Noxx

Why are relationships always such a game of guessing? Why can't you just walk up to a girl and tell her "hey, i like you. I like spending time with you. I like spending as much time with you as i can." Why do we always need to play games to see how someone really feels :/

Yay :D

Sweet luck, but be more careful in future. Surprised you owned a Comp caper by that much! Problem is it's pretty hard to see if he has comp cape or not. You can basically figure out if he "might" have one but you can't really be certain. But yeah i got really lucky :P

Guy wanted to fight me with Capes on, so i thought since i have Rhino cape i might aswell give it a go and he was standing there switching between Max and Rhino capes. When the fight started he put on comp and i was like :| Still managed to beat him while maving more then 500lp left :D

I mean honestly, from that quote, you sound like you're still dating. You called her, complaining that she's not putting in enough effort, and told her that she needs to do her part. That sounds like a relationship. She broke up with you because she wanted the freedom to explore her new life. Maybe she does want to be friends, but she doesn't want being your friend to be a chore. I'd suggest laying off her. If it were me, I'd break off all contact at least until I got over her. But at the very least, don't hound her to be your friend. Lay off and if she calls you - chat, do whatever. But don't be on her back about how she has to do x, y, and z to be your friend. That sounds like a boyfriend and girlfriend with relationship problems. Nononono you misunderstood :P The day i called her, i told her that she was right. Time apart is what we needed (although it's exactly what we have both been doing). She told me that until things are the way we want them to be (meaning we have our careers sorted out and know what we want out of life) we should go back to how things were before, by just being friends (to which i agreed). She then told me that i should still continue to call her, like i did, before we dated and while we dated. We have pretty much been talking to eachother almost every day since the day we met regardless of our relationship status. Even when i was dating someone else or she was dating someone else. But when she told me that "I" should continue to call her and text her, ME. That's when i told her that she needs to remember that friendships are not a one way road. If she was serious about continuing a friendly relationship she can't expect me to do all the work. Like i said, you misunderstood a bit. She was the one telling me to call/text her. I was just reminding her it goes both ways. Does it sound like i'm making up excuses to justify my actions? The more i think about it the more i feel like i am. I haven't seen this girl for over 3 months now also, btw. So it feels to me like it's really easy for me to get over her. I've been thinking that the only reason i got upset was because i knew i was losing her and i wanted something that i couldn't have anymore (i'm sure most people understand that). But now that i'm back at school and back to my regular ol' busy life it feels like i just couldn't care any less :|

We pretty much always considered ourselves to be best friends anyway. Even when we were broken up in the past, when something like this happened before, we always stayed friends. It was awkward and hard but it was worth it.

Been a few days now since i called my ex. I spoke to her the other day and told her that if we're going to make this "just friends" thing work she needs to put in her part too. If she's not going to call me then clearly something is not how it should be, and i cannot be asked to be her toy. No matter how much i love her, and no matter how much it hurts me not to talk to her.

Look mommy no hands :\

Thank's to a dear friend i lost pretty much my whole bank. Was thinking about quitting, but where i live there's nothing to do to pass the time. Had just enough crap left to sell and buy Arma and a few Flasks. Did some Frosts an bought Glaivens. Went Nexing for an hour last night. Missed b2b LS Z Bows. Decided to give it another go today :\ 1/10th of my bank back.

Whenever i felt like this i would usually do The Kiln with Steel Titan and see how fast i could complete it, or do Fight Caves. Other options would be doing DT Special Challenges and seeing how fast/how little food you can do it.

Quit RS today. I'm really hoping i stick to this. The game did nothing good for me really. I have a lot of other things to focus on at the moment. Went to West Palm Beach last night and realised i don't need my ex to be happy. I saw a side of me that i have never seen before. I was talking to just about everyone i could (i was the annoying chatty guy at the club) and it actually felt great interacting with strangers i know i'll never see again. It's time to get my life on track and do what i was meant to do.

