deloriagod

Honestly, you don't have to read this. This is just me getting some things off my chest here, because I'd rather not have all my rl friends know what's going on.. 5 or 6 years ago, my mom was the nicest person you could meet (she could talk for hours about anything) and really social. My dad and her would go out every weekend to clubs, have a few drinks, and just have fun. When she was checking out at a store, she would talk to the cashiers and I could tell she never wanted to wrap up the conversations. Well a couple of years ago she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia (which basically means she's in constant pain and her muscles don't heal like a healthy persons' would). She's on all kind of medications, she's always being taken off one and put on another. She works full time for her own business (that she runs with my dad) and I can tell it's stressful as hell. But for the past year or so she hasn't wanted to go out. She hasn't been as talkative. She just hasn't been herself. She was always stressing out, always going to the doctor, but I didn't think too much of it. But now I'm getting worried. For the past few months she gets stressed too easily, she's in more pain than ever, and she just doesn't seem to know when to keep her mouth shut. I know, it's great that she's talking but I wish she'd shut up. She's been saying nothing but bad things that drive my parents' friends away and she even says things to my friends that make them not want to hang out at my place. Then she gets mad when they people don't come around, and she's worse to them when they do come around, then gets even more mad when they don't come around again. At first, I just thought it was the kind of person she was becoming.. But now I'm almost thinking it's more of a mental condition. I could see being in constant pain having negative affects on your brain. Now, there's one more thing that makes matters worse. My dad doesn't understand what I'm thinking about this. He thinks she's just becoming a [bleep] (his words). He even mentioned a divorce if she didn't straighten up. Now I'm going to throw a few things out there that, connected, having got me worried out of my mind: -Too much stress can lead to depression -Depression can cause suicidal thoughts. It can fog the brain, thinking death is the only way out of a mess -Divorce (or even the idea of having one) can be really hard on a person My mom is stressed like crazy, which could possibly lead to depression. Then my dad said something about a divorce to her if she didn't straighten up. I'm sure you all can make that last connection that's I'm thinking of. However, if things are not as I fear they might be and she doesn't straighten up as my dad wants, if my dad goes through with a divorce I don't know what side I'd take. My little list of pros/cons: Mom: -Has been there for me through everything I've ever done, never once turned on me. -Doesn't question what I want to do for a living, what I want to do to my body, or who I want to be with. -May have a serious problem, might not be able to provide for herself and me if she really has a mental problem. -Tried to get a job when I was little to make things easier on the family (money was more than tight). Dad: -Has only been there for me when I'm doing things he wants me to. -Basically has a plan for my life, and hates when I don't follow it. -Could possibly provide for the both of us if actually tried to get a job. -Hasn't bother to try to get a job since being layed-off 3 years ago (we're now living off savings cause business is bad). Just a small list, but after next year I'll be out of the house and I won't have to decide who to go with. You never think anything is going to hurt, until it hits home. Just the idea sucks like no other.. And I know, I'm over-reacting to a lot of things, but I just can't help it this time. I don't want to lose my mom in any way, but I'm really afraid something is wrong with her. And then my dad doesn't bother to help, he just tells her whats on his mind and leaves it at that..

My parents rarely hug or kiss each other. They hug me every night before they go to bed, but I've only seen them hug/kiss each other a few times.

Let's try putting it in different terms.. Say you get into a fight at school. The other guy throws the first punch, it stings like hell. You throw the next, he takes a step back and you can tell it hurt. Are you going to give him the chance the come back for another swing, or are you going to take your open shot and finish him?

Yes, because I support what the US did, I totally support terrorism :roll: But what you're telling me is, the US can get attacked, but they're not allowed to go after the country that attacked them. So, you support world powers doing nothing in a time of crisis? People die every day. Their skin may not melt, their eyes may not pop out, but death is part of life. The women and children were the only real loss. Any of the men could have become soldiers and fought against the US.

The first one, of course, was justified. No country should ever sit back and let themselves be attacked. The second one, I think was justified. The Japanese attack was pretty much a surprise attack. They caught us off guard, so why not show them what we're capable of? We wiped on city off their map, let's show them what will happen if they try anything else.

The thing is, I know a decent bit about getting a tattoo. I'm not just going to walk in, tell them what I want, and sit down. I'm going to go through the artists portfolios. I'm going to have my design in my hand when I walk in. I'm going to look at the design they put on my skin before they begin. And where I want it is in plain view, they can't f*ck with me like they could if I was having it done on my back. I was looking for meaning what I live by, not originality. I could totally get "Dude, was that the chick you were with last night?" tattooed across my chest, because I doubt anyone else has that. But I'm not going to. It's more original, but doesn't mean anything to me. Also, I want simple sayings, nothing that I could make a sleeve out of.. You could totally get "I'm Stricker and I'm afraid of Rick cause he's too much like a kangaroo". Hell, I'd pay to see you get that tatted.

