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Yeah I've heard February 1878, and it was just as awesome. I mean I love all of their albums but I'm glad they're going back to their older stuff, I feel like It's All Crazy was their weakest album. And I haven't been able to find a decent quality leak of Blunderbuss yet but its getting pretty good reviews from the music sites I go to, for what its worth. Yeah I have the Sigur Ros album downloaded and unplayed, probably should get to that lol. That Death Grips album is awesome though.

Lol figures I'd start this and completely forget about it. New mewithoutYou album is looking to be pretty fantastic: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S046KlS1rmE There's certainly been a lot of good music coming out this year, but there hasn't been anything that's completely blown me away yet. There's been a couple pretty great metal albums recently though; High on Fire, Lord Mantis, and Fire in the Cave have all released some quality sludge metal. Gorod's new album is pretty great too. Still haven't gotten around to listening to the new Mars Volta or Beach House yet though. One of the more interesting bands I've found so far this year is Dead Sara. They're a female fronted alt-rock band, but with a tinge of industrial influence and vocals that actually can get pretty heavy instead of just being a gimmick like most female vocalists are in the genre. Awesome stuff.

Ehhhhhh. That seems like it will end up just getting you involved in a crapton of drama. If she's already thinking of dating him I highly doubt she's exactly looking for another relationship outside of him right now, not to mention putting her in the situation of either having to break off with him right before prom and potentially wrecking that friendship or having to hide any sort of relationship that does start to form until prom is over, which puts another great deal off stress on her with a guy who clearly is interested in her. I'd take that as a "she's still taken" and move on. But what do I know.

Went to the last Drum Tech class of the semester at University of Michigan tonight. The guy in charge of it had me do a little pre-audition, and from that he pointed out a ton of issues in my technique that my drum teacher never bothered pointing out to me and basically told me my best bet would be trying out for cymbals, but there'd be a good chance too that I'd only be a reserve cymbal player for my first year. Guess that's one way to flatten my ego, though its not exactly like I was expecting any different. I then found out that of the four drum camps they're having over the summer, I'll be missing one because of a trip to New York I'm making with my High School. That combined with the fact that I'm three months behind everyone else that's trying out because I haven't been to other drum tech classes because the college was my fallback school, and its looking like I'll have to pick between going to New York and having even a remote shot at making the lowest rung of the drumline. It was really fun being there, but I just don't know what to do.

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This is probably my favorite list out of all of the ones that have been posted so far.

Saw Stacey in class today and she basically avoided me the whole time, finally managed to catch her on facebook tonight and we talked for about three hours. Much was said and I won't bore with details, but basically while she got over all of her old objections to dating me (too close of a friend, distance, her lack of confidence in her relationship skills), going on that date with me apparently made her realize that she really wasn't interested in anything more than a friendship. Sorta sucked for a minute, but really I've known this was coming in the back of my mind since the first "I have to think about it". And hey, at least I got a bit of a confidence boost out of it; I know somebody has liked me at some point at least, lmfao. Also, that was by far the easiest rejection I've ever dealt with, and its one less steaming pile of drama to worry about as the year finishes out. And I'm still going to prom with her, so I don't have to worry about that either. Now, to spend the next five months sexying up for college. :P On a side note, its kind of funny looking back and realizing that I've been posting about basically every girl I've been interested in since junior high on here, and it took five years for everything that's been being said to sink in enough really to even get one date, lol. But whatever, I've definitely learned a lot from here and my overall confidence has definitely gone up since then.

I haven't had a true first kiss yet and that was the closest thing to a date I've been on, with a girl that's incredibly indecisive as to what she actually wants out of whatever we are at this point that I was trying not to scare off. So forgive me for not knowing how to "create" that moment right away? Hell, I tried setting it up by having us lay out under the stars but then once that happened the conversation turned away from anything intimate enough to lead up to a first kiss... Also for the emoticon discussion, I tend to abuse the hell out of them. Everything seems too serious without them.

Yeah exactly. And it didn't feel right the night of our date-thing, lol.

She has had two boyfriends in the past. One only lasted a month, and the other one lasted three months, but she only went on three dates with him throughout that span. Also, that second relationship was a trainwreck; she lost interest after a month but then the guy started telling her he loved her when she was about to break up with him, which essentially awkwarded her into keeping the "relationship" going. Something similar happened with the first one also from what I understand, but I didn't know her all that well at that time so I don't have any other info. Because of these she said herself that she doesnt consider herself experienced/"good with" relationships. If she decides to go for that second date, I'm thinking of just having her over my house like we were originally supposed to do for the first one, if she doesn't have something else she wants to do. There are a bunch of places to walk to there and I have a shitton of movies + netflix if we want to do that for some reason (though we both quickly shot down the idea last time, lol). Also wouldn't have other people so it'd make it easier to get intimate if she's willing, I guess (at bonez about the sporting event, neither of us are into that so that would be a disaster, lol).

Yeah, you're probably right. It just...never felt like it was the right time for that, I guess.

