Merry

Simple, Moving, To the point. I Applaud your poetic endeaver. :P Please, I would love to see more of your work! :D

I use poetry as a means to express primarily to myself how I feel. A means for me to, well move on past hurt. Or when an Idea comes to mind. Or when I'm bored and in a mood to do something creative. The following poems are feelings I've felt throughout the years...its like a retrospective of my emotions. LOL. A New Beginning Let your feet take you places That youÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢ve never been before As your heartbeat races And youÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢re headed out the door Open up your eyes Let the sunlight in ItÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢ll help you realize That thereÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s more life within The past that you regret Makes you wish time could rewind Forgive and forget to find The broken heart you left behind Your past it holds you down It keeps you from living The baggage kept around Keeps you from forgiving Let your feet take you places That youÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢ve never been before As your heartbeat races And youÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢re walking out the door Your broken heart is mended The joy is now renewed YouÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢re no longer offended And a better lifeÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s pursued Sometimes Sometimes I feel As if all I do is cry These tears are real Oh I do so try Not to cry But tears well up And tears fall down And its all I do to not erupt My heart aches With pain inside All emotions Like a roller coaster ride Up and down Right side up Turning round Why I cry I donÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢t know why Maybe disappointment Aching inside Needing heart ointment Maybe ill-used Or Verbally abused Maybe my mistakes I need to stop this crying For goodness sakes I need to find Kindness I need to find cheer I need to find Goodness In the friends I hold dear The Guy of your dreams I could dream about a guy or I could dream that I could fly but why oh why would I dream those When I could dream of who else knows I don't know why oh why why I'd dream about a guy All those girls are in a daze about some guy in different ways I just know that thats not me I'd rather not, Just let me be Why oh Why should I care about some guy thats not there This Fantasy, its everywhere This Fantasy, get out of here! I don't know, why oh why why I'd dream about a guy All I know is thats not me I'd rather not, now don't you see? Wildflowers Wild flowers, In a field, Swaying towers, In the breeze, Wild Flowers, Everywhere, Spring showers, Refreshing flowers, All the colors, Of the rainbow, Shining brightly, In the field, BeeÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s a buzzing. Carrying pollen, To and fro, In the field, All made by God, My heavenly father, Shining brightly, Like golden rod A True Friend A true friend Is hard to find Today right now In this world What is a true friend Is it a friend Whom you can ALWAYS depend A true friend Is hard to find Today right now In this world What is a true friend Is it a friend WhoÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢ll always care Who will always comforts you When thereÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s no one else anywhere A true friend Is hard to find Today right now In this world When you give up When you despair. Remember this heÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s everywhere Your Absence is Felt In the twilight of each day when my heart seems turned away from these daily tasks I do as I try not to cry over you Your absence is felt as I daily remember of the joys that we shared for my love will last forever In the darkness of the night while the moon glistens bright My thoughts would turn towards you and the things we use to do The dawning of each day reminds me of the way you would rise early every day and start to reading right away I miss You, I do as I continue through all my days reminders of you in different ways hoping one day to see you once again to show you my love, dear friend... Not Me I'm not the kind of girl who walks around in malls wearing trendy clothes like those manikin dolls I'm not a flirt I don't play that game don't wear a mini skirt (I think that's lame!) I'm not that kind of girl and their "trendy" clothes make me want to hurl I'm not the type that goes blah blah blah On a cell phone or who spends money at a spa Their so ditzy, their minds been blown I'm not in their Clique I'm all my own I'm not that kind of chick I like my way its all my own I'd never change it any day let them laugh at the way I dress I'd rather be laughed at then get into that mess! Alone Here I lay all alone in this place I call my own but does not feel like home sweet home here I am feeling so alone though people are all around me my loneliness is still unknown Though moments would come when I'd feel not like the only one moments where when I'd have fun not on my own, but with everyone times like those seam few and far and moments have arose when it seams hard to bare So I try and find ways to sooth away the pain and I try to fill my days though the loneliness remain here I am remembering moments went by, and now is gone to sooth my pain I sing that is why I write this song hoping it will help time go by and bring another restful night so there I'll lie in the moons soothing light Continued Failure I continue to try yet I keep on failing when I fail I cry with frustration and wailing the work seems too hard but I continue trying when I once again fail, feeling like a [developmentally delayed] so upset I keep crying failing I succeed at I'm learning to do better I've got it bout down flat with his help I'll be greater I know sometimes all around you there's troubles so much to endure with heartache and turmoil but there is still hope and to God I'll be Loyal I'm getting quite drained my emotions are flowing let hope still remained and my faith is still growing my troubles seem few to the ailments of others but God will renew our Joy, Oh my brothers failing I succeed at I'm learning to do better I've got it bout down flat with his help I'll be greater I know sometimes all around you there's troubles so much to endure with heartache and turmoil but there is still hope and to God I am Loyal My Feelings My feelings I cannot express for fear of others and my want to impress Their Bottled Up Oh so much that people must be weary of explosion at touch My Heart aches for I want to explain but my hopes to are very much in vain People around me expect me to be good so expressing my feelings is something I wish I could I cannot cry for they say "don't go there" so I keep it inside never for others to know or me to share so I save it for nights when everyone's asleep I cry in my pillow so they won't hear a peep Woah! thats ALOT of Peoms huh? But really its just a few of what I've written. If you've made it through this far I commend you on your endurance/perseverence. Now I would love to hear what you think of my stuff? I'm thinking one of these days I might compile alot of my poetry into a small book...perhaps one of these days...lol

