Sorry i agree your dad is a * hole, but dont fear your not alone mine is to, and im sure alot of people out there are in similar situations to you and me the truth is hes not a good father some people are some arn't he cant help it its just the way he is. I know its hard because you want a strong male role model there to help you with your problems but what you've got to reliese you are your own man, if you need to talk to someone try speaking to a good friend,brother or cousions. heres also a bit of fatherly advice from me What doesn't kill you makes you stronger I think that would be a bad idea,and seriously doubt your father will change. In this day and age i seriously think family life has gone to pot.