hasn't treated me badly at all yet and keely didn't seem to mind us either. She let me use her phone to text him when my parents had mine. A: That's because you're with him. Why did you tell me the relationship would be too hard to hold over summer when obviously you can. B: Its much easier to see him than it is to see you. A: Why? B: Because he lives alot closer and when he's at his moms house then hes only a couple streets away from me. A: So everything I did for you and we did - me being the best boyfriend i could, treating you amazingly, prom, your first kiss, our first date, all the days together - did all of those mean so little to yo than you can leave me on a whim to get together with him immediately afterward? B: Those were all amazing times and i will never regret any of them, but i cant exactly control my emotions for people. A: Your emotions were swayed by Cody. Theres no way you were talking about keely and decided to leave me. He obviously had to start talking to you in a way to make you start to like him, and it was while we were still together. Why did you let him? B: We didnt stop talking about keely untiil a lot later. and i didnt leave you JUST to be with him. my feelings for you had been fading little by little. A: But you got with him immediately after. So you two disappeared on monday during band camp and he lives close to you. Are you still a virgin? Have you done anything sexual? B: no im not a virgin. yes we had sex. A: (This is where i got really angry and started to cry at the same time) why? You've hardly been with him, why would you? I thought you had morals. B: I guess it was just the heat of the moment. but when i told him to stop he did. so it didnt last very long. A: The heat of the moment. youre with the guy for half a week and its the heat of the moment. im disappointed in you. Did you ever cheat on me? B: No. I really need to sleep, i have a long day today. A: This wont be much longer B: Okay. A: No matter what you feel now, this is going to be a regret in your life. People are already mad at you. When more find out, more will. You've already lost a lot of friends and you're going to lose a lot more. Cody as well, as little as he has after keely. I dont know how you can sleep at night feeling good about yourself after what youve done, the kind of things youre now doing. I have the power to ruin life. I could spread pictures of you - but i wont. I can go to your parents workplace and tell them what you've done, you'll never see the light of day again. I'm quite tempted on that one actually, you lost your virginity to a man who WILL hurt you. For now, I wont though. I dont know whats going through your mi,d but as I sit here heartbroken, youre going to regret this period in your life. B: I dont really know what to say. youre threatening to sabotage my life? Why dont you just let me live my life? im sorry i broke your heart, but i wouldve broken up with you eventually. A: No, im not. Im saying I have the power to. But unlike your new boyfriend, i cant do that to you, im not that type of person. Im letting you know that i wont. I hope youll realise when Cody breaks YOUR heart and [bleep]s you over as he did to keely, what you let go of. I have no respect for you anymore, and I hope you wont do anything more youll regret later. Goodnight, and have a nice life. [/hide] Feels bad man. Im going to try to go to a friends house tomorrow and talk it out with her, I need a friend really badly right now.

Toilets and plumbing in general, I'm a clean freak. And cell phones/text messaging, I can't stand to be out of contact with people.