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Happy 20th! Halfway to 40 ya' know... hehe!

I have some unnerving phobia about fish. I don't know something about their skin and how they like flap about when out of water.... It completely freaks me out. I once had a fish tank, when the fish died I wouldn't be able to get them out even using a net because of if it was near me I just imagine what it feels like against my skin... All slippery and slimy and just EUGH! I just left them to rot in the tank for weeks, all the other fish would start eating their carcasses... nice.

Obviously I know it's my own fault, I'm not stupid. I made a mistake yes, and to deal with the consequences for me by having a baby was not an option. Yes I knew the risks, but contraception is there for a reason. It is there to have sex without procreating. Which is indeed what was planned to have happened. If i had WANTED a baby I would have not used it, so why should i continue to have the baby if the intention is not there? Sex is not only to procreate but for pleasure, so if a child is born without any planning, who's to tell you you must keep it? It's not like I didn't know what could have happened, I just took precautions to try and ensure it didn't. How can you say it is murder when you have not specified when this ball of cells is regarded a human life? It is living off the mother, it is not living as a single being, and at the time i had the abortion it didn't even have any arms or legs. Is that a human being? The real debate here should be when you consider a foetus to become a human being, because in reality whenever you believe that time is, is when you would consider abortion to be a murder. For me? I'd have to say that when the baby is first born and breathes air and stops living off the mother is when i would consider the baby to be a human being. A thank-you to those who supported my decision, it brings me a reassurance in myself. I haven't told even many of my closest friends, only for the reason abortion is a controversial issue and even though i know they would support me, i still doubt in whether they would think I made the right decsion. Ugh why am I even thinking about other people's ideas on it. I know the decision i made was right for me.

It was a thought, but I don't know if i could give birth to a child, bring it into this world, give it to someone else and carry on with life knowing that someone else was looking after my baby. I think once going through the pain so many women have described as the worst in their life i would be able to do it... It would have saved the termination of what could have been a new life, but I wouldn't want my child to not necessarily know who i was, and then in later years to question why i could not look after them myself. It just seemed so complicated. I don't know... Again maybe this appears selfish, but someone had to make a choice.

Ok, well i got lost after the second dimension.... Lol how did that ant move? How can I NOT understand 3d? I am in a state of utter confusion, lol a second time watching it still provided no further understanding. I thought 4d was like feeling things - Pirates 4d at Thorpe Park???? Mehhhh lol. A round of applause to you kryptic for understanding that! :shock:

Hey there, I've been having troubles with windows media player v.10 AND 11, see none of them seem to work. I use windows xp and once upon a time media player did use to work. Now it doesn't appear in my add or remove programs, and installing it again just isn't proving successful, when i click the icon - nothing happens. Also on sites such as putfile, where you can view videos, it says i need to install a plugin, but can not find which plugin i need. I'm guessing this has something to do with it? I'll be damned if i know. I'm so confused!! If anyone could help it would be much appreciated.

It depends on the severity of the situation really, in most severe and very rare cases i neither forgive nor forget. Meh most the time it's never that bad once you look over it, and I'm an easy going person most of the time, no point wasting my energy on grudges! :D

I can't believe the number of ignorant replies to this topic... I couldn't even read some of them. However there have been some good arguements. I can say from experience it is not a nice position to be in... I am only 19 and found myself in this predicament, looking disparingly at a positive test. My boyfriend and I made this mistake and something had to be done. Neither of us had a job, as it was both our first year at university, and come on, I just wanted to enjoy myself with the new found independance. How would i be able to bring up a child in that situation? I am barely old enough to look after and support myself, let alone a baby. I had forked out a lot of money to go to university and i had looked forward to studying my choice of degree. Surely it is more cruel to the baby to bring it into the world, where neither me or my partner can provide for it, and neither of us showing the maturity to look after someone other than ourselves. It was a difficult decision to say the least, but I feel I made the right one. It took a lot of courage for me to make it, and it doesn't come without guilt. Reading these replies overwhelms me with guilt. I do not feel like it is murder, simply a lesser of the two evils. I have the whole rest of my life to do with as I please, and the time will come when i feel I am more capable of looking after a baby an moving on with my life. Now is just not the time, I have a degree to get, and a lifestyle that is unbeatable. I admire my boyfriend for sticking by me the whole way, the doctors, the clinic, everything - i don't believe many would, well not the "men" i know of. Obviously it could have been avoided, celibacy being one option, but it was not to be, and although the contraception failed this time, double measures are now taken. Maybe i was selfish, but que sera sera, I can't change the past. I have no regrets. Only a bright and happy future.

LA Gears!! What i would have given to have owned a pair of those... Nowadays despite the chavyness i love a good pair of nikes or timberlands. (By the way I hope that quote worked... first time I've ever used one!!)

I don't understand how those questions can define how old you are... they judge it on basis of which dessert you like? Meh.. anywhos i got 17, 2 years younger than i actually am. Pfft.

My dad used to tell me if you slept in bed with your socks on you'd go blind.. God knows how he made that one up! Well, me and my brother decided to test it out and sleep with only one sock on, figuring if we went only half blind it'd be alright :| I also remember having a mole on my hand, and when asking my dad where it came from, he said so that he knew which baby was me in the baby factory... lol.

For slayer the message is: "You gain a deep understanding of many strange creatures". Yes... i haven't trained slayer since it came out. :wink:

I can't say that i believe in karma at all... We are all human beings, we do bad things and good things throughout our life, the same as good and bad things happen to us. Who's to say these events are linked? If you ask me, it's just coincidence, nothing more

thanks alot for your replies. I don't really know much about anti-virus software and such, my dad told me to get avg on my computer and i didn't really argue lol. I still don't know what caused the problem, as it still happens when i use INTERNET EXPLORER, however i switched to firefox and hotmail and such now loads... meh i will never understand computers!

At the moment my computer is unable to show hotmail inbox, microsoft generally, and google images. It shows only a white page and says "done" yet nothing is shown. It's really frustrating and i have no idea what's causing it. i have run numerous scans and nothing has come up. However, recently i had an error on my computer saying resxx/mcshield.dll and was to do with the mcafee virus scan software. I think i got rid of the problem by uninstalling all mcafee anti-virus stuff and have avg instead. I don't know whether that's relevant or not, but it's the only thing i can think of that may have corrupted these sites. If it's not any trouble, I would appreciate if anyone could help. Thanks

Tamed is spelt with only one m... Just for the record.

I'm only laughing because I can't believe I read the whole of that joke to get to such a crummy punchline! I guess that's the point of it though..

I think there are a lot of interesting ideas there, however speculative they may be. The part about being arrested over stealing an item in game got me thinking quite a bit, as the ideas put forward seem to make moral sense. I've always debated on whether what we say is "not real" is in fact real, as although it is only made up of "1"s and "0"s, who's to say it is any different from the items we say are in the real world made up of only atoms? All in all it was a very interesting article, and thank you to whoever wrote it for creating such a thought provoking piece.