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I wouldn't know how the school systems work since i've been homeschooled all my life thus far. If I'm sick I can just do extra work later or I can if I'm able just do it anyways since its here at home. I don't have to worry about missing days. I consider myself lucky :lol: SUCKERS!!! :twisted: Lol, I'm just teasing... :lol:

Well here goes my two cents worth... I think North Korea shouldn't waste all its Money on its Military and Nuclear Bombs. When their economy is doing so bad. Did you know that North Koreans are dying of hunger. Its so bad that its even gone towards Cannabalism. People sell it and say its ham, but most know better...but since their so hungry their willing to do anything. Alot of Children try to go over the borders to china, but only 7% make it. and in China they just live on the streets, most times getting sent back to korea. There are these places in North Korea that Keep the orphans(after their parents die of starvation) so that way they'll be out of everyones way, but they just leave them there to die. The government doesn't take care of them. Also did you know that Korean Goverment officials have decieved people about how the war between north and south Korea came about...They say that America was the ones that started it, when in accuality we all know it was north Korea. I just watched two Specials on the Discovery Channel about Korea today, that is were I learned all this... a family friend of ours who is in the Army is going to be sent to Korea the end of this year...I believe to South Korea.

Thank you for the good laugh. :lol: My brother has aquired a couple Katana's and whatever you call those wood practice sticks... Him and his Friend like to play around with them. His Friend also has a few as well as Cai's(spelling?) It looks pretty cool to watch. He and my brother are doing martial arts together (mainly Korean martial arts) My brothers just been doing it for a little over a year and I think his friend has been doing it for like 4 years maybe... I just recently joined the school about two weeks ago. Its alot of fun Though I wish there was a Japanese or Chinese Martial Arts instruncter where I live,since I AM part Japanese as well as Chinese. Me and my brother tease his friend and we call him a Whasian wich is a white person who acts like an Asian. Well now I will end my pointless Post... :D

I'm glad most people are content with how they learned. I'm glad to see that those who went to highschool(for the most part) enjoyed it and wouldn't wish to change it, and that being said for homeschoolers as well. But I'd like to say that people should keep an open mind about both ways. There are flaws with both ways of teaching,but there are also positive things about both ways. It just is a matter of what kind of person you are and what kind of teaching you need or prefer, And what is more important to you. Everyone is different, therefore don't go around bashing those who don't do as you do,and assuming that just because they don't do things how you do that they are FREAKS. ( they probably think the same of you... :lol: )

I'm just going to say...Maybe the reason why I don't mind not going to public school is because I've never been, therefore I don't have the longing to attend such things. Also when I think of homeschooling, I usually think of being tought by parents. No, my family doesn't have CRAZY RELIGIOUS IDEAS. though Yes We are Christians,but besides going by the bible we don't add our own things(like the NAZI thing someone mentioned). My Parents didn't FORCE us to be Christians. It doesn't work that way, but since they were christians the atmosphere was extremely open and not alot of conflict. Our family is pretty close, thoug were not perfect and we do have our moments.My parents didn't make us to be anything,but rather they showed an example by the way THEY lived.The biggest thing was we felt accepted and loved no matter what we did.

