Sam

Alright, I need to unload this. Back on Tuesday, me and Ellen had a big talk. She thought being ill (long recovery from glandular fever/encephalitis that hospitalised her) makes her less of a girlfriend to me. I told her it doesn't make me think any less of her (just as long as she tries her best, I couldn't ask for anything more). I told her that being in a complicated relationship (which we were in because she didn't feel as though she can handle a full-on relationship, and needed time to rest) makes me feel insecure, so we agreed to get back together - I agreed to give her space, and her to try her best for me. My problem is, I don't feel as though I know how to giver her space. I feel as though if I don't give her space, I'll just push her away, and she'll dump me - then I'll come running back when it's fit for her, mostly because I have strong feelings for her. I want to be able to giver her space, but not feel like a depressed moron. I love her, but I feel as though I restrict her, but at the same time, I want the feeling that I give to her back, in the special way she does it. I accept the fact that she's still recovering from an illness that could of easily killed her, all I want to do is be there to give her support when she needs it - and to read the signs when she seems OK, the times when I can occupy myself. This isn't about me kissing her ass, or me exchanging my status for attention. I want to know how to give her space, and when I should be more intimate with her. -- I know it's all very complicated. Kudos to anyone who can even give me a shred of an opinion on what feels to me like a complicated problem.

Strange sort of day for me. Not one i'd like to experience again at all. and Tim, remember, be confident, be cool. It's not hard - even if you think you can't, hold the idea in your mind. I did it for long enough, and now I actually believe it. YOU'RE AWESOME. So stop being sad and be awesome.

Have a look around http://bleep.com - these guys represent a few labels and you might be able to find what you're looking for. Tried /mu/? They can be helpful.

Whole Lotta Love by Led Zeppelin

EDIT: nevermind,

Heh, Congratulations! It was going to be the All Blacks winning, I knew it. Anyone who'd like to see a news article; http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/rugby_union/15405316.stm

FACT mix 282 - Jamie xx (Sep '11) by Jamie xx

http://last.fm/user/digitaldisc0 reset my playcount.

Blue Ridge Mountains by Fleet Foxes

Pitta bread? Seriously craving some Subway right now.

That looks like a nice board to start with. Decent price too!

The way fashion has changed reflects societal change - the feminist movments did a lot for fashion. It used to be 'traditional' to wear dresses and skirts, but with feminists fighting these figurative parameters of archaic society, it gave many women confidence - a confidence that continues today, which is why I think they seem to be worn less.

College has completely screwed me over with maths tuition. They've timetabled my maths all wrong, so instead of being able to resit my maths exam in November, I have to wait until March, where I do it along with another exam. Really very frustrating, I'm already going to have enough on my plate with a full-time art diploma.

I'd like to see you with a bushy beard, that would be rather amusing.

Rock 'n Roll by Daft Punk

I declare a thumb war.

Alpha Centauri by Noisia

4 days ago I visited Lacock Abbey - home of W. H. Fox Talbot, the maker of the earliest known photographic negative, and continued his work to form the basis of negative/positive photography today. I took a selection of photos around the abbey. My assignment at college is 'Structure', so Lacock Abbey is perfect.

I love the first one - lovely detail. I think a little series of photos like this would be rather interesting.

Soft by Washed Out

Flim by Aphex Twin

1.25pm, every Monday.

It is actually! It's a nice sense of pride seeing a plate / mug etc that you've made with you're own design on it. It's proper 'artistic' ceramics, that focuses more on design rather than function.