So today my girlfriend broke up with me :( . I shouldn't be as upset as I am, we'd only been together for a week and a half, but she was my first girlfriend. Apparently she says I'm really great to talk to over texts and such, but in real life i'm just too shy and nervous all the time (apparently I wasn't being affectionate enough to her). I blame us breaking up partly on myself and partly on her. On myself because of the reason I just stated (second time it happened, there was another girl I liked who would have gone out with me but she said I was too different in person.) I blame it partly on her because she just sprung this on me today before she broke up with me, she didn't tell me before, so I could try and fix it or anything (apparently, she didn't want to "force me to change myself" which is [bleep]ing [cabbage]. Besides, I hate myself and would love to change...) Anyways, yeah, I'm pretty upset over this even though I feel stupid for it. I also asked her if we could possibly try again if I changed and I got "I don't know, whatever happens happens." Sometimes I just hate myself...