This weekend I learned that a friend of mine has the same mindset I had last year, and is going through some serious depression as a result of it. I've been giving him as much advice as I can, and as I do, it feels like I'm somehow solving my own problems that I didn't even knew existed. It's hard to explain. As I put his problem into words, it helps me understand exactly what I went through, and now I feel like I'm actually learning from it. I thought I'd already learned from it. I guess I was wrong. Like I said, I'm having trouble explaining this, but I feel like I'm helping myself as much as I'm helping my friend. Anyway, I've already started my summer self-improvement plan without actually meaning to. It's amazing how much a tan and a nice haircut can make a difference. Now I just need some money. That'll be tough, since I live in the middle of nowhere, but I might be able to save a few dollars to buy some clothes and [cabbage]. I might even try to get my friend I mentioned to join me. That'll be good for both of us.