Estonian dude

It's not even actually biting, per se, if you have really thin lips, then especially wintertimes they sometimes get bloody by themselves simply by drying out. And I have really thin lips, so it happens nearly all the time that after a bigger make-out session they get bloody. It's not like blood is flowing or anything, it simply appears on top of lips, nearly unnoticeable layer until you lick it off and can feel the taste.

I know I'll be fine, it just hurt quite a lot. Anyways, will be working on getting dates for next week.

Well, I had kept up hope that I could still have something with the girl from Spring. The day before yesterday, well, did have something, got my lips bitten bloody from the furious making out. Also went on a date yesterday which went so and so and when we met again at the evening, she told me it is done. It hurt that badly because the night before ended on so high notes. All feelings and stuff came back. Oh well.

I just had the worst night in a long while. What makes it specially painful is that I've been 100% completely sober the last 30 hours at least, so I'll remember it for all times to come. I am at a war with an organization.

And we have seen that I did the worst [bleep]ing decision ever while absolutely sober. I am positively, definitely, 100% certainly single, and now, again, heartbroken man. Well, gotta plan new dates then. Luckily I have Tinder account again.

Didn't even need the date to get my lips bitten bloody. Didn't take much either though, they had nothing for 3 months. Well, we'll see.

God [bleep]ing damn, been at homeland for 5 days and have drunk on 3 of them. Once absolutely blackout drunk. I can't let it go like last year, I need to get on line with school and shit. With tonight, ruined another schoolday. Luckily just 1 class, but still.

I still think that with less guns in general, less gun crimes will happen. If a criminal doesn't have a gun, the victims won't need guns and law enforcement won't need guns.

Shootings every day, if guns keep being as freely available.

I wear a suit 2-3 evenings a week. And the one I had really suited (pun not intended) me. I have worn the old one to pieces. And chicks dig suits. And I got a date for Thursday.

As I said, I am fairly certainly gonna see her on Wednesday or Thursday aswell, so I don't really need to ask her out per se. We'll see. In the meantime, I have started tweaking my training regime to get more results, and visible ones. Shaved myself for the first time since February (I had a pretty nice beard though, and I trimmed with haircutter a few times) and got 2 new suits and some more proper classy attire. I am ready to take on the city right now.

I don't know, how I got that song, but I really love it. It has been one of the few songs (Stand Up is another one, for example) that have repeated themselves in my head so that I even start humming them when I am not listening to them.

The problem is, I did talk. I talked to pretty much everyone I know, cause it is hard in solitude. I didn't talk with her too often though, like once a week maybe. And I did talk to her on Saturday, when I had gotten home and wanted to make plans for the next few days and that's when I heard she was on a date. But she did still want to meet up aswell, some time later. And, that organizational stuff means that I am pretty much guaranteed to see her at least once this week anyways.

Bloody [bleep]ing hell, I am in a pickle. The girl I was with in spring, and all the way up until I left the country, is gone from me now, I think. I just got back from abroad this Friday and have been at my place for 2 days now. It was great, what we had back then and I thought it would go on, but apparently she was on a date with another yesterday, knowing that I was back. We haven't seen each other yet. All logic tells me to forget about her, but I still think about her. Might be cause I haven't seen a girl since 26th of June, the same day I left the country and we spent the last night together...

You nasty thing having dates so close to each other AND at the same spot. Hasn't it happened that you have ran into someone while there? A later date coming earlier or the first date going on longer? I mean, I don't know where you live at, but with a lifestyle like yours in a smallish town or even city, it would make drama. I know I can't do anything like that. I know a ridiculous amount of people in this town through all kinds of organisations and stuff and I can't move a single finger without hearing about it from a different source. Then again, I pretty much always know what is up, so it is kind of a double-edged sword...

TIF is the only forum where I've been even remotely invested in, I also like all kinds of posts here. I have agreed and tried some of muggi's advice from time to time, mostly works, but sometimes doesn't. Everything needs to be put through personal background. In other news, back home and had my first class of the year. Fun to see, every year 3 in the natural sciences in one huge class... I know nearly half the people there. And there are less than a half from those who started two years ago. Everyone seems wiser and more experienced and pretty much is aswell.

Got 2 new suits today. I have worn out the one I got for graduation in less than 2 years.

Had no idea this song was by The Prodigy. It's a quite shitty version on youtube. It has been haunting me quite a while, I had heard it on shuffle on my computer but I didn't know the name or artist before today.

Raining horizontally cause of the winds.

Lost my phone to Icelandic horizontal rain.

Currently just outside our tent boiling water for tea near Hófsos, Iceland. Un-[bleep]ing-believable trip. 3 thermal pools today and they all were at the Arctic Ocean, which I dipped in aswell. Bliss.

Have spent every day relaxing in a termal pool or spring. Paradise.

Right now on eduroam in Oslo airport. Plane to Reykjavik goes in 8 hours. God it is boring. And ffs, can't wait to arrive already!

You need 40 hours of classes and 20+ hours of driving WITH an instructor to be even eligible to take the test for getting a drivers' license here.

I have never used a calendar.