I have had an off and on thing with a certain girl a few times over the course of the last seven years, beginning when we were in 8th grade. She went to a different school, about 20 min away. The on parts never lasted long, for various reasons. The last couple years, however have been very quiet on that front. We went to separate schools and haven't had much contact since, other than one lunch last summer. We went to a baseball game last night on a whim. We're both sort of coming out of break ups, which reinforced that we were just going as friends. After the game, we went to my high school's football field and walked the track for awhile. Long story short, things got a little more than friendly (which I should've seen coming but didn't). Anyway, I don't know how I feel about it, nor do I know what I want. I feel pretty emotionally unavailable currently, and she does as well, as far as I can tell. I just don't want to connect with someone right now. But I feel she's the one I'd make an exception for. On the way home, I told her I didn't want this to turn into anything big right away, and she was pretty understanding. I also told her that I didn't want to just go our separate ways again and not see each other for a year again. I think we are going to give it a shot, but not right away. My plan is to have fun the rest of summer, and then maybe see what she's up to come September. Life, man.