Different People use different types of ways to learn when their homeschooled. I've been using a program on the computer for the past maybe 5 years. We also used to use paces(small booklet type things that has like so many pages and you have to finish so many paces) Also the BIG BOOKS that you fill out we have used in the past. I think alot of the kids my age are so immature. I accually prefer people older. Though my best friend is 15( a year younger) and she's homeschooled. We get along VERY well, ALMOST TOO well. We're so crazy together! Also Not all homeschoolers are freaks, I just happen to be one that is...AND I'd never change it anyday! No I don't wear crazy sunglasses, I wear long Flowing skirts and sweaters and I go barefoot. A combination of homeschooler country bumpkin. LOL! I laugh(they shudder! lol) when I think of going to Highschool, What would they do with me!?! lol.

I think most homeschoolers interact very well with not only children their ages but also adults. My best friend Olivia also homeschools and we get together alot during the week. Since she is homeschooled as well she spends the night with us during the week and sometimes stays for a few days at a time. We are crazy peoples! lol. Sure when being homeschooled you don't really do the prom thing and stuff like that, to some people thats really important, but to me it really doesn't bother me. And Also I don't want to be normal, I want to be me. My social development is not lacking, accually I am quite outgoing. Some people are just not meant to be homeschooled, but some it just works better for them to go to public school. Yes homeschooling can be boring sometimes, but most of the time I find things to do. I read alot of books and I like art. I do spend time on the computer sometimes as well. I listen to music a lot. Play the piano sometimes and I am learning french a bit on the side. also next week I will begin taking Martial Arts.

I think it looks kind of cute... I want a pet rock! lol :lol:

I'm just curious...Who all on here is homeschool and why? How long have you been homeschooled? have you ever been? I myself am homeschooled and have been all my life. Originally the reason was as a child my mom wanted to be able to teach me about not only school work stuff but how to be good and love God. Then when I was old enough to decide for my self my mom said I could and I basically liked being homeschooled so I am still to this day homeschooled. Its great being homeschooled, you don't have to spend 6 hours a day doing school work. as soon as your done with your work, your DONE! Everyone of my 5 brothers have been homeschooled all their lives as well. The oldest being 24 I think...After the first few years of homeschooling we were all free to go to public school if we so chose too. The funny thing is...We live right across the street from an elementry school.

Who are you talking to?

I know there are so many children in the world who have it worse off than me. But sometimes theres moments when I cannot help but cry... Its one thing for a one day thing but its another when it seems every day is hard to take... This past year hasn't been the best year for me... Last fall after 3 years my aunt took my grandmother away from us. Against all of our wills(even my grandma's) she lied to her and told her it was only going to be a trip to see all her friends. it broke my heart because me and my grandma were best friends. we'd do everything together(as I was the one who took care of her, feeding cleaning ect...) Then my aunt had told us we'd be able to talk to eachother...Lies all lies! My aunt told all our family lies about us. How we'd keep tutu in our basement and not feed her! It tore my heart in two. Then once i tried calling and my aunty said I couldn't talk to her because of stuff my mom did, which she didn't. My aunt was telling lies directly to me about my mother. so I do not know much of what happened while tutu(grandma in hawaiian) was in hawaii. we waited for weeks just to hear news that she was okay. Then we got a letter in the mail...it was from a mental place saying that aunty put tutu in one. and if we wanted to say something on her behalf we had to be in hawaii within three days (my mom wouldn't let me see the letter, because of all it said in there about tutu). and my aunt went camping with her family after she put tutu in there! then we find out aunty gets tutu out after her camping trip. we didn't hear from them again for a long while. Until January and then we get a call that she died from my moms brother who was the only one who would contact us, I broke down in front of everyone, not because of the death nessesarily but because I had kept all my emotion inside of me because my mom was already going through alot after tutu had been taken away from us. I tried to be strong for my mom, the night we found out about tutu's death I just couldn't be strong anymore. I talked with my mom for the longest time and it helped me feel much better. In fact I was relieved that tutu died because then Aunty couldn't do anything more to her...She's in heaven now, in a far better place then if she would even come back to me. also in january my niece was born with a hole in her stomach and her internal organs were out side of her body. she was in the hospital for 9 weeks I believe. My neice is much better, but during that time we didn't know if she'd live or not... I've had what I've considered in my life a few hard trials but no way do they compare to what others have gone through. And I am thankful to God that he has been there along the way to encourage me. Because you have no idea how many times I wished I would just die! I've had my experiences with death many times. But thank God most of those times the person had been a christian and I know I will be able to see them again in heaven.

