Duff

Tonight I've scheduled a meeting between myself and this girl I've liked for a hell of a long time now. We've been talking for 9 months over text and occasionally in person (we go to different universities, but we're high school friends). During those 9 months, it has literally been impossible for me to tell whether or not she's interested in me at all. Before anyone jumps to the typical piece of advice, yes, I did ask her at the beginning of everything, and our situation was pretty screwed up at that point (she had just broken up with one of my really good friends, whose older sister I had just broken up with). So, her response was more of a "you're such a fantastic guy, but our situation is delicate and we can't expect anything to happen at this point" response. Ever since then, I've been flirting with her, complimenting her, asking her about her days, what she was going through, telling her I'd be there for her to talk to about whatever she felt comfortable with telling me. And she did. Then some weird [cabbage] happened at her school one weekend and I didn't get a text from her for two whole weeks (during which I came up with a dozen different explanations, i.e. she found another guy she really liked, or she fooled around with a guy on accident and regretted it and was to embarrassed to talk with me about it). Her best friend who goes to my university apparently knew what happened, but I was much too paranoid to try and ask her for fear of being too nosy. So after two weeks, I texted her with a simple, "Is everything okay?" And she responded apologizing for not responding, and that she had gone through a difficult situation, and that she really wanted to tell me in person (meaning the next time we both were home). Ever since then, though, are texts have been less frequent, and I'm always instigating the conversation. And it's rarely ever finished. Like, I'll write to her making an observation like, "Guess who I met today? yadda yadda, gym teacher's dad from way back, yadda yadda." She'll respond with, "Oh wow, that's so funny, etc... How's your day?" And then I'll respond telling her about it and then asking her about hers (this is maybe between 11am and 1pm). It'll be 11 pm and I'll be going to bed, so I'll text her goodnight, to which i get a response at maybe 12:30am saying goodnight back. I genuinely care about what she does during her days, but she never gets to telling me about it. I dunno how she feels at all, and so I finally texted her and said, "I've finally found the guts to say that we need to talk very soon, in person." She agreed, and so we're going to talk tonight. And my main question to her will be: "Are you even remotely interested in me/do you want my attention/should I even try anymore/can you see yourself with me?" -------- For those wanting to avoid a block of text: Talking serious with a girl I'm crazy about (it's been 7 months since we last talked serious), going to find out if I have a chance with her, or if I'm just stuck being her good friend. The sad part is, I'm so [bleep]ing crazy about her and don't think I'll be able to handle a no. Least, it'll take a while for me to get over her. I mean, come on, I've gone 7 months without any sign of her being interested, and my feelings haven't changed. Scared as [cabbage]. 1) I want her to know how I feel; 2) I don't want to sound like some emo [bleep] and creep her out.

When I'm at a party, people are getting buzzed, and some block head decides that he'll show off his muscles by taking his shirt off (and blames it on being drunk). [bleep] you, attention seeker.

Maybe They Will Sing for Us Tomorrow - Hammock. Post rock is so dope

Confession: I created this account for the sole reason of contributing to this thread. Much more fun than lurking in BlogScape and the RS Screenshots thread. I guess I'll post elsewhere in Off-Topic now since I've gone through the trouble of making an account finally.

Down - Blink-182. So nervous/excited to see them on tour.