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Watched Family Guy last night. Had to sleep at my ex's house cause my little sister is house sitting for them and my parents wouldn't let her sleep there alone. So, it's the first time I've watched tv in a while. I laughed a decent amount. No one was there to laugh with me, so I wasn't really loud with my laughs, because I think laughing is a lot more fun when other people are there laughing with you. And because me laughing in an empty room by myself just seemed... reeeaaaally sad, haha.

That's why I never take naps during the day, and why I never sleep in later than 11am. Because of the lethargic feeling, not because of an itching problem. Mhmm. This usually happens on Sundays for me, when I'm thinking about what the next week will be like and thinking about what I did in the past week and what I should've done and what I wanted to do. Can't get to bed at a decent hour cause of that, and then I start my weeks off tired. Also, I hate rooms that don't have any air movement in them. Especially when I'm trying to sleep. I don't care if it's the middle of winter, my fan is on, blowing cold air into my room. Last night I almost had to sleep in a basement without a fan. Luckily, I found one and hooked it up right next to my face. I guess the sound is also soothing. I hate going to bed when it's completely silent. Best combo is a fan (with a bit of a rattle) and some music. I've been listening to music before I go to bed since 5th grade (to get the 'sleep' effect (i.e. music turning off after a certain time) I used cassette tapes and recorded the music I wanted to sleep to onto those so that the music and music machine (boombox) turned off after an hour or so (yay for conserving energy)). I listened to a tape with the song 'Clocks' by Coldplay on repeat on it for probably 3 straight years (no joke). Every single night. Oh, and then once I got my iPod nano in 8th grade (the old school one with the silver back cover and the squarish edges), I used that for my bedtime music. I listened to 'The Long Spring' on repeat every night for about 2 more years. Then, I started making sleep playlists. Don' you love reading about my life?

Looks like that's my only option. Even if I may still have a chance, I don't see how I'll get the chance without backing off for a bit. Well, as much as I don't want to, I'm gonna do it. (thank you everyone who commented) One quick question. What should I tell her if, perhaps, she asks me 'if everything is okay' or something like that? Keep in mind her older sister's wedding is in mid-August, so I'd rather not say something like, 'I just need to figure things out on my own. You probably won't be seeing me or hearing from me.' <-- cause I will see her (either at get togethers with friends or at the wedding.

Congratulations to Ouchy and the others. Nicely done!

TIF is my drug. That is in part true. I came home the other morning with a bit of a headache (was semi-hungover from a party the previous night), so I wasn't feeling good at all. Didn't help that I was a bit wound up because I didn't get to see the girl I liked for very long that night. I started browsing these forums and it calmed me down. And I never threw up.

@Giordano: Why thanks. :grin: A funny secret. I dunno if this has happened to a lot of people, but when I was younger, I was fully dressed and went into the bathroom to brush my teeth, but my older sister was brushing hers, so I had to wait. I sat down on the toilet, not realizing the lid was not down, and I fell in and soaked my butt. And there I was, my bum stuck bobbing in the toilet while I yelled for my mom to pull me out. True story. Ahaha, I'm laughing just remembering it. I hope that happens to my kid one day.

Yeah, I realized that the books lengthen the further you get into the series. I'm enjoying them, though. Probably would have been even better and more exciting if I hadn't seen the movies beforehand.

Mock all you want. :angry: Diane Kruger [hide] [/hide]

Jam Balls - Begin (Loaded Boards) Such a simple song, really relaxing.

I've been buying stuff online with my debit card for a year now. But, I'm an American, so that might make a difference. At this rate, I'll finish all the Harry Potter books before I go back to school. It's been about a week and a half or so, and I'm already on the fourth.

