Jakerdang

Thanks guys, all I really want is to be appreciated by my best friend that I love. I WILL just not talk to her or whatever, but I don't think I can just call it quits being best friends with her. I don't know how that would go with her either. It seems she really does like being friends, but she just doesn't put forth the effort that I do to make sure she is happy.

Does she? Does she really? Or are you just telling yourself that? Try just straight up ignoring her for a while, and see if she really does. It'll be hard, but it'll help. I love the ideas but she's too difficult to work with. For whatever reason, the only time she has straight up told me she loved me was because she had a dream that I died and wanted to make sure I know she loves me. If I ignore her, it's no skin off her nose compared to how I feel about it. Sure I have plenty other friends, just none like her. And quite frankly, I don't know how long I could go without talking to her. Whenever I try something like ignoring her, it hardly affects her and she will just call me a baby or something.

Ah yes, in rough times I have tried the "don't take [cabbage] and leave" method, but I need her more than she needs me. Don't get me wrong, she needs me, she just seems to forget or doesn't show it. She really doesn't just say her feelings often.

Hello. I have been lurking this thread and I have finally come to seek..well, advice. About a year and a half ago, I started talking to this girl who went to my school. She was really insignificant to me, she just would wish me a happy Easter or birthday or whatever. One day, I heard people talking about her moving. I decided to just talk to her to see how she was feeling and stuff because she always seemed like a lovely girl. To make a very long story short, we became best friends. She considered me the only boy she could trust, and I took great joy in that. So, she became my closest girl friend but I never thought of her as anything more. In the past year and a half we have only had one or two major fights, and currently we are very good friends. To her, I have always been the friend that would be there for her. To me, she was my best friend ever and I would be happy as long as i had her as my friend, nothing more. As our friendship went on, she would have little relationships with some boys, as a result of this, I felt a weird jealousy feeling. I don't want to be with her like that, you know? I love her, goddamn I do, but as a best friend, or a sister, something along those lines. So blah blah, she finally got with a boy and they stuck, and have dated for five months now. She would always talk about him, all the time to me. I'm a very jealous person, that's pretty much my tragic flaw. So, inevitably, I'm jealous. I have lived with it though. But sometime within the last six months, I've had little flares of being upset about her. I often ask questions to myself. "Why NOT me? I love her more than anyone ever will. What's so wrong with me?" Her response to those questions are usually just, "idk" or "because." I've played everything off until very recently. She doesn't live very close to me, about a half an hour away, and we almost never see each other during the school year. So, today, I went to a local amusement park with her. I was very excited to see her, having feeling very strong urges just to be with her, plus, I haven't seen her since February. Maybe too excited..I actually uh, got the runs before I left, haha. It was just supposed to be her and two of my friends and me. I REFUSED to go if I was gonna be the "odd" number person. (I have a big social problem where I HATE being "second priority") Well, she lied so I would go. Upon discovering that she lied, I got pretty mad. At first it wasn't bad. I was near her a lot. (Note that I don't hit on her or something, she's my best friend and it would be weird) About an hour into our little perfect day of fun. She told me her boyfriend was coming. I didn't know him, I just assumed he was an [wagon]. He really wasn't though. Upon his arrival, I became the "fifth wheel" and second priority. I tried to talk to her and stuff but the only time she talked to me was to tell me to hold her bag so she could wrap herself around her boyfriend, or tell me to buy her something. (Which I spent fifteen dollars on her today, and that ruined my chances of getting really good seats for a Goo Goo Dolls concert :???: ) I really think the only reason I spent money on her was so she would notice me for once. I've spent so much money on her in the past two months. For fun, I wrote up a professionally made contract saying that if i gave her money she would have to kiss me. :P Which she was supposed to do today..lol. Anyway, after spending five hours in the hot ass sun, carrying her stuff, wasting my money just to see her and her boyfriend be cute together, I got pretttty sick of it. I had a mini temper tantrum and I grabbed her and told her I was going home. I was expecting her to say "Nooo Jakeyyy Poo, I want you to stayyyy." Nah, she said "Ok." turned around and continued being affectionate with her boyfriend. I got really mad then. I turned around to leave, and she said "Wait..who is gonna hold my stuff now?" She wasn't even kidding. I just left. Not even a goodbye hug, just nothing. This left me going home feeling like absolute [cabbage]. She promised me it wouldn't be like it was, but it totally was. This ultimately led me to the point of this message. Everyone there was with their partner. I wasn't. I haven't even come close to having a girlfriend in a long time. I think I have finally pinpointed the problem. I have subconsciously wanted my best friend. Even after she kinda ruined my day, I still feel the same love for her and I immediately missed her once I left. I've talked to her about us together someday.She just flat says no. I want to be the one that can hold her tight like her boyfriend does, I'm so jealous of him. Even to me this sounds like pointless, unorganized, gibberish, I just wanted to give you guys some background info. Plain and flat, I want to be with her forever, whether it's as a partner, or a friend. What my main main main message is: Should I pursue the only girl I have truly ever loved, even though she's my best friend? I have virtually no chance right now though. I just want her to realize I'm the only guy that will ever love her and be here for her, and I don't know how. I'm not even first priority for her. How should I go on with this?

I envy you.

I'm starting to like these strykewyrm things. 8-)

I was expecting to see a little J-mod crown next to their name when they quick-chatted their Constitution level. But, no. Just a regular player.

Can anyone explain this? He has an adventurer's log and all his combat stats are one, including Constitution. :blink:

Sabres vs. 16th hole, stroke two. <_< Montreal better win.

Having a little lucky streak. First champion scroll since I have been playing. (5ish years) First task of Aquanites ever, and around kill 145, I nabbed this.

How much xp do you get for harvesting booty?

definitely not even worth watching. finland should just throw the towel and get ready for the bronze match At least they got one on Tim Thomas.

I'm glad I didn't have enough points to block these. :P

It is back on for me. That was inconvenient.

Yeah, the GE is acting up and the friends list isn't working and now I just disconnected.

Yeah there is gonna be a third one in a few minutes...but I like all the updates today!

I understand its a beta but getting everything erased for the second time is discouraging. :unsure:

Does anyone think woodcutting is a little not so admirable? My friends clicks on ivy and then plays xbox until the ivy is gone, pause the xbox, click, turns, un-pause xbox. He isn't really devoting his time to playing runescape, he's just devoting his time to play xbox more. He just wants the cape to rub it in my face..but really, an untrimmed woodcutting cape doesn't really make me green with envy.

Looks good. Thanks guys.

What is a good general ranging set-up for someone with 64 ranging and 79 defence? Thanks.

Thanks. It just looked like it was on a hill I couldn't get to or something.

So I'm doing a level 3 clue I got from a hellhound. I just got the coordinates 04 degrees 41 minutes north-----03 degrees 09 minutes west. Can I even get to these coordinates? And if I can, what quests do I need to do/start? Thanks in advance.

I'm having trouble sitting in my house, it happens with everything you can sit on. You sit down for a couple seconds, and then you just stand up again. This happened to multiple people that I know of, and it happened in my friends house as well. Anybody else having this problem?

Haha :D Nah, what scoring do they even have?

Hey, the Sabres scored 10 goals against Edmonton last season. :thumbsup: