Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It's like cutting off your whole leg because your big toe hurts. It's probably one of the most selfish things anyone can do. Think about it, it doesn't make problems go away, it just dumps them on somebody else, multiplied by many times over. Your problem does sounds like a drag, but things will brighten up. Time and effort it what it takes. God Bless. (p.s. Don't think I'm suicidal just because of my name)