I told myself I wouldn't contribute to this thread. But... What on earth did you just write? :huh: :blink:

Lipstick and expressions may break my bones, but I'll forever love Emma. ... :unsure: Charlize Theron. She has her days. [hide] [/hide]

And I'll be honest. I don't find her attractive/cute in those. I'm a man of my word! You think you caught me, hah. :shades:

Hah, Lenin, I specifically told her that I never use vulgarity around girls, and when I said, "I like you a [cabbage] ton," she giggled and said she liked it. Haha (I'm laughing right now, but on the inside, I'm like, "holy [bleep]ing [cabbage], you're right..."), I was thinking that but I just didn't want to accept it. This is a big reason why I want college to start again, so that I'm back walking around a ton of people I don't know (many being girls). But at the same time, I just don't know for sure what she thinks. Maybe I should just go up to her and ask her, "Hey, I think I'm [bleep]ed. Do you think I'm [bleep]ed? If so, no hard feelings, I'm gonna just stop talking to you for a bit cause I don't think I can get over you without not talking to you."

Standard, you monster. I don't think anything could've ruined my liking of the first picture more than the lipstick in the second. Plus, the second picture makes her look like she had been sleeping on a desk and just woke up.

Haha...oh that's true... I [bleep]ing hate mariachi. I am with you on that one, 100%. There's no kind of music I hate more than mariachi.

Well, I've apparently done what someone who wants an actual relationship with a girl should never do: I've offered to be there if she wants to talk to me about anything; I've helped her with one guy problem (rather, she told me about it, and I merely just talked through it with her); just a few weeks ago I got the courage to tell her about all my insecurities when it comes to knowing what she's thinking (basically I told her about how worried I get when she waits so long to reply to my texts (usually it's around 4+ hours)); told her how much I analyze her texts and the way she is around me even though I'm not trying to, because I'm looking for signs that might be telling me to back off or that she likes me back. I mean, that sounds pretty needy to me. And I've done my best not texting her for long periods of time: just this past week I completely avoided texting her, and I've been trying to cut down on how many and how often I text her to kinda show that I'm not begging her to give me more attention. Took her a whole week to text me. :\ And if it means anything/adds to the context, when we last spoke in person about basically everything, I told her: "I like you a [cabbage] ton. And a lot of me is hoping that if I keep liking you a [cabbage] ton for two, three, four years, maybe in the end, something might happen between us." (using 'like you a [cabbage] ton' because I didn't want to just say 'like you' but I didn't want to use 'love' because at this point, it'd be stupid to use that word). @ Standard: That's tough for me, because I feel like if I do try to attract her, make myself a goal for her, I'll lose her. At this point, it's basically been me trying to court her or what not, trying to make myself look like I'd be a good prospect. From what I can tell, not a whole lot of it has been her. Again, it's like, if I don't text her for a long time and she texts me finally, and I respond, but then I don't text her for a long time after that, how do I know she won't just think, "oh, he just doesn't want to talk to me."

No Farm No Food No Future - My Dad vs. Yours

Just today, I legitimately wondered what it would be like being a dog. Specifically the dog that this girl I like owns and gives so much attention to. Then, I felt really uncomfortable because I thought that. I may be mental.

I'm just saying this: bright red lipstick is not attractive at all for me. Or any bright lipstick. Actually, I dunno if I like lipstick at all. I can't imagine kissing someone with lipstick on. Bleh.

So, something I've seen in this thread a lot is advice for guys never to look 'needy' to the girl they like, because it either isn't attractive or will get you friend-zoned real fast [or both]. What if, since I haven't much experience with relationships, I've already possibly appeared needy. How can I go about correcting that without maybe giving off the vibe that I'm no longer interested/do not want to talk to her?

Went and got mexican food for lunch with my mentors. Mexican food tastes pretty darn good, but I've gotta say, I absolutely hate the mexican restaurants; namely the decorations and the colors and the aesthetics. Guess this could go into the 'what annoys you' thread, but oh well. EDIT: and to be in tune with 'what annoys you' topic, I HATE the music. :3

Holy... :blink: That's [bleep]ing weird. The gal, not your longterm educational goals. :P

I can't run well right after I've eaten, so usually what I've done in the past (at college) is run in the mornings on an empty stomach and eat afterwards. Say I run for maybe 30 minutes. Is that going to affect my muscles?

Those three (Don, Andy, Michael; haven't looked into Craig yet) manage very well without effects or drums. Heck, they make all the necessary drum sounds by slapping their guitar. :P And I just love watching them play, because they get so into it. They play with such passion. Thursday - Asbestoscape