Tesset

Pretty good, I like what I've listened to so far.

Listened to this on repeat basically all day, it's really good

There's no -0, so 3 in that array corresponds to L[-1]. It's been a long time since I used python for one project in one class that wasn't about python, though, so I might be wrong, but I believe that's accurate.

I also do not read the other forums, and haven't since I was like 16, but I got what you were going for, rpg

I tried to write some dynamic typing today at work before I realized what I was doing. Disgusting. I have become the monster

>My yard is a mess >One (1) tire Once upon a time, I wanted to get a scooter, but you have to have a motorcycle license to drive a scooter in Nebraska, so I never got one. Plus, the practicalities of it being winter half the year, and also not being able to drive to another town without an actual vehicle. Nowadays I don't really want one, which makes me a little sad.

Question for the canadians in the crowd: what does your inter town road system look like? Like, in America, there's 2 types. Interstates, which are large scale roads with medians between lanes going different directions, always 2 or more lanes going the same direction so you can safely pass slower moving vehicles, where you're allowed to go 110km/h+. And highways, which are generally only 1 lane per direction, which are next to each other with no median, and have speed limits below 100km/h. I realized last night that we're taking an interstate into canada this summer, and I have no conception of how the road is going to change upon crossing the border. It looks like one continuous road on google, but the canada side looks like all the other roads that connect up to highways, there's no clear difference in type.

Yeah, I think Facebook's the same way now. It's very frustrating.

Idk about that. Once a few years ago, someone found a LOTPW thread in a forum entirely overrun with bots, all with post counts in the hundreds of thousands. That was probably the best bot forum I've ever seen, it'd be hard to top that

Idk, their website also has poor English, but it's at least better than the post. I think the bot could just have learned from other posts along with a heavy bit of bias for the product.

Don't call yourself fat, Goon, you look perfect to me <3

Yeah, I guess that could be a neural network generating the text. Seems like overkill, but hey, who am I to judge.

I love that spam accounts are taking the time to read the threads and format their spam to be related to the topic. Like, isn't the point of spam to just get the message out there as many times as possible? Seems like that would slow you down a lot

HIPPO? Is Goon somehow threatening you with a hippo if you release his phone number? I'm mostly surprised it's not some sort of cat, tbh

Oh man, that means Nyo has Goon-senpai's number. What do I have to do to get you to leak that, Nyo?

I bought a new car last year, and took out a loan to do so. When I set it up, I had the money automatically taken out of my checking account, which is fine. But, now I want to close that account (because I have to in order to get my parents off it), and I need to change the loan payment over (or just pay it off, which is the plan). But, I can't find the paperwork for the loan. I know who the provider is because they've sent me a couple of pieces of mail, but neither of them have, like, an account number or anything on them. And there's no like "look up your account number!" option on their website. Calling's my next option, but I haven't taken it yet, because ugh. So I feel like a responsible adult today. Payed my taxes at least >.>

And make believe with you! My last ban was for doing this, if a mod shows up I'm really gonna be in trouble lmao

