Noxx

Can't believe the Pats won after trailing by 25. What a game.

Had a really interesting "conversation" with someone on Tinder earlier today. We were talking about random shit, making smalltalk i guess, when she asked me how tall i am. In response i asked her how much she weighs. She seemed quite taken aback and told me it's rude to ask women what their weight is. So i asked her how is it any different from asking someone how tall they are, and why it should even matter. I told her that in fact i find it much more rude to judge someone on their height that it is to judge them on their weight, since in most cases you can control your weight but you can't control your height. Argument got pretty heated, as i pretty much expected, and i still managed to get a date :D At the end of it all she asked me if i was going to tell her how tall i am or not, so i told her if she was really curious she can find out by going on a date with me. Honestly she seems like a bit of a [bleep], and she seems like a very high-maintenance girl based on some of the things she said, her views and opinions on certain things, but she also seems to be pretty hot. So i'm game.

Last night was pretty out of control. Did coke properly for the first time (did it before but it was so little that i don't think it even affected me at all) and ended up hooking up with a married woman. Not really sure what's going on... This year has gotten off to a pretty weird start.

Bought more shoes today :\ I have way too many pairs of shoes.... I wanted to buy something that's more comfortable to walk long-ish distances in when i travel for exams so i bought a really nice pair of Nike trainers. First time in like 8 or 9 years that i've owned trainers (apart from my tennis shoes). They're so pretty though.

I don't date girrafes anyway. And you forget Qatar is a multicultural country, so i highly she's taller than many girls here. But props for trying.

That girl is even more average than the child looking one :s

She looks like a child :s

"Ex"citing? ;) I suppose you could say that. I think that we've both sufficiently grown up enough to give it another serious shot. There's a reason an ex is an ex. It rarely ever works out the second time, and i think the only times it actually ends up working out is when both parties involve are able to sufficiently delude themselves into thinking "things are different/better" this time when in fact things are probably the same it was before. You've just learned to "accept" it or "not care about it" or "deal with it". None of those are exactly healthy for anyone involved in the long term.

I ordered a Batman onesie online about a week ago. it arrived today. Don't think i'll ever wear any other clothes again.

Fog has been so thick outside for the past few nights. Went out onto the roof last night around 11PM and the fog was so thick i could even see 10ft in front of me. It creates a very eerie atmosphere.

If i had speakers with me i would have done just that. Sadly i don't think my laptop even goes loud enough for anyone in the next room to hear it, let alone someone in a different appartement. Generally i don't care for this sort of noise, the only reasons it annoyed me are a.) it's a [bleep]ing Sunday evening, who the hell parties like that on Sundays? and b.) i had exams the next day (which i ended up missing) and i just wanted to get some damn rest.

Couldn't sleep at all last night. Neighbours above me, or next to me, or across the street, or somewhere, had loud music playing till like 5 in the morning. Was really frustrating. Tried my best to fall asleep but i ended up just tossing and turning for hours. Ended up being so tired, i finally fell asleep at around 7am. It sucks because i was meant to take exams this morning, which i ended up missing. Woke up at 3pm... Decided i might aswell just go back to sleep, wake up later, then study the entire night. Well... finally woke up an hour ago (1am). I have an exam (well...2 now) at 11am. So tonight/today is going to be a looooong one. I'll have to do the same thing when i get home, since i have 2 more exams on Wednesday. Can't wait for this week to be over.

Saw it, and couldn't resist buying it XD

Actually my favorite CoD. The first CoD game i was really good in. I remember me and some friends went to local LAN events just to mess around. The first 1 or 2 we went to were just for luls, then we realised we were actually good. I know people love to hate on that game, but i actually really liked it. Destiny has skill-based matchmaking. Your competition should progressively get harder. Thinking about getting FF when i get home later this week, but i'm unsure. Survival for The Division is coming out in a few days and i can already see most of my time going into that...

I took a nap yesterday afternoon cause i wasn't feeling to good. Nap was longer than i hoped (i forgot to set my alarm), and i woke up at 8pm. Was so cold outside i couldn't go get anything to eat :s What a miserable evening. Ended up eating chocolate-chip cookies and maltesers for dinner.

I mean right now that pretty much sums up my attitude about the entire situation. When my sister first told me my first reaction was "what kind of a dumb women uses sex to get back at someone." Obviously my sister isn't gonna give a shit who i sleep with, and obviously if i'm getting laid i don't care what the motives are... Like... i don't really understand what her angle was.

