RpgGamer

Today I joined twitter. (@InstaLiterate) I feel like I need to shower.

This one cracked me up: Dafuq did I just read? :-s Not sure why that confuses you >_> His post makes a lot of sense and was very helpful to me. So you agree with needing to resort to drug use to pick up women? That's not what the poster was saying. Have you ever taken MDMA or any other drug? If yes, you'll understand the altered thinking pattern your brain inherits. Just imagine like you're on MDMA again and how you acted, and how you thought. How smooth and happy everything felt. Even if you haven't experienced it first hand, ask people have for detailed descriptions. Junkies love describing their habits, it's not hard information to get a hold of.

Same boat. I just woke up at 1030pm. Such a pain in the ass to fix.

I'm glad we've all reached the point in our knowledge that we can joke about these things and not worry about anyone actually going around rag dolling women at clubs by their elbows. @Kalphite: "date" is more appropriate for your age group. Post-highschool, if a girl can't handle a date, there's other things you need to be thinking about. First kiss is always awkward. Build up is essential, but feel free to tell her youre nervous and when shee asks why, just kiss her. Off guard is the new cute. PROTIP: If she agrees to a "date" with you she'll likely expect a kiss. (I'm a huge fan of the good night kiss)

@Tim I'd love to gain some weight actually, but my body structure/genetics isn't in my favor. I used to exercise a lot, but in the past few years it's been like once or twice a month. Of course, I also work ~35 hours a week in a fairly labor intensive job. I drink a lot, which doesn't make me particularly hungry, and I never really eat a lot all at once. Every once in a while I'll have a day that I am constantly eating something, but I've always been more of a "grazer" (which is supposed to be healthier). I also have a long history of religious fasting (you try being the first born male in a jewish family for a while haha) so hunger doesn't really bother me at all. Even now, I can go a whole day on nothing more than breakfast. Sometimes it's a problem because it's not healthy to just not eat for so long, but I ain't dead so whatever. When I do eat, I feel attracted to healthier foods. Sugar hurts my teeth, so I avoid it most of the time, I don't drink any more than like 6oz of soda in a day. I have a lot of vegetarian/vegan friends, and they take me to real hippy dippy restaurants which is certainly not bad for me. Not that I don't splurge on a PYT donut burger from time to time. In fact, I'd say it's the chaotic inconsistency of my diet that keeps my metabolism flexible. It never gets used to anything for too long. It also doesn't hurt that my mom is 5'6" and didn't break 100lbs until she was pregnant with me. Tiny thing she was.

It really isn't too hard to afford a webcam and a decent laptop. Together that's only like $800. When you're 18 and have a fairly steady job, that only takes a month or so to accumulate if you budget correctly. We'll be fair and assume most of them don't pay for rent/food/insurance. And I suppose I wasn't held at gunpoint, but the only youtube series I really follow are "The Guild" "Battlefield Friends" and "Easycore". My brother tried to get me into this highschool based on professional gaming series, but I couldn't get into it enough to check on it. The first season of "Dick Figures" was really good, but they got too meme heavy.

The Vlog brothers were essentially nobody before YT, but I can't speak for their financial situation prior. Jenna Marbles was likely loaded. Shane Dawson was of moderate wealth, nothing super fancy. Built his empire from scratch. Watsky (gWatsky) was of upper middle wealth, but likely self built. SwiftKarateChop had next to nothing starting out, or atleast that's what you can assume by his early videos. OAG had nothing to start with, just a random girl making fun of Bieber. I can't remember the special effects guy that's everywhere, but he had funding to help him, certainly not only his parents. Couldn't tell you about Joseph Birdsong. I doubt he got his parent's help. And now you all know my strong ties to the world of vloggers. Blame the females I hang around.

I'm not exactly out of shape. I'm not working with much shape to even have at 5'11" (1.8m) 130lbs (~9 stone). I do think I'll start moving around more. I've lost my six pack that I so proudly wore in highschool, kinda want it back. But you're exactly right: I do need to figure out what I want. And believe me, I've been pondering it for many moons. Do you have any patience or attention keeping tips? i'd love to be able to read a nice book from time to time or even watch an hour long educational video, but I can't sit still long enough or focus long enough to really have any of it sink in.

