11:05 eh?

 

Debating going to bed.

11:05 eh?

 

Debating going to bed.

11:23 eh? Gon try to sleep. Did enjoy my nap from 3:40-5:20, extended nap would be naice as well.

10:30 eh?

not gunna go to sleep

11:37 eh? Still up, ohwell.

Things I learned tonight: TNT can blow up lava.

Things I learned tonight: TNT can blow up lava.

Try that IRL. I dare you.

Kk, I'll let you know when I get ahold of some TNT. Because that's totally legal.

Afternoon.

And what a fine afternoon it is!

Indeed!

All is well in the world. Well, my world. At the moment.

didn't ben leave?

Ben became slightly more absent when something happened in his life.

wut happened?

 

story time!

 

*puts on PJs and climbs into ben's bed, bringing popcorn and hot dogs*

I want food. :c

Well this is comfy! And you brought food? Come over any time. <3:

 

[spoiler=If you really want to know, (it's not a happy bedtime story):]

My mum committed suicide. I got home from the movies with friends one night to find that she'd taken a whole lot of painkillers and sleeping tablets. She was still breathing, I called an ambulance and she was taken to hospital. I was scared as [bleep]. Couldn't get a hold of my dad. Mum was alive but unconscious. I stayed at the hospital all night before he came. I explained what had happened to him, he didn't even look upset, then went home and tried to sleep.

 

Three days later, she had a heart attack and died, still in hospital.

 

There wasn't a note or anything like that, but I know she couldn't handle the thought of my brother (who, if you've missed previous stories of mine is severely autistic, lives in an old people's home type thing for the disabled as he got to the point where my parents physically couldn't take care of him. He was too strong and didn't realise he hurt them.). She thought of herself as a failure, that it was her fault he was born the way he was, and her fault he had to live with strangers. And it wasn't her fault at all, she never smoked or drank or did anything bad during pregnancy, and no-one knows why autism happens.

 

And he doesn't even understand that she's gone and will never come back.

 

 

And this is why I didn't want to say this before. Just ignore the hide tags guys.

Not many folks around, just me, and yeah.

My condolences, ben. I really don't know what to say, but I hope thinks get better for you, as stupid as that may sound.

 

Also, done with the [bleep]ing homework. All I have left is to write 2 more pages of an essay for friday, and I'll finally be able to get some sleep.

Homework makes me sad. I might make a start on my Chem stuff this weekend.

*cries and hugs ben*

 

 

 

 

don't be afraid to share stuff on here, we're not idiots that'd laugh at you or want you to stop posting.

 

if it makes you feel better, please feel free to talk about your feelings. and you're welcome to PM me, and any other FG/er anytime you want.

 

if you need a friend to talk to, there's many of us here.

also i fell asleep last night as it was way past my bedtime.

Freak storm. Like 2 minutes of hardcore hail, then nothing. :mellow:

my right leg keeps hurting when its cold. should i see a doc?