Honestly, that's on them. You're offering a genuine connection, possibly for the first time, and how they respond to that says nothing at all about you. If they don't take it well, that's their problem (and, frankly, their loss). They've got this idea of you, or of who they think you could have been, and they're doing an incredibly poor job of adjusting to reality. That's not on you, that's on their attachment to their own fantasies. Pay special attention for focus-shifting, making it about them and how their ideal son being different from their actual daughter affects or hurts them. That's not what this conversation is for. If it comes, just know it's bullshit no matter how much it hurts in the moment. They might be hurting too, but it's a self-inflicted hurt in their case, and I have little sympathy. I'm guessing dad isn't big on introspection, but it sounds like your brother is at least a little supportive. Any chance he's in a position to get your father to explore his feelings and their sources? Maybe you could, but I worry that it might lead to a blow-up, which would be pretty much the opposite of helpful. Don't you dare, Tes. Not one damnable piece of this is your fault; don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Seriously, look at the reason you gave to suggest that it might be. They're bringing crap to the table, and it's not your crap to shovel. If they value the relationship, if they value you, they can do whatever self-work they need to do and start acting like it. Being the parent of an adult is pretty different from being the parent of a child, and lots of people are better at one or the other. Some people really struggle with the transition, and it comes pretty naturally to others. The power dynamic shifts toward equality once you remove dependency, so don't feel like you have total control over it and don't feel bad for exercising the power you do have. It's not tyranny on your part, it's just a more balanced relationship. You're still walking on eggshells to express [your]self in a way that they don't feel like they're being attacked, and you shouldn't have to. You're presenting truths about yourself and your experiences, and that alone cannot be an attack. Not ever. You're not imposing, so there's nothing for them to push back against. Don't expect that to stop them from trying, just know what's really happening when they do. Relationships should, generally, benefit those involved. If it's not working that way, I say give them a chance to miss you. It sucks, especially when you're missing the support an adult should be able to count on from their parents, but at least you're not getting your hand slapped away for it. Honestly, it doesn't. I'd usually caution against all-or-nothing thinking, but the first option there really sounds like the way to go. Just be ready to sever the relationship if it comes to that; don't half-ass it and show them that you're actually okay with their continuing bullshit. If they're not willing to have a relationship with you, to have a part in your real life, you're under no obligation to indulge their fantasies and give them the illusion of it. Family is more than blood, and blood doesn't make a family. (If you're adopted, s/blood/legal filiation/ as appropriate) -- Maybe a little inappropriate, but are your parents narcissistic or high-conflict people in general? [/hide] Yeah, most of this I agree with, and I know at least intellectually. My post was...a little melodramatic. Lots of emotions yesterday, writing that letter. One way or the other, I'll be alright. We've been drifting apart for a long time, so if the worst happens, honestly, I'm more than prepared to sever ties with them. Just...sad to think about the Christmases I'll lose, that's all. But thank you. I needed to hear all that again. Yeah, it really feels like it should be easier for enbies, especially if they don't plan on medically transitioning (which is not to comment on your situation, just was the case for the person I knew). But I've seen how it can go, and it's rough. I wish you luck in at least finding someone in your family who will support you. Or, finding another one that will, however it works out.

Wrote my coming out letter to my parents today. Now to spend the next few weeks looking for resources for them and rewriting the letter 6 thousand times... [hide=Depressive family stuff]I really don't think they'll take it well. They've taken a stance of "ignore anything our child does that's even a little bit queer, because they won't listen to our 'concerns' and will get angry at us for bringing it up." And, yeah, that's about what's happened. They don't talk about me being ace/aro, and just kind of awkwardly dance around any discussion of my (non-)romantic life. They steadfastly ignore my nail polish, my earrings, my hair, any piece of self expression. They just kind of pretend I'm still the boy they tried to raise. Except when they talk to other people. Apparently my dad regularly brings up how disappointed he is in me to my brother, who has to remind him that I'm doing really well compared to most of my peers. Maybe some of it's my fault, because I don't want to put up with their crap. They don't have power they're willing to exercise over me anymore, so I'm not going to back down from who I am, and they know that. And it's either they don't talk about it, or I get angry and don't talk to them. I don't know a way to express myself in a way that they don't feel like they're being attacked, and they don't know how to push back without me feeling attacked. And, because I'm getting less out this relationship now, I have the power, so they compromise on not making me upset. God, that sounded really manipulative. That's not the goal, I just want to be who I am. And because of their biases, my choice is either to do so unapologetically and accept no abuse for it, or to pretend to be someone else around them. I refuse to do the latter any more. I don't think that's manipulation, at least not in an abusive sense... In any case, this isn't like coming out as ace. They can't just ignore it, can't just stop talking about some aspect of my life. Coming out as trans is going to require them to either refer to me as Tes, with all that entails, or to actively hurt me. And I'm probably not going to stick around if they aren't at least trying. So, I think this is going to be hard for them, and I don't know a way to make it easier without staying in the closet the rest of my life.[/hide]

I just picked up Transgender Dysphoria Blues a week or two ago, and that album just kind of wrecked me the first time listening through. It's so good, but god damn do some of the songs hit hard. In a similar vein, I've been listening to a lot of MowMowMow lately. Her latest album is one of my top 5, I think.

Just got ma'amed while out shopping! Holy shit, that was an amazing feeling, especially when she didn't feel the need to immediately correct herself

Can it be a blues band?

For some reason, my face is really tender today after electrolysis yesterday. This hasn't happened before, and it's really annoying.

Request to the admins to add a dislike button so I can dislike Goon's posts

Still the plurality tho