So I've been thinking for the past few hours about how much I screwed up in 2012. I even started 2013 a little weird. I tend to hook up with girls when I'm drunk. I'm remembering fewer and fewer of them. I remember kissing my friend's (we have a strange friendship) ex. I don't remember how either of us reacted. I hung out with her last night. I learned more about her than I had before. I then realized it's because I knew virtually nothing about her prior to then. And I have this blur of blonde hair in my memory as if I made out with a different girl, but I literally don't know. But what has stuck to me is some of the things coming out of my mouth on New Years. Commenting about how cute my friend's new girlfriend is; then having to justify it by saying "cute like together, not cute like I'd hook up with her". Which was true. But it doesn't sound better really. But that kind of sums up my 2012. Drunken sloppiness, and a loose tongue that sometimes finds it's way into other people's mouths. I'm not sure it's ideal anymore. I'm gonna be chilling in bars soon, I really can't keep this up if I want to be welcome to any such place. And I'm glad I realize this now and not when I'm real old. Another thing occurred to me. I've been letting relationships slip through my fingers since I ended things with my ex always for the same reason. I wanted something more. Call me greedy, conceited, insensitive, I don't care. I am to some degree. The first girl I passed on was younger, but her innocence reflected it. Only 2 years my junior, loved talking, and was kind hearted. I could talk to her for hours and hours. But she'd never been in a relationship before, and that freaked me out. How could I play such a role in this beautiful girl's life? Such responsibility for such a fragile state of mind. I couldn't. The second was a little harsher. She'd had relationships before, in fact she dated a friend of mine for a month or so. We "dated" to an extent for upwards of 3 months when I started talking to my ex again. The 2nd girl had let it slip she was a virgin. She was awkward, nerdy, sexy, and fascinating all rolled into one. And she adored me. For a while. She found out I was talking to my ex, and with the same anger you reading this just felt, I was cut off. I didn't care at first. I was talking to my ex. When the fantasy world dream ended I found myself in deep regret. The third girl was amazing incarnate. Sexy, wild, unpredictable, tattooed, pierced, angel with the devil's grin. I was head over heels almost immediately. I went to a rave with her and what turned out to be her ex boyfriend who told me to lay off. I thought they still had something so I did like a respectable gentleman. I was wrong, and I lost my chance. She ended up moving down the shore and has been dating her roommate ever since. So I suppose in theory the next girl I meet and have a chance with will be incredible, as I seem to progressively be more drawn to the girls I meet as time goes on. At least that's what I'm telling myself to give myself something to look forward to. Which brings me to my last point. This was a journal entry that for some reason I felt was appropriate to share with people on the internet. I love you guys (and gals). Ya'll have helped me loads in the past, and continue to help countless others. But I'm not sure why I continue to update with status reports, even when I have no "true" progress to repeat. I also only seem to update when I'm feeling down, or reflective(muggiw read: beta). Perhaps it's time I bought myself a real journal and stopped bothering Facebook/Tumblr/DeviantArt and you, kind readers of this thread with my petty bullshit. We'll see how it goes. Maybe I'll just get lazy and make a vlog that no one will ever watch or care about. But maybe that's why I plaster my feelings all over cyberspace. I like pretending someone somewhere can relate, understand, or maybe even give a shit.

Believing that it will work makes it work. Mind over matter after all.

I don't know how you found time to find and watch all these videos Muggiw.

tatoos are sexy as hell. and piercings. Especially nipple and tongue piercings. oh lawd jesus.

OKay got my car. All is well. Except whatever the [bleep] this stain is on my new pants. Hope it's milk.

anyone wanna pick me up so i can get my car?

I woke up two towns over from my car and I'm still kinda drunk. Just walked my ass home. Still kinda drunk. [bleep]ing fun night. Happy new year ya'll

I had a friend that would only change out his contacts two or three times a month. Just left them in ALL the time. Probably hurt taking them out though. I woke up at my friends house this morning. I remember driving there to meet up with some old friends. I don't remember how I ended up sleeping on the couch. Whatever.

'twas me. I disclaimered that with a gender neutral statement, we just happen to be talking about girls at the time. Just generally speaking it's my belief that generally the older you are as a single person, the stronger the reason why you remain that way.

Get ready to do a lot of cover-up operations

Spent 9 hours beating Co-op in Portal 2 with my brother in one sitting. Fun stuff. Mildly frustrating at times, but fun overall. Many "The Lid" jokes a la Spongebob.

I won't say that I have never made rape jokes when talking about a rapier... Rape jokes aren't funny. They are when you're forced to listen to them without your consent. Christmas in ~4 hours. Happy Holidays ya'll. Even though Hanuka's been over for quite some time now.

This is how I [bleep]ed up by letting my ex leave my life. This is why I'd also never date or get involved with a girl who is not a very strong religious person. How could I ever date a person who believe that it is ok to sleep around as long as we weren't married (hell, sleep around even if we were married too)? The point of a relationship/marriage/courtship is to be with 1 (not 100) person. Shame for you people taking when isn't rightfully theirs. You might want the food that the guy sitting at a table across the room has, but that doesn't mean that you have to go over there and eat his food when he gets up to go to the bathroom or something. Maybe I'm an old fashion guy who will die alone, but at least I will have my dignity and pride when its all said and done. Yeah... I haven't had a good day today. Try not to think of relationship partners as possessions, it eases the process. I opted out of a perfectly good relationship to spend one more week with my ex. I needed a 20 cunning roll to successfully maintain both opportunities. Failed saving throw. Got like a 3d20. Still haven't completely recovered. Another Dr Drew fan? We're gonna get along great. I'll introduce you to my buddy Jesse. He refuses to wear condoms. His precum created little Xavier last year. Cutest thing he is. More age = more emotional baggage. Biology or not, a woman's seen some shit. Girls haven't. You also have to account for the fact that girls are single/available for a reason (as are guys). If a girl is getting on in age and is still single, there's a strong chance you won't like the reason why. -- And in Muggiw's defense, I know a fair handful of girls that are really into sexual openess, and have been bedded by men near thrice their age. I'm sure they're few in far between, but such women do and always will exist.

Why did she approach you if she had a boyfriend, Noxx? I'm on the fence on the physical commitment bit. I enjoy it more if I like the girl, but I'm down as long as they're attractive at the end of the day.

Not sure blocking the crap out of her was totally necessary, but I'm far from an expert in moving on haha

Will Smith, Jamie Foxx, Tyrese Gibson and Dougie Fresh all came to my place of emplyment to party. Got to hear Will rap some Biggie Smalls and stuff. Lots of fun.

Was that Kerr? i've posted her before and didn't even recognize her lol