So i have somewhat of a messed-up story... It's kind of confusing, but i'll try to simplify it as much as i can. The people involved are Me, my sister, the girl i'm seeing (who's also my sister's "best" friend), the guy my sister is seeing (who's also a really close friend of the girl i'm seeing), and the girl i'm seeing's gay best friend (who's also the brother of the guy my sister is seeing). I just realised, saying it like that already makes this sound very redneck. To make things easy i'll just refer to the girl i'm seeing as A, the guy my sister is seeing as B, and the gay brother/best friend as C. So my sister introduced me to A a few weeks back. We hit it off immediately. Went on a date a few days later. Pretty much followed the generic path most people do during the "development phase" of a new relationship. After about 3 weeks we both came to an "agreement" that we wanted to be exclusive. Up until now i thought things were pretty normal, following a normal path. Obviously this is when the twist came. I was on my way to go see A one night when i got a phone call from my sister. She told me the following: B and C apparently had a conversation in which my "relationship" with A was brought up. C told B that A was only using me to get back at my sister. Get back at her for what? Well A and B were really close friends, but once my sister and B started showing interest in each other, A and B no longer hung out as much as they used to. To simplify it, A was mad that B was starting to spend more time with my sister than with her (A). She(A) felt as if my sister had "stolen" B from her, so she(A) was angry at my sister. So in her(A) mind, the best way to get back at my sister was to sleep with me. I know, i know... this makes no sense. Anyway.... the reason B knew this was because C had told him so after A had told him © so. At the time it didn't really bother me too much because i really wasn't looking for a serious relationship anyway. To me A was not much more than just someone to hang out with and hook up with. But now... i feel like things are different. A is changing her behavior towards me. Starting to become slightly more serious. Our conversations are becoming a bit more meaningful, were starting to do things "normal" couples do, etc. And truth be told, it's confusing me ever so slightly. Now when me and my sister spoke about this a few days ago she told me that A has been talking to her about me a lot. The way she's starting to feel about me, etc. Keep in mind that no one (except my sister) knows that i know everything. So A doesn't know that i'm aware of what she said/did. And truth be told, it's confusing me because a.) either A is playing the long game (the VERY long game), or b.) she's actually starting (or already started) seeing potential in our relationship. I'm still not sure how i feel about the whole situation. On the one hand i don't really want to ruin a good thing. What we have is good. We have fun, a lot of fun. And i feel like i have the ability to control my emotions (as in completely keep emotions out of it) for now. When i spoke to my sister about this the other day she said that perhaps A's initial intentions were just to sleep with me, "get back at my sister" and then "dump" me, but now that we've gotten to spend more time together she's changed her mind. So the confusing part about all of this is that i'm not sure what to do. I feel like i should confront A about this, but i don't really want to deal with all the drama that comes with it (because it'll most likely create drama between my sister and B, A and B, B and C, and so on and so forth). But additionally i don't want to get bamboozled and end up being a centerpiece of A's long-game (assuming her feeling have not changed the way i think they have). It's only been a few weeks, so it's still very early to judge, but me and A are very compatible and i know that we can very easily have a very long term relationship. So yeah... this is fun...

When Estonia ever gets to 50 degrees in the summer, let me know. Till then, comparing your weather system/tolerance to mine is pretty much irrelevant.

Traveling to Greece tomorrow, for a week. Excited to get away from home for a bit, but not too happy that it's in December. It's going to be so damn cold. I remember going in November-ish last year and the cold was pretty much unbar able for me.

Ran into my ex's neighbor last night. I've had a tiny crush on this girl for years now, but it never went anywhere because who knows. Anyway, hadn't seen her in about 2 years or so. Bumped into her last night as i was leaving. She told me how much i've changed and hiw much different i look from the last time she saw me. Now she seems really keen on getting together before i leave for Greece in a few days. When it rains it pours.

Few days late on this, but the reason i was so grossed out by a girl asking me to have sex with her while she's on her period is because blood really freaks me out. There have been occasions where i would faint at the sight of a lot of blood. I even faint sometimes when i have to get blood drawn from me. So the idea of having sex with someone on her period... Yikes.

Met a girl at a club tonight. It was noisy as all hell, as usual, so she asked me if i wanted to go grab a coffee somewhere quiet. We ended up going back to her place. Things got intimate. She whispers in my ear "i'm on my period". I'm like "cool, no worries". She's like "you can still [bleep] me if you want". I'm like "later fam i hear cows coming home". Don't think i'll be calling her again Pity too, she was really cute. But i'm a little grossed out now.

Are you on reddit? Yeah.

Anyone know where i might be able to find someone that can help me out with developing a smartphone app? Getting stuck in the desert this weekend kind of gave me an idea for a very useful application, only problem is i don't know how to make it myself nor do i know anyone that would be able to help me out.

The other one. Went on a date with the black girl but there was no chemistry at all. Went to the desert this weekend. The initial plan was to get there at around 8pm Thursday night, then leave around 1pm the next day. We ended up getting there at around 11:30pm because we had to wait for people, etc. etc. etc. We set up camp, start drinking, smoking, partying. At around 3am me and the girl decide to go to sleep. At around 6 we were woken up in a [bleep]ing panic because the tide was pushing up too much and we had to find a new spot. So half drunk and half asleep we pack up and start moving. My friend who was driving the car misjudged one of the dunes and we ended up rolling the car on it's side. It's funny how slow time was moving while the car flipped over. So we were pretty much in a shitty situation, and the "recovery-car" was only going to be able to help up when the water cleared up in about 4 or 5 hours. So we decided to make the best of it and set up camp again. Spent the entire day swimming and partying again until someone came to help us out. Finally, at around 8pm we got home. Safe to say that i don't think i'll be going to that part of the desert again any time soon.