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Yeah.. ¬_¬

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So bleh...


This post is mainly aimed to be read by my friends, as something has happened, and I am too lazy to explain it in detail to each friend individually :P


So you guys know I was physically ill a while ago, and it got to the point where I quit TET, and not long after rejoining, it got worse and I had to leave again. Just lately, I've been in fairly good physical health, but my mood has been fairly low. About three weeks ago, my parents were worried about this, so they booked me an appointment with my doctor, who said that she thinks its stress caused by college, but booked me for some counselling (whoa! I spelt that word right first time :D) in the future.


Over the next week, I started to get rouge thoughts in my head, telling me to do various unwanted things (such as cutting my arm with a knife while making dinner, jumping in front of moving traffic while standing at roads, jumping out of a window while at my computer upstairs, etc.). I've been able to ignore these thoughts for the most part, but its starting to get harder to dismiss them. I went back to my doctor, who has referred me to the Early Intervention Team, who are going to be helping me in some way (medication or something, I don't know, they discussed my case yesterday and should call me either today or tomorrow).


They also seem to be worried that I may have bipolar, which both my mother and aunt suffer from, and it runs in the family (I am at the age where males are most likely to start showing symptoms if they have it apparently). So yeah..


People have also asked why I have been de-ranked in the HYT clan chat, and the explanation for that is I asked Lady Heinous to temporarily demote me. My mood is fairly unstable at the moment, and being in a position of power is not a good idea if I'm going to lose my temper (nearly happened two nights ago, but Sentry Wolf <3:, Darkwitchery <3: and Emmace <3: were... calming influences is the best way to put it, and I managed to keep my mood in check.


So yeah, kinda sucks, but nothing I can do about it. I'm in extreme amounts of pain with constant headaches and toothache (dentist appointment tomorrow, yay me!), and its not helping that the 'voices' are telling me that the only way to stop the pain is to kill myself.. ¬_¬


Meh anyway, I thought that the best way to explain myself to friends would be this blog post *shrugs*


<3: you all, back to my Dark Beast task!

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Draggle, you know I love you. <3:


I can do nothing but wish you the best, and I sincerely hope that everything turns out okay for you. Hopefully our little spat from the other day is behind is? :unsure:



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Ily dragon, because your just damn awesome.


Keep well mate, and your little irish boy will be there to keep you going along the way <3.

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I really hope everything resolves for you! We've all got your back! :)

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Eventually, those voices in your head will either cut out by themselves, and you'll be alright again ! Hope a full recovery rears its head soon !

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You'll pull through buddy, we've been friends for a long time now, and you've always been able to keep yourself goin' and I'm telling you, you ain't stoppin' now! ILY! <3:

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AWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww<3:( Ily<3: Best of luck with what's coming in the future for you!

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