Lol no but i just got back from a flight and my friend flying with me did actually take a shitload of pictures then :P

Cannon Tridbrid. But to be honest i think it might be a bit closer to 4 and a half hours. I did 2 trips with Cannon and got 167 in the one and 174 in the other. Each 90 minutes long. The other hour and a half or so came from 2 hybrid trips with a failed mage :\ EDIT: Sad part is not a lot of that is going to be profit. Setup cost quite a bit :\

~4 hours at DKs :P

Okay so last night my ex sent me a message asking me to call her some time, when i have some time. I stared at my phone for a good hour and a half before i finally decided i'd call her. We spoke for about an hour. She told me what exactly was going on, and it gave me some sense of comfort but at the same time even greater confusion. She told me she was going through a rough time with her family and that she needed time to focus on her career and get her future straightened out. This i understand. She told me she had to make her studies her first priority. This i understand as well. She told me that she wants to get back with me when her life is straightened out, but she does not want to tell me it's definite because she does not want me to get my hopes up. I guess i can understand this too. She told me to call her whenever i want, like i used to, and text her just like i used to, but not to get angry if she does not reply straight away. I get that, because i do the same thing a lot. It often takes me a few hours before i actually reply to a message. So she called me earlier today and we spoke for about half an hour. There was a lot of noise in the back ground on her side, so she told me she would phone me back in 30 minutes. She never phoned me back. Sent her a text message saying i'll call her tomorrow and we can finish our conversation then. I have some stuff i need to tell her, things that have been bothering her for a long time now and things that used to cause a lot of problems between the two of us in the past, but something that may now not be a factor anymore. I am excited about it and i really want to tell her, but it seems like she's "too busy" the whole time. I don't know if the her saying "call me like you used to" was just a way for me to stop stressing and for her to "get me off her back" so to speak. I'm worried that i might be over thinking things, but im also worried that i might be thinking the right thing. EDIT: Also, she told me that she misses me and she still loves me a lot. And she still sees me as her best friend (we've always considered each other best friends, since the day we started dating). I feel like she only said that because she knows it's what i wanted to hear. Now i am still going to give her her space. I won't call her everyday. I'll call her maybe once ever few days. I want to see if she actually calls me, or texts me. But i'm scared she might not, and i might start jumping to conclusions.

Man, you got some incredible luck sometimes, Slay. Did you ever delete me? Just curious, almost thought you quit RS til I saw you post epic stuff recently on SS thread. You're still on there :P I just haven't been talking much the past while.

First DK Tribird trip in a long time Had to leave because i didn't take enough overloads, only took 3 Flasks :\ . All in all i was happy. 1 hour 30 minutes well spent :)

Haircut + first photo in uniform :P

Having trouble converting Kph to Mph are we? Nah problem is the Speedometer on the car is not working. So we kind of just drive the same speed as the people around us. Funny thing is the guy i was driving behind was actually going even faster than i was. The cop told us the only reason he pulled us over was because my friend was standing up in the car (it's a convertible). Horrible timing because he dropped a bottle of open water and was really just lifting himself off the seat as not to get himself totally wet. Really bad timing :P

Got pulled over by a cop again today. Was going 78 in a 55. Cops in Florida are so nice. I got off with just a warning (they're too lazy to do paper work on international driver's licenses).

Truth be told i have been having a great time here in Florida, without her. But i know i could have had a much better time had she been here. It's always more fun doing things with someone you love, after all. I don't know what has changed in the past two weeks that this happened all of a sudden. It's pretty hard for me as well now. I live in a really boring place at the moment. I have my friends, but there's not much we can really do. We can either study, or we can go fly around Florida for a bit. But we can't spend the whole day doing that. You need more from life. Like i said sometimes it felt like i lived for those moments to hear her voice, to know that she was on the other side of the phone going through something similar to what i was. But now it's even harder because all of a sudden it feels like this place just got so much smaller and a lot more boring. I have to force myself to not pick up the phone and call her or text her. It's hard. Today would be the first day in a very long time that i have gone a day without at least texting her (whether or not she replied). I don't want to be that lapdog that sits around waiting for her to come to her senses, but we have been through some stuff that not many people have been and it made a much bigger bond between the two of us than the average couple (which is why i think sometimes we fight so much. I think it killed a part of her, just like it killed a part of me). But i don't know. I guess i'll have to wait a few more days and see what happens. Her sister sent me a message today asking me what was up with her. She hasn't been replying to her sister's calls either, nor her texts. I tried explaining to her more or less what has been going on. She offered to dig around a bit and see whats up with her sister, but i told her not to. I don't want it to seem like i'm going behind her back trying to fix things. I'm guessing that was the smart move?

