Tesset

What a wonderful way to die. Green fire. From the copper on your statue, so it'll just be a regular fire, but still, kinda cool

"o.o

Changed into a statue of their preferred form by a wizard

I bet I could win this now, alone. Unless they make RPG a mod, that might be a problem 3

Vapes, because they're bad for you. Why would one hate fidget spinners. Windy Days or Overcast Days

Have I improved in 3 years? See ts Nope

Thank you for taking care of things, Mage, it's really appreciated, even if there's not many of us still around.

Yeah, it's more than a little jarring. I have to log in with my email now instead of my username. Rip to the last vestige of Who Am I as my internet username. You were a good first try, alas that too many others had the same idea and ruined my ability to ever get it

I wish a guy would rent a house on a lake for me so I could turn him down to work on an esssy I procrastinated on

I do have a dishwasher, but listen, it's not laziness. I'm not sitting around doing nothing productive trying to avoid work. I'm getting shit done every night, just sometimes I run into a wall that I can't move past for individual tasks.

I don't currently have any clean dishes, and haven't for like 3 days. I've been eating out more

Anyway what up I gotta wake up in 4 hours, when do I get the adult skill that makes me tired at 9 pm

Warning: This may make you think less of me. Please do not judge me too harshly, at least to my face. Ongoing signs I may have ADHD, I stayed up until 2 am editing my deadname out of my old high school/college essays because I was looking for a particular poem I wrote but I couldn't find it in my desk drawers even after reinventorying the contents, which I was looking for because I wanted to record my voice, but I couldn't think of anything to ramble about, and I didn't want to record the thing I usually do even though it's fun to perform because I need to edit it to remove some outdated stuff about me, and I didn't feel like doing that tonight, even though that's literally what I ended up doing to my old essays anyway! And yet it's been almost 2 weeks and I still can't convince myself to do dishes. I want to do the dishes. I need to do the dishes. But I just can't convince myself to do it. I walk in every day and say out loud "okay I'm going to do the dishes" and yet they don't get done. I have the energy to do dishes. I've done several harder tasks, including tax paperwork that involved emailing a stranger, two of the hardest tasks for me, traditionally, but I can't do 15 minutes worth of dishes. I mostly have my life under control re: getting stuff done, but god, it's annoying how fast little daily tasks stack up.

Granted. A truck drives by with a ton of ghee. I wish for some yummy breakfast food to eat.

Granted, you gain a geological perspective of time. As the years rush by, you find that the handful of decades this forum existed for blur into an imperceptible difference. It all feels so hollow and empty, in comparison for your new grand purpose. I wish for a kitten

Oh my god I can't believe how much of an idiot you are with that guess. Tess

Officially came out at work today. Got quite a few supportive responses, a lot of congratulations, everyone's been really kind so far. It's a lot off my mind to finally be out there, only 1 more day until I can come back not wearing clothes I hate anymore, and goodness I am excited for that. Apparently, one of my coworkers has a son who's trans, and at some point next week I'm going to be going to lunch with them to meet him and maybe answer questions and stuff. I suppose I'm qualified by dint of literally actively going through the process, but god, I do not feel it lol. Idk, it might just be regular old "meeting strangers" anxiety, or regular old "taking care of children" anxiety, since it's kind of both things. I think it'll be good, and I need to offer my hard-won knowledge, but yeah, it's a whole thing.

Delete everything but the very first post in LOTPW and leave it locked.

WHAT? SPEAK UP I CAN'T HEAR YA YA YOUNG FART

If only Goon were here, he'd have a great video to post...

Fishing

Right, but if the underlying problem (as I suspect) is executive dysfunction, then it's not a matter of remembering to do things. It's a matter of actually starting them, or working on them. I've heard it described as an invisible wall that prevents you from acting. It's not 100% on my experience, but the closest I have seen? I looked for like 20 minutes for a comic I saw once that did a really good job describing it, but it's lost to the ether of social media now. I can (and do) create space in my life to do things, but actually filling that space with action is very hard, in a way I suspect is atypical. Whether it's ADHD? That's something I would like my therapist to tell me, unprompted, so that it's not me putting that idea in her head. That's maybe not the right way to go about it, but it's what I'm trying.

That definitely doesn't work for me. That's actually way worse than just relying on my memory & willpower.

I have 8 different checklists in my notes app. Some of the items in those checklists are "make checklists for x" It's not really an effective strategy for me, but it's better than nothing.

Went clothes shopping yesterday, for work clothes, as the day I'm planning to come out at work is creeping pretty close. For most of my life, shopping for gender affirming clothes offline was incredibly panic inducing, but ever since starting HRT, it's gotten a lot easier. Leading up to yesterday, when instead of having my traditional "oh god people are looking at me like I'm a pervert!" freakout, I just had a "theres too many choices and I don't know what I'm looking for!!" freakout, which is how most of my clothes shopping for my entire life has gone. So that's progress. Now if only, one of the million times I describe executive dysfunction to my therapist, she would recognize it and tell me how to fix it, I could get rid of that problem too :P