Well, I had my first date with Stacey last night. My parents were getting home late so we ended up going to a mall for a couple hours. We ate there and walked around for a bit and then chilled with another pair of friends who were basically in the same boat as us that we ran into there for a while before we were allowed to head back to my place. Once we got there we only really had an hour left, so we ended up going for a walk and then laid down and looked at the stars for a while before her parents picked her up. We talked about it after, and we both agreed that we had a lot of fun, and it never got awkward at all. However, she was concerned because she thought it was more of "good friend fun" than "relationship fun", which doesn't exactly bode well for me. I told her the way I looked at it was that the night was more of a test to see if we could even hang out alone without it being awkward, which was a pretty resounding yes, and I proposed that next weekend we go on another date and actually try it as a couple. She said basically that she'd have to think about it still, so I guess I'm in the same boat as I was last post, lol. Still, I have a good feeling about this, as by the end of the night she was referring to us as a couple and a thing. I think that if she agrees to that second date it will end up going well, but I guess I have to get to that point. Also, what are some good ideas of what to do for that second date? We didn't really escalate much physically on this first one and didn't kiss or anything, so I'd like something where that's more possible, lol. I know a favorite around here is ice skating, which I suggested for our first one, but she said she's too uncoordinated and I don't know how, so that got turned away pretty quickly, lol. There isn't really anything in theatres currently either of us would want to see either, lol. Aside from that though I'm open to ideas.

Well, look who's got a date tomorrow. :P

Yeah I'll look into that but I don't think that there are buses like that here in Michigan >.> All the car companies sort of axed any chance this place had of public transit, lol.

So, a bit of a more interesting development in my case. So I talked to Stacey last night on facebook, and eventually he topic came back to, well, us. After about 2 hours, we finally cleared up every little piece of drama that's been going on between us over the last three years, and this is what I learned: - She did like me around February when I made that original post, but that one [bleep] friend that was causing me problems lied to her and told her I was over her so she ignored it, and then her getting sick really didn't help anything -She had liked me since January, before her last ex even broke up with her. -She still likes me, but is afraid of losing me as a friend because we've been getting so close and is afraid of what will happen when I go off to college next year (granted, she's staying at home and the place I'm going is only an hour away, but I won't have access to a car and she doesn't have her license yet). -She is also afraid that she's a bad girlfriend because with her last two exes she lost interest quickly after the first couple weeks they were dating (though they both were clingy as all hell). At the same time, she already feels closer to me than she did to either of them. So after all of this, I proposed that we just hang out and see how it works out; if its awkward I'll drop it, if not we'll keep going. She agreed that it was a good idea. She then went to bed saying she'd have to really think about everything that I had said, and that she would want me to do the same for her point of view. So...I guess I'll see what happens with this, lol.

Well, payed my enrollment deposit today and am now officially going to University of Michigan Ann Arbor next year. Sorta bummed I didn't get in anywhere else, but it's still an awesome school at least. I haven't realized until now how out of shape my drumming has gotten, so I'm going to start stepping up my game a lot so that I have a shot of making the drumline next year. So today I'm practicing that for a while, then going to see some friends' robotics competition before eventually going to another friend's movie night. Should be a fun day.

Eh. At the same time, it was a friend's party. I did consider trying that, actually, but I figured it'd have been really awkward for her with other people around. Granted, half of them were watching the movie and the other half were occupied with their own significant others, but it just didn't feel like the right time/place to try something like that. (Assuming by moving beyond cuddling you meant trying to kiss her). She also isn't normally a very touchy person, so I figured it was a good enough sign as it was. ...Besides, though this makes me sound much more socially inept than I actually am, it was my first time cuddling with a girl I liked, lmfao. Was on too much of a high from that to really be thinking "strategically", lol.

Today seemed like the slowest day of school I've ever gone through. Then I got home to find out I was waitlisted at Carnegie Mellon's school of Computer Science, Electrical Engineering Department, and School of Information Sciences. Guess I should be happy that I made it this far, but it still sucks that I won't get a real response from them until its too late to really do anything about it. Going out for Chinese later to try to salvage something out of this day, but...bleh.

Lol, obviously its too late to change any of that, but out of curiosity what do you mean?

So I ended up hanging out with Stacey at a friend's party last night, and we ended up cuddling for basically the last few hours, so I was thinking, damn, I've finally got this. Today she texted me and said, "Hey just making sure, we're just going to prom as friends, right?". [bleep]. So basically, I ended up telling her I liked her, and she offered to let me go find someone else if I wanted to find someone I actually could start a relationship with, but she still wanted to go with me if I would still go with her. Not exactly any options for me at this point though, so I said I'd still go with her. Woo awkward friend date. At least I'm not going alone though I guess. Damn I can't wait until I can start fresh in college...

So hang out with her alone?

Now after three years I finally got a first division rating at the State Solo and Ensemble festival for a percussion quartet. Have a friend's birthday party later too. God I love this weekend.

Aced three quizzes, had an awesome rehearsal for a play I'm in, got a prom date, and came home to a $19,000 Merit Scholarship from Rose-Hulman Institute of Technology. Later I'm going to a bonfire with some friends I haven't seen in a while, this day couldn't be any better :D

Asked Stacey to prom today after rehearsal and she said yes, I'm on top of the [bleep]ing world.

I havent had this issue happen this badly until this past month or so. just that, like, I pretty much talk to everyone in band and drama and my other group of friends doesn't really have anyone who is both single and attractive to me, which means I have a ton of friends by now but I don't really have many avenues open for a relationship, I guess. Excited for going away to college so I can break out of that rut, but for now it's what I have to work with, lol. And like I said, I don't really know many other ways to keep meeting people this late in the year.