There are many people that have been able to make bank staking, and not end up losing it. I have made ~1.6b in the past 2 months doing some casual staking here and there, i still have that 1.6b. making a profit with staking is all about knowing when to go big and when to call it quits, which is where the greed and self control comes in.

I haven't been to DKS in a while so i can't really remember the Gear Setup too well. Since the last time i went i have made a lot more money anyway so i'm not sure where i should switch out what. I'll probably go Solo Tribrid (might take a cannon with me) but i would prefer to just use a Uni. I have Torva, Virtus and Arma, Ely, Chaotics, Karil xBow, SoA, lots of Brew Flasks, Fremmy (4) Boots. I'll be using a Slayer Helm because it's on task too. I have Penance Aura too.

Keep going and you'll get cleaned eventually! don't worry :thumbsup: Only those without self control but with greed get cleaned :\

I honestly hate these kind of mind games. True they work like a charm when you're first dating someone, looking for a not-so-serious relationship, or just hookups. But I really don't think they should be used or even necessary in a serious long term relationship. But I guess that just comes back to my own values. In a serious relationship I want honesty and truth - not those kind of mind games. I feel like after the initial attraction period, you should just be over them. The whole point behind that method is to get her to miss you and make her afraid of losing you. When the ball is in her court, it's easy for her to take her time and consider some time apart. She knows that you still want her and it's all up to her; she can do what she wants. But if you say you're having a great time without her, suddenly she'll start thinking that maybe you're not there waiting for her. Maybe if she spends too much time away she'll lose you forever. And if you make it obvious that you're busy and have a life outside of her, that makes you more attractive in her eyes. But in my opinion, that is not a long term solution. If she acts based on those feelings, it's a quick fix. Odds are she'll start having the same feelings again at some point. She's not going to be "coming to her senses" if you play that game. She's going to be scared into stopping the whole "space" stuff. If it's a serious relationship, you can't do that. You have to solve the underlying issues - not just push them aside. Otherwise they will resurface. You clearly love her a lot, so I know how difficult it would be for you to risk losing her by not playing that game. But the way I see it, you have two options: - Play the game and likely get her back. But eventually the issue will creep up again and next time it might be worse. - Give her the space and just be honest about everything. There is a chance she may want to break up with you. But if she realizes on her own that she was stupid and wants to come back, it will have been completely her decision without any help/games from you. If she decides it on her own, it's a lot more true and sincere. But it is important to realize that people do grow and change. They move on, they want new things, etc. I don't know if you know the specifics, but I feel like it would help to have more details on what exactly she's doing. What you said was pretty vague ("her life has changed a lot," "she was never really able to fully live her teenage years"). To me that suggests partying.. but I could be wrong. Knowing the specifics could help you realize what exactly she's looking for. If it's partying - she probably wants freedom and/or possibly another guy. That's honestly the only reason I can think of that she'd need space from you. If it was anything else, why couldn't you support her during her new adventures? The fact that she wants time away from you kind of suggests that she wants to see if there are other guys out there or she wants the freedom of being single. :( The last part, i think is probably true. I want to ask her if it's another guy, just because i want to know. But i don't want to ask her because i don't want to be "that guy". I don't want to seem obsessive over her. I know she has a great fear of being alone and that might be why she is/has been acting the way she is now. I want to still talk to her and i want her to share her troubles with me, but she never will. She knows i've had a hard life and that i've had to do a lot to get to where i am today. She knows i've had to face many a demon and she once told me that sometimes she feels like sharing her troubles with me is like putting another burden on me, and that's something she can't do. Which i guess in some sense i understand. I'm just really confused about what really to do. i think i will go ahead and "ignore" her for a while. Meaning i won't text, call, skype or facebook her. But what do i do if she sends me a text? Or calls me? How do i respond or reply? What if i'm having the shittiest time of my life (which is easy to understand considering where i live at the moment) and all i really want is to tell her "god damn i miss you!"