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I just spent a night with my pregnant friend and then buried my other friend. Spent today hanging out with pregnant friend's infant nephew. I'm old. Life is short. I think I'm done with chasing crazy. I can't waste my life and feelings on it anymore. I want a family. A home. A career. And chasing crazy isn't getting me any of those. If anything, it's pushing them further.

Just got back from her(my friend's) funeral. I wasn't even close to prepared for the open casket. I literally walked into the wake, dropped my jaw and sat down in shock for 2 hours staring at her lifeless body hoping it would twitch or sigh or shake so that everything would be okay and I could make her smile, and no one would have to deal with her loss. And the whole time I felt guilty for not knowing her better, or making a stronger effort to get to know her more. I finally did work up the nerve to shake her dad's hand, hug her mom and sister. It was heartbreaking. I'd stayed up til 4am drinking and crying last night with some friends, so I was far to dehydrated to even produce tears. But I got to see some people I graduated with I haven't seen since we all walked to our diplomas. She was such a beautiful person, inside and out. She's not on any social media site, and has only had her picture taken like a dozen times. Seeing her in the casket was just...shocking. What I'd do to hear her laugh again. See her smile. Or smell her perfume as she smiled and walked by... I don't think I ever want to go to another funeral. I don't want there to be a reason to.

Just got back from her(my friend's) funeral. I wasn't even close to prepared for the open casket. I literally walked into the wake, dropped my jaw and sat down in shock for 2 hours staring at her lifeless body hoping it would twitch or sigh or shake so that everything would be okay and I could make her smile, and no one would have to deal with her loss. And the whole time I felt guilty for not knowing her better, or making a stronger effort to get to know her more. I finally did work up the nerve to shake her dad's hand, hug her mom and sister. It was heartbreaking. I'd stayed up til 4am drinking and crying last night with some friends, so I was far to dehydrated to even produce tears. But I got to see some people I graduated with I haven't seen since we all walked to our diplomas. She was such a beautiful person, inside and out. She's not on any social media site, and has only had her picture taken like a dozen times. Seeing her in the casket was just...shocking. What I'd do to hear her laugh again. See her smile. Or smell her perfume as she smiled and walked by... I don't think I ever want to go to another funeral. I don't want there to be a reason to.

Thanks man. It was confirmed as a suicide today, and I've been pretty bummed since I heard. Oh and I finally got around to listening to Random Access Memories. Easily the best Daft Punk to date. Makes me feel like I'm living in Portal.

I've had my fair share of warnings, but spamming a thread about warnings with reasons to get warned just seems uneducated.

Me personally? No. Have I seen it happen? Yes. My male friend and my female friend have been together for nearly a year now, and have probably my favorite relationship out of any of my friends ever. She's the 2nd of 6 kids from a low income family and essentially raised herself and her younger siblings. She used to have issues of getting drunk and ending up in random places. And what some may consider a drug issue. He's an heir to a major company and used to drink himself into oblivion everyday just out of boredom, and also dabbled in some really hard drug use. Now they're both normal ass functioning people, looking to grow the [bleep] up. He still drinks a bit, but just socially, and she's completely clean now, doesn't even smoke. Both have 2 jobs now, and he's working on getting his career started. So yes, "damaged goods" are still goods. I'd even venture to say more so than non-damaged.

I liked this thread til about 4 pages ago

back from a 4 day "roughin it" camping trip. Packed nothing but food, tent and wood. Was the most tranquil experience I've had in ages. Problem was, my pregnant friend who was 20 weeks got a call from her mom that her dog died in the middle of the trip. But she ended up being okay because she's a rational girl. Just needed a sonic smoothie, and some friends (which there was plenty back at the campsite, having 14 of us chilling around a fire most of the trip). I got home an hour or so ago to find out the girl I was going to get fixed up with suddenly died while I was out camping. Which is tragic. She was a nice girl. 3rd person in my graduating class that I knew that's died. And I'm only 21. Grab life by the horns kids. Never know what's gonna go down. In other camping news, I took a ton of pictures, went hiking, went fishing, and ignore the two dozen work related calls and 17 work related text messages. Super chill. I wish I could have stayed there forever.

went camping, will spare the ~50 pics for just this one:

Is it bad my first reaction was "attention [bleep]"? Yes. no. Some girls unfortunately do say these things strictly for the attention or "advantage". Some girls really suffer. My latest crazy claimed to have been raped twice when I first started talking to her, so I was real sensitive about it. But then she told me she got raped again last weekend with a smile on her face and assured me "it was cool, I'm used to it". Which is wildly inappropriate. I figure what really happened was she got a little too not-sober and had sex with someone who she regretted having sex with the next morning. And then cried rape to gain pity and support in finding a new thing to have sex with. But then, my girl's a psycho. Not all girls are psychos.

I'd be there for you with a cig and a brew. I went to get my shirt and shit back from my ex's. Ended up smoking with her, and she told me it's "somewhere in the house" and would find it later. I know she has it. I know she knows where it is. She just knows if I get it back it's totally done. But it's my favorite shirt. And I can't ever let go of anything. So basically it's coming down to her or the shirt. And right now I'm kinda feeling buying a new shirt.

Breaks my heart that so many of the original serious Hegemony players disappeared from TIF over the years. Looking at that list had some major throwback value

But LoL gets you hawt tumblr gurls. It annoys me when "gamer girls" brag about how nerdy they are. And when one headphone shatters but the other one still works fine. What a waste.

Nah bro, Scott left the band, and Chester is the new official lead singer. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stone_temple_pilots

what is even happening in this thread

Style it how exactly? It's asymmetrical and wavy. I haven't discovered an alternative option yet to what it can do

Which reminds me I have to look into a ton of music I've missed in the past month or so. New Daft Punk New Fallout Boy New Secrets New Sleeping with Sirens New Deadmau5 (from like last year) Not to mention the fact that Chester Bennington just joined Stone Temple Pilots. Music industry. Wat r u doing. stahhhp.

Am I cool yet? (I should win bonus points for the fact that both my shirt and scarf are one of a kind, made by 2 of my friends respectively)

How big was it? 200m big.

The Sith in me claws at your comment in disdain and disgust at the ignorance displayed. The me in me is just kinda high again.

17 hours and only one post? i am dissapoint. Today I worked. Bout to go eat with some friends. Then drinks.

Clearly Markus has never heard of (X/2)+7

new kanye album was going to be called "i am god" recently changed today I hate everything and everyone. a lot. [bleep]ing hate them. friends. bosses. coworkers. everyone [bleep]ing sucks. i hate. hate. hate.

she cute

http://imgur.com/gallery/y0IAWXk Hover boots test: take one (can photo-shopping bikes out of bike races be a thing?)