I've always loved creative writing. Sometimes its hard to put what I imagine onto paper. I enjoy imagining it the best. Writing it down just helps me remember it and share with others. I love the feeling when I write something and accually finish it. Or were not only my parents think its cool, but my brothers do too! That says alot when your brothers can't wait to read more of the story. I'm so glad you like it as well. Like I've said before this isn't my usual type of story I like writing. Last night when I was writing more of it, I was freaking myself out. I kept peering out the windows and stuff. I was writing it late last night. lol. Those who have read it thus far and like it, may find a surprise when I finish it...but It'll be a while before I accually have my plans written out in story form. Its in my head, just have to put it on paper.

What competition are you talking about? Also I think its pretty Cool. Better than what I can do.

Yeh well the original writing was a full page...full of BS, I then condensed it so it made more sense(in my Opinion)and didn't just go on and on about nothing. It origanally talked about how the guy could have been mistaken for a pile of dirt, but then I decided that made no sense and I needed to just keep it simple and to the point(though what exacly that point is I have still yet to figure out.) I'm hoping her journey will find her at the end a better person for it and at peace within...I won't give away how it all comes to be, as I still haven't figured it all out myself. Will see what I come up with. Wait and see for the next part...

I'm not sure, I figure I'll just keep writing and see what becomes... Thats how I write most of my stuff. Just write as stuff comes to mind. then go over it later and rewrite it so it sounds better and achieves more of wanted affects and feelings. :D

Okay, First of all I would like to say, This is not my usual style of writing. I don't usually write about this kind of stuff, but I thought it'd be fun to for a change. Here is the first part, I may write more I may not...We'll see what I feel like. :lol: And we'll see if the feed back is what I want, lol. EDIT: I added more to the story and changed some things also, I won't add anymore until I get more feedback. Crouching in a dark corner, AdelinaÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢s bright green eyes pierce through the darkness. Her hand moving towards her deep rosy cheeks as salty bitter tears streams down upon her lips. She swiftly brushes away her tears and with the same continuous motion she sweeps back her long flowing hair that had fallen around her face. She then stands up as her long locks of golden brown hair cascades down her well toned body. She slowly makes her way towards a dark heap of cloth drenched in blood. She kneels beside it and with much emotion and struggle she forces out a hushed sentence ÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ãâ¦Ã¢â¬ÅMy Dear, I shall never forget you, and will always love you!ÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬ÃâÃ

I may, I may not...I have alot of school work I need to be doing as well as babysitting and other fun stuff. I just did this so I wouldn't feel commited to it, but I could always come back to it when I get bored. :D

Its pretty good for a first attempt. Better than mine. Rating, Maybe 6 for a good amature attempt. I'm really not good at rating...But its nice. Didn;t care for the picture you put into it but thats just me, you might like that kind of stuff. :D I just mess around with photoshop here and there, have never used a tuturial or anything. But if you wanna see mine your welcome to as well. http://forum.tip.it/viewtopic.php?t=200624

I had posted a post a little ways back asking if some one could make it so my character is out of the way, as I may not write for a little bit. And I didn't want her dying on me. Sorry about the six month thing...I only had them bring the boy back. You can still write what happens during that 6 month period.

Fighting Temptations I think thats how it goes, or something like it... Blast From the Past Napolean Dynomite The Next Karate Kid

I will then! I hope it will be sufficiant... Benevolent As our Alliance was walking along the rode together Benevolent spotted something from out of the corner of her eye. It was man walking through the woods screaming half drunken ÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ãâ¦Ã¢â¬ÅBENNY! My Benny! Come back to Daddy! IÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬Ã¢ââ¬Å¾Ã¢m sorry, please come back, I NEED YOU!ÃÆââââ¬Å¡Ã¬ÃâÃ

I know I need to post some new sigs, but I'm just too lazy to make more...maybe I can do something later on this week... :lol: