Damn, I really liked what you wrote. Enough that I quoted it to validate my point when someone left me this on my formspring: [hide] please don't give up on humanity permanently, i understand that there's a-holes out there and unfortunately in many people who don't deserve thems' lives, but I think you deserve happiness and hope there's more good things than bad for ya :) Let me clarify and give a little backstory here. I haven't given up hope on all humanity, mainly the LARGE majority of teenagers. You can't trust anyone these days, I was cheated on and lied to by the person I trusted most, and backstabbed by who I THOUGHT was a good friend. And that's just two people, let's take a look at a larger group. I'll use my last year's Lit class as an example. There was a group of kids in there that act normal when they're alone (one guy was in my history class and was really quiet) but when they were together they suddenly seemed to have a big competition to "impress" each other by seeing who could be stupidest. People are tools, they do stupid things to impress others. Teenagers these days drink and do drugs not because they to sometimes, it's because they allow themselves to be pressured into it to try and be cool. People are weak-willed and allow themselves to be manipulated by others easily, and it sickens me. I stumbled across this next little part the other day, and while it isn't written by me, the guy makes a pretty good point in all of it, and it's a good reflection of people today: " I've always felt like I was too mature for my age. Or perhaps, the people around me are too immature. Looking back on the years of high school (I just graduated), I can really see how dumb people are. Dating at our high school was a prime example. 90% of the relationships ended up with the guy always touching and poking and tickling the girl just to see her squirm and sqeak. The girl would say, in her vunerable and annoyingly high voice "oh stop that josh, oh stop please, please stop." But of course the boy would persist, ignoring the hopeless pleas of his girlfriend, deriving some stupid pleasure from seeing his her body wriggle and twist in reponse to his nudging. And I would just look at these people and wonder if the only thing that held their relationship together was the kissing. In my junior year, I sat behind this couple I didn't know. Everyday, the guy would sit behind the girl and repeatively grab her by the belly and tickle her. The girl would laugh and pretend it was funny, but I could tell she was exhausted. Everyday when I came to class I wanted to strangle the idiots. By sophomore year I wanted to fall deeply in love with someone. It was funny because everyone in my year was just trying to get a quick girlfriend to "get laid" while I was trying to look for a serious relationship that would last for years. But I soon detirmined that the girls were just as stupid as the guys, and even though they may not actually be stupid, they act stupid, which sickens me. The girls who didn't act stupid were smartasses with straight A's, but even then they didn't act like themselves; they were always trying to hang out with the "cool" people and act like they weren't smart, which also sickens me. It wasn't just dating, it was just everything in general.... all the pranks, the harrassing, the bullying. I mean, this is middle school stuff. The guys would hate eachother purely because they were different GPAs. The girls would hate eachother because of family income differences. There was so much unecessary hate and drama, and the worst part is our prinicipal basically ingnored it and pretended nothing was wrong. I mean, there can't be anything wrong with hundreds of rich white parents unloading their savings into your school to "secure their child's future" right? In senior year I thought things would change. I thought that since most everyone was around 18, they would have shedded the immaturity of their teenage years. Wrong. The crap people did in senior year was just as stupid as they did in the first three years. Dating was still messed up. Guys were still stupid. Girls were still stupid. The only hint of maturity I could find in the school were the teachers (and even then, half my teachers tried to act "cool" like the kids). I know most people don't say this, but I'm extremely glad there was an adult in the room to counterbalance all the stupid teenage minds. By the end of the year I was so sick of this goddam school I seriously considered just not even going to graduation. Honestly I can't wait for college. Out of all the 30,000 people attending my college, there HAS to be a girl like me. The only thing I regret in high school is getting bad grades in my first two years (made Cs and Ds the first two years, straight As the last two). I really wanted to yell "f*ck you" to my graduating class after I got my diploma, but I decided against it." I really liked what that guy wrote, because I connect with that pretty well, he makes a lot of valid points that I see. Anyways, I haven't completely given up hope on people. There's a small group of people that I completely trust, and even outside of them I have a nice group of friends to rely on. After what happened, and all of my friends, and even people that I didn't know cared, rushed to support me, that at least gives me some hope that people are good in general. Anyways, thanks for saying that, it brightened my day a little. At the moment, things look better for me rather than worse, since i'm putting the past behind me and eradicating the idiots from my life. [/hide]