You made me chuckle. He put it in a very cynical way, but he's right, there's more girls just as good as her, and then some. If you think this gaping pit can't be filled by anyone else, you're wrong. There's girls out there that can fill the pit twice. you're right too, its not just the looks though, it was the personality I miss the most. I highly doubt i'll ever find a girl that matches or exceeds what she had in personality but i know i'm wrong. this whole experience made me an emotional wreck I guess I could say that I feel close to what you feel when you say you miss the personality of someone. I did plan on writing my whole story out, but about halfway through I realized noone would want to read this [cabbage] so I'm going to tl;dr it for you. Learn from people, like me, who have made the mistakes, and learn from us. Dont learn by experiencing this. High School relationships are really for the most part doomed to fail if you take it seriously like I do. Of all the married people I know (which is a lot) only 2 couples are high school sweethearts: A friends Parents and my Grandparents. I miss the personality of the girl I had very strong feelings for (I would call it love but I dont really think people can love in high school) so I know what your feeling. Im an emotional wreck. I'v done some stupid things. I'v very nearly ended my life twice because of someone I felt strongly for and let me tell you its not al all worth it. College from what I'v herd is great. All the [wagon] from your past are gone, as well as all your friends unfortunatly. But you get to have the chance to meet up to a hundred fold of new classmates compared to the ammount of old ones (I used to go to a 350 kid High School and im going to a 3500 student college) There have to be someone out there for you and me. Chin up. Positive thoughts. That girl once told me "everything gets better in time". And for most situations, they do. Believe me.