When the mood is right and things get going, I have no self control :(

Firewater (acoustic) - Yellowcard

You know, I've been thinking a lot about that. I've decided I'd rather work for $25-30g's a year with a boss thats accepting and enjoy life than for $70g's and have to cover existing tats and not be able to get anymore and regret that later in life. As long as I can provide for my family while being allowed to express myself and not be shot down at work, life would be amazing. I've also been thinking of something else.. Did you ever notice how your parents seem perfect in your eyes when you're young? Then you get older and you see their flaws Everyone has flaws but some are horrible. Today I mentioned to my dad I was condering a career as a tattoo artist and I'd have to live with him until my apprenticeship was up. He basically told me I would be wasting my life and if I did that I would have to move out and work my [wagon] off to pay bills while still keeping an apprenticeship (which pays very little to none for any of you who didn't know). And I know he'll want to kill me if I get these tats, but that's his problem if he doesn't like them. He let me get my first and I fell in love with it, now I want more..

Judging by the news report, it sounds like it was almost initiated by the boys. There's no arguing that it's completely her fault, but I don't think it can be considered rape. She didn't force sex. I have to agree with you there. I've always known rape to be forced sex. However you could consider it molestation since the boys were underage.

I've got $5 on the brightest colored one!

Well to start off you can only start this in a very populated place, like a mall or wal-mart parking lot. You get a piece of chalk and draw a big circle around yourself, starting shouting and dancing around inside your circle. Oh and you have to be dressed up in the wierdest outfit you could find. A haloween pirates costume the size for a 7 year old would suffice. And then you teleport! To an asylum! Wal-Mart here I come! :

Since I just found out about these glitches, one of you had better start explaining teleportation because I'm tired of walking ..

I've been sex deprived for a month now and I'm not screwing anything in sight :? But didn't the article say she had a boyfriend? Boyfriend + sex deprivation = doesn't happen.

Gratz. You've seen your first naked girl. You'll probably see many more online and if you're lucky you'll see one irl. And if you that lucky time happens to be in a private place, she might let you touch her :thumbsup:

So.. I'm not allowed to express myself on my own body? I'm not allowed to use my body for what I want in this lifetime? Basically, you're saying that since you don't like tattoos, I shouldn't get one, right? That's too bad because I already have one and I don't plan on your opinion stopping me from getting more. Try to physically stop me, I dare you. Also, I don't plan on a job in the gov't. I'm thinking photographer (I could open my own studio and be my own boss there), some form of art teacher, or some form of a desk job where I don't have to deal with [developmentally delayed]ed customers all day. I've thought of becoming a tattoo artist because of my love of both tattoos and art, but I have very little confidence in my own artwork and putting it on someone else just doesn't sound like fun :-#

Or her even :lol: Was it ever decided whether it was a he or she?

I've been told muscle gain doesn't distort the tattoo enough to be noticeable (if it even distorts it at all). Say you had it on your stomache and put on a lot of weight in fat, then it would be distorted.

oh yeah well im zezima and N0valyfe!- Go ahead and be them.. I'm TKS.. I pray someone here remembers him..

Idk about that but breasts aren't that amazing. Fun to play with for a while but the good stuff is lower ;) Definitly gotta go with Mims on this one..

Hah, I'd bet there's less than 10 people like that. I'm not ripped - but I'm in good shape My IQ isn't over 150 - I'd be lucky to have my IQ over 110 I don't play Runescape - Yeah, I retired I come to TIF! - Yes! I fit in with one of those standards!

You realised there is more to life than body building and being 'ard? :o Yep. There's also love. And enjoying what you have. And that's it. Nothing else matters. except of course, for food No, food is bad. Imagine all those calories you take in and don't manage to burn off during the day :shock:

You realised there is more to life than body building and being 'ard? :o Yep. There's also love. And enjoying what you have. And that's it. Nothing else matters.

What I mean is someone just goes into a tattoo parlor, looks through the flash, finds a kanji symbol they think is "cool" or "pretty", finds out what it means and thinks it's something they can relate to so they go ahead it get it based most on the appearence of the design rather than what it actually means. I could care less what the characters look like, it's what they mean that I'm interested in. I'm getting them in a simple font too.

I believe Bubsa was referring to none other than me. :D :lol: He doesn't even have to say anything and I know he's thinking of me too.. Not even joking.. :? The last time i cried.. I don't remember the last time I cried from pain but I cried the last time reality hit me like a ton of bricks. But I'm happily living in my own "reality" again. :)