Estonian dude

I've changed my name like once or twice. Originally it was my family name, but man, for privacy issues, especially if there are only 40 people out in the world with that family name, it does get on your nerves. Then I changed it to my nick on RS and other online games and forums and stuff. Bloody hell, I am in heaven, everything is going so great now. And yes, for once, I am drunk TIFing aswell again.

Well, there is somewhat of a middle ground between being a total jerk and being a "nice guy". I mean, I do like to think that I am a nice guy and I do act like one aswell, what with going on walks and being polite af and gentlemanly. But then again, my last gf did cheat on me. But then AGAIN, it took me just a week back in homeland to find a new one to be invested and interested in. She is shy, as of yet still, but holy [bleep], this thing has potential. And I am rather having trouble turning down girls, cause I am not a douchebag looking for a hole to fill with my dick. Looks are not everything. They play a part, but I like, or well, require being able to conversate on some even pretty serious topics with someone. I just can't tolerate general lack of interest about what is going on in the world or stupidness. That doesn't mean I speak on a daily basis. Just that when I feel like I wanna talk serious stuff, I can talk that with girls aswell. But then again, probably I am spoiled by smart and pretty uni girls. I don't think I ever can seriously consider dating/living with someone who hasn't at least succeeded in applying to an uni.

Uni merch? Bleh. Only hoodie is cool. Haven't even heard of a weekend exam or lessons. My birthplace is a village with 150 inhabitants. Beat that. And that village had a school until 1999.

At least you did have a first date, and now you did see it wasn't SO bad. She didn't find you repulsive or anything. She invited you to this bbq thing aswell. Why do you keep looking for negatives if there are positive sides to this whole interaction? Trust me, when you get the ball rolling, next ones come easier. I am actually rather having trouble turning down girls.

The Forever War. Pretty much perfect sci-fi. Sequels get shittier though. I am playing the waiting game with my knee... MRI on 27. and then I will know exactly how [bleep]ed and for how long will I be. Probably no proper exercising for at least 8 months.

Well, I have slept, I just haven't slept enough. Had something to do all the time. Either a field trip coming up at 8 AM after arriving home from another event at 4 AM and so... Did sleep properly today though. And am not expecting to sleep less until weekend.

I see muggi and RPG have a competition of who has more posts. Right now muggi is in the lead with just 1 post :D In other news, I haven't slept in 4 days, my lips are all bloody, and I haven't weighed so little in over 5 years. Seriously, my BMI is under 20 right now. By quite a bit.

Just got back from an event. Made one post. To one single FB community with 200 members. And that was it. And I got 50+ people to the event. And it all went brilliantly. I am in [bleep]ing heaven.

I loathe undercuts and am definitely not gonna get one. I usually just shave my head once it gets too long. Too long is after about every 2-3 months. Easy to dry off, looks good, needs no maintenance. But this autumn I started shaving my chin again. [bleep]ing hate it, I am too lazy. But I keep getting compliments, after having a beard for 2 years. And I haven't had an awkward date yet. I don't really date that often either though. One thing that might help is that with one exception I have always only tried girls out of my league. Which means I haven't tried that many.

I'd say it depends on the age difference. 18 is the lowest I would date right now and even then I'd be reluctant. But if I were already 22+... Age difference would be more than a fifth of her life, that would be odd and I'd feel like I'd be taking advantage. Right now, am 21 and dating a 19-year old.

It is here. Unreasonably cold for October.

I [bleep]ing love a quote that my mate uses a lot. Every time someone's talking about girls, actually. As a bit of a background, he outmuggi's muggi. I have seen him get threesomes and he was sooooo bloody close to getting a foursome with three girls. Mate woke up in a philosophy department's library with a girl sucking him off. He has no connection to philosophy department. But well, that was random the quote is as follows: Confidence is the [bleep]ing key to everything and confidence is the key to [bleep]ing everything. It is one word that is censored in both sentences. As some guys have said, when you go out, simply think that everyone likes you until visibly shown otherwise. It [bleep]ing works. Of course, you can't get everyone. But it helps so much. Even the hideous giant yeti that is me is now often called charming and handsome :D

Don't think so bloody much about it! Let it flow. If she even wanted to reschedule, that means she is interested. Otherwise she wouldn't have contacted again. Last night, as I was hanging out with 2 blokes I came from a friend's birthday with, a drunk girl came out of a bar. She asked us to kiss her. When we hesitated, she followed up by asking who has a girlfriend and who hasn't. She wasn't the best looking so I said so-so and rejected her, but she did kiss one dude I was out with. And then she complained that she really wanted to kiss me, because she thought I was really hot. And right after that started apologizing to the one dude she hadn't kissed aswell that she didn't mean it like he was ugly. Now I haven't been called smoking hot before, feels awesome.

Fun fact: My class teacher met her American husband in EVE Online while studying in the US. Afaik they are still together. In Estonia.

Going poly. I am already exploring boundaries. Sad part is that since she is a med student and I am busy with all sorts of organizations we can meet only like once-twice a week. But I don't really have time for anything more and that makes every time more special.

And persistence is key, today the girl who told me earlier that she would like to take it slow pretty much jumped on me and kissed me. She is a catch. And no, I will not follow the way of Muggi right now.

I am not thinking anything of it. Or well, she would like us to be friends, to which I promptly said no the first time she asked it, which was when she dumped me. Been seeing another girl for a few weeks now already anyways.

Ex called me at 4.30 AM. She was quite tipsy. Interesting, since she dumped me.

I know, there's gonna be good times. Just a feel-good song, always cheers me up.

Aye, you do have done a good job, keep it up! But do not overthink. Seriously, just do not think that much about what could have happened or what you did wrong or whatnot. And you can gain a lot of confidence in this dance class. Just go there and enjoy, you don't even have to ask anyone out yet, just get the hang of not feeling awkward when touching someone or when making chit-chat. If you can do that, then you can take a step further.

If you were an average american it would also be " Yay for GF life savings" . It costs me the whole lot of $6, the whole thing. Including MRI, the actual surgery, and the orthosis and physiotherapy afterwards. Sometimes I quite like being an Estonian.

Yesterday, I found out I have completely torn ACL. Yay for a difficult and unsure surgery. Yay for a month on crutches after the surgery. Yay for a year of physiotherapy.

RPG is in Philly area, IIRC. Today, I might have just lost a really good friend.

Ooooh, Muggi definitely now comes out with the talk about how a male and female can't have a platonic friendship... Life takes mysterious ways for me aswell.

And me. Except my mom never texts me. But yeah, I just don't care about fixing text when drunk. Can you tell that I